{"id":11686,"date":"2020-12-10T08:31:18","date_gmt":"2020-12-10T08:31:18","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/herway.net\/?p=11686"},"modified":"2024-10-28T01:43:28","modified_gmt":"2024-10-27T23:43:28","slug":"el-ano-no-dejara-de-doler","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/el-ano-no-dejara-de-doler\/","title":{"rendered":"Este a\u00f1o no dejar\u00e9 que me hagas da\u00f1o"},"content":{"rendered":"

I’ve learned a lot this last year. I won’t be making the same mistakes anymore. I let you into my life. I was so naive and foolish and I didn’t understand that you never intended to love me.<\/span><\/p>\n

I\u2019m not saying that I regret everything that has happened because it\u2019s not true. I don\u2019t regret some moments with you because there were times when I felt loved, although it was just for a second, and there were times that left nice and warm feelings inside me. <\/span><\/p>\n

Pero, hoy, cuando miro atr\u00e1s, hay muchos m\u00e1s recuerdos malos que buenos y por eso me perdono. <\/span><\/p>\n

I\u2019m not forgiving you because you aren\u2019t nearly as guilty as I am. I was the one who let you in my life and I was the one who bought all of your bullshit stories. That\u2019s why I\u2019m forgiving myself and not you.<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

When we broke up, I felt like a huge weight has been lifted off my chest but I felt like another one was put on. It was the pain of my broken heart. I was so unhappy in our relationship that I forgot that I still loved you. Despite all that you have done to me and the way you treated me, I couldn\u2019t help but to todav\u00eda te quiero. <\/a><\/span><\/p>\n

Mientras conduc\u00eda de vuelta a casa, iba en completo silencio. No se o\u00eda m\u00e1s sonido que los latidos de mi propio coraz\u00f3n en medio de la noche. Dentro de m\u00ed crec\u00eda una mezcla de tristeza y felicidad. El silencio en el coche se rompi\u00f3 con un grito repentino que sali\u00f3 de mi boca. Me sent\u00ed tan bien al dar rienda suelta a lo que llevaba dentro. <\/span><\/p>\n

I was trying to look at the road while choking in tears. That was when I realized that I would have loved you my whole life. I would have been with you despite the things you\u2019ve done to me. <\/span><\/p>\n

I don\u2019t know whether it was love or fear I was feeling. Because, how could I have known what love is when I failed with you who swore to love me forever?<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

Days and months passed and I still couldn\u2019t nurture myself back to health. I couldn\u2019t go out in the daylight. I couldn\u2019t let other people see me falling apart. I couldn\u2019t let them know you broke me. <\/span><\/p>\n

My walls have become my best friends. I spend days in my room staring at them, hoping to get an answer\u2014like they are going to talk to me and explain to me why and how all of this has happened. <\/span><\/p>\n

All that time, I had the answer right in front of me and then I finally realized it. I would have never given up on you if you didn\u2019t give up on me. I would have spent the rest of my life hurting and thinking love is supposed to be like that because you taught me that.<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

Nunca supiste amarme y por eso siempre me culpaste. Y yo fui tan est\u00fapida como para creerte.<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

Este a\u00f1o I\u2019ve decided to finally let you go<\/a> para siempre. <\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

I realized it wasn\u2019t my fault you didn\u2019t know how to love me.<\/i><\/b> You failed on every level of love. I say that and what do I know about love other than that sorry ass of a try you gave me?  It wasn\u2019t my fault that you thought talking to you when I was feeling sad was stupid. It wasn\u2019t my fault that calling you to tell you I love you was suffocating you. It wasn\u2019t my fault for wanting to commit to the man I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. <\/span><\/p>\n

It was your fault. I\u2019m only responsible for giving you the chance to love me, which you wasted.<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

I realized it wasn\u2019t my fault you never knew my worth.<\/i><\/b> You were always putting me down and making me feel not good enough for you. You always made me care for you so much more and you didn\u2019t give a damn whether I was dead or alive. It\u2019s not my fault that you didn\u2019t see the real me and the potential I finally realized I\u2019ve had all this time. <\/span><\/p>\n

You were my perfect lesson for the future. I won\u2019t close myself off, but I promise myself that I will be more careful with my heart. <\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

Fue culpa m\u00eda que estuviera sufriendo porque romp\u00ed mi propio coraz\u00f3n al intentar demostrarme a m\u00ed misma que merezco que me devuelvan el amor. Lo deseaba tanto que ignor\u00e9 todo lo dem\u00e1s a mi alrededor y al final me cost\u00f3 mi dolor y mis l\u00e1grimas. <\/span><\/p>\n

I invested so much in you and I didn\u2019t want to be wrong about you. I had known this the whole time. It\u2019s just that my heart took some time to catch up with my mind.<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

This year, I\u2019m giving myself another chance. I think I deserve it.<\/span><\/p>\n

This year I\u2019m going to let you go for good. I think I deserve that as well. <\/span><\/p>\n

Este a\u00f1o espero conocer a alguien a quien amar<\/a> tanto como te quise a ti. Este a\u00f1o espero que me ame como merezco. <\/span><\/p>\n

Este a\u00f1o s\u00e9 que el que me dejaras marchar fue tu p\u00e9rdida y no la m\u00eda. <\/span><\/p>\n

This year I\u2019m going to start all over again. <\/span><\/i><\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I’ve learned a lot this last year. I won’t be making the same mistakes anymore. I let you into my life. I was so naive and foolish and I didn’t understand that you never intended to love me. I\u2019m not saying that I regret everything that has happened because it\u2019s not true. I don\u2019t regret…<\/p>","protected":false},"author":23,"featured_media":176617,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29631],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-11686","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-getting-over-him"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29631,"label":"getting over him"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/12\/This-Year-I-Wont-Let-You-Hurt-Me-1024x576.jpg",1024,576,true],"author_info":{"display_name":"Leah Lee","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/author\/leah\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29631,"name":"getting over him","slug":"getting-over-him","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29631,"taxonomy":"category","description":"Getting over someone you still care about is one of the biggest challenges, but nothing is impossible when you know you're not alone, so check out our brilliant advice.","parent":29627,"count":124,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29631,"category_count":124,"category_description":"Getting over someone you still care about is one of the biggest challenges, but nothing is impossible when you know you're not alone, so check out our brilliant advice.","cat_name":"getting over him","category_nicename":"getting-over-him","category_parent":29627}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11686","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/23"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=11686"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11686\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":176618,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11686\/revisions\/176618"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/176617"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=11686"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=11686"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=11686"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}