{"id":10044,"date":"2017-12-11T12:30:59","date_gmt":"2017-12-11T12:30:59","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/herway.net\/?p=10044"},"modified":"2021-08-12T12:46:28","modified_gmt":"2021-08-12T12:46:28","slug":"por-ti-amo-de-otra-manera","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/por-ti-amo-de-otra-manera\/","title":{"rendered":"Amo de forma diferente gracias a ti"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Amo de forma diferente gracias a ti<\/p>\n<p>Amo con mis muros completamente derribados porque contigo nunca me sent\u00ed lo suficientemente c\u00f3moda como para sentirme vulnerable. Siempre me sent\u00ed t\u00edmida a tu alrededor. Sent\u00eda que ten\u00eda que andar siempre con pies de plomo. Sent\u00eda que ten\u00eda que esconder mi voz y guardar mis emociones porque todo lo que sent\u00eda, todo lo que necesitaba y todo lo que sent\u00eda que merec\u00eda, t\u00fa me lo hac\u00edas sentir como algo insignificante. <strong>Ahora amo de forma diferente gracias a ti.<\/strong> I shout what I want out of life. I don\u2019t quiver at the thought of raising my voice, or standing up for myself even if I have to risk the possibility that I\u2019ll be standing alone. I\u2019m with someone now who rejects that possibility. I share love with someone who never makes me question who is standing beside me, who is rooting for me, and who thinks that any dream I have is more than plausible. <strong>Amo de forma diferente gracias a ti.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>I\u2019m no longer afraid that my opinions will shatter what little foundation you and I actually had together. My voice made your ears bleed because you were never in the mood for what I wanted to say. You convinced yourself that you had <a href=\"https:\/\/www.elitedaily.com\/dating\/saving-your-relationship\/1236583\" rel=\"noopener\">realmente intentado en nuestra relaci\u00f3n<\/a>. You played the victim over and over and over again and somehow I became the bad guy for telling you I needed actual love. I needed love that made me feel safe. I needed love that made me feel like I was worth something to you. I needed love that didn\u2019t make me question who I was because you tried so hard to take over my identity. I felt so worthless because of you<strong> \u00bfy por qu\u00e9?<\/strong> \u00bfPor qu\u00e9 me besar\u00edas, saldr\u00edas conmigo y me dir\u00edas que soy guapa s\u00f3lo para arrancarme todas esas comodidades? \u00bfTe sientes bien contigo mismo? <strong>\u00bfTe sientes bien por el hecho de que llor\u00e9 por ti durante meses? \u00bfEncuentras consuelo en mi dolor?<\/strong> Do you feel rewarded that you broke me down and beat me down to the point where I thought I\u2019d never find love again?<\/p>\n<p>Me convenc\u00ed a m\u00ed misma de que merec\u00eda el tipo de amor que estaba repleto de abuso emocional. <strong>Segu\u00ed eligiendo chicos que me daban todas las frases del libro. Nunca fui yo el problema, siempre fueron ellos. Me daban esa frase una y otra vez.<\/strong> Estaban tan consumidos por el trabajo y hab\u00edan sido heridos por todas las dem\u00e1s mujeres de sus vidas que eran demasiado fr\u00e1giles para probar de nuevo el amor. <strong>Yo era el que era demasiado fr\u00e1gil<\/strong> porque era yo la que segu\u00eda huyendo de cualquier verdadera oportunidad de ser feliz. Amo diferente por ti, porque durante muchos a\u00f1os despu\u00e9s de ti, <strong>Am\u00e9 sin ser correspondido.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>I had to push my way through to find a good one. I had to go against every natural instinct to fall for the guy who smiled at me because he was genuinely happy. I didn\u2019t trust when he told me I was beautiful. I didn\u2019t trust when he said he loved my imperfections. I didn\u2019t trust when he said he was attracted to my thick curves, or to my funny jokes. I didn\u2019t trust that he loved me for me because for all that time,<a href=\"https:\/\/www.theodysseyonline.com\/what-youve-taught-about-love\" rel=\"noopener\"> me ense\u00f1aste a amar de otra manera<\/a>. You taught me that love wasn\u2019t really love, <strong>era el control.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>I love differently because of you because now, all these years later, I\u2019ve finally learned what love is and what love isn\u2019t. Love isn\u2019t controlling or manipulative. Love doesn\u2019t leave you feeling ashamed. Love doesn\u2019t leave you feeling lonely. Love makes you feel taken care of. Love makes you feel secure, beautiful, and capable. Love secures you and, for any woman reading this who feels the same way I did, I hope you find a love that anchors you. I love differently because of you, because you taught me the difference between what we had, and what I truly deserved. I kind of thank you for that.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: right;\"><em>by\u00a0Courtney Dercqu<\/em><\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I Love Differently Because Of You I love with my walls completely broken down because with you, I never felt comfortable enough to feel vulnerable. I always felt timid around you. I felt like I had to always walk around on eggshells. 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