{"id":11695,"date":"2020-01-10T09:14:44","date_gmt":"2020-01-10T09:14:44","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/herway.net\/?p=11695"},"modified":"2022-03-01T23:01:29","modified_gmt":"2022-03-01T23:01:29","slug":"nunca-necesito-arreglo-necesito-sujecion","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/nunca-necesito-arreglo-necesito-sujecion\/","title":{"rendered":"Nunca necesit\u00e9 que me arreglaras, necesitaba que me sostuvieras mientras lo hac\u00eda yo mismo"},"content":{"rendered":"

Hey baby, it\u2019s been some time. I guess I don\u2019t have any right to ask you how you\u2019ve been? But still, I hope you\u2019re doing great. I hope that you\u2019re happy and that you found someone who needs your help more than I did. You always had the need to arreglar a la gente<\/a>pero nunca necesit\u00e9 que lo hicieras por m\u00ed. S\u00f3lo necesitaba tu apoyo mientras lo hac\u00eda yo misma.<\/span><\/p>\n

Nunca necesit\u00e9 que me demostraras lo especial que soy, necesitaba verlo por m\u00ed misma.<\/b> I needed to see who I am without your love. I needed to see what I can do without you holding my back. I needed to be alone in order to get to know myself. I hoped that you will be there. I hoped that you will accompany me along the way. But you never did\u2014you could never understand why I had to do this by myself.<\/span><\/p>\n

Nunca pudiste entender por qu\u00e9 necesitaba ver mi val\u00eda por m\u00ed misma.<\/b> Because, you see, I was so manipulated and beaten to death that had I lost so much of myself and I never hoped to get those parts back. I lost my confidence, I lost my strength and I lost my worth. I let other people take them, because I couldn\u2019t see them myself. And that\u2019s why I needed to regain them back all by myself, because it wasn\u2019t you who took them. It\u2019s not you who should bring them back. I had to do it myself, because if I hadn\u2019t, I would lose them all over again the moment you walk out of my life.<\/span><\/p>\n

Nunca pudiste entender por qu\u00e9 necesitaba encontrar la belleza en m\u00ed por m\u00ed misma.<\/b> S\u00ed, me dijiste millones de veces lo incre\u00edble que soy, lo hermosa que soy. Pero nunca vi nada de eso. Nunca vi c\u00f3mo se ilumina mi cara. Nunca vi la belleza en mis arrugas ni en mis cicatrices. Me odiaba a m\u00ed misma, a mi cuerpo, a mi alma magullada y a mi historia. <\/span>\u00bfC\u00f3mo iba a encontrar la belleza en todo eso si lo odiaba?<\/b>  No words you said could help me see it, because I couldn\u2019t see it myself. I couldn\u2019t see that woman you fell in love with, because I believed she was long gone. I believed that someday you will see me the way I used to see myself and that you will leave.<\/span><\/p>\n

Nunca pudiste entender por qu\u00e9 necesitaba aprender a quererme a m\u00ed misma.<\/b> Me quer\u00edas<\/a>me amaste m\u00e1s de lo que jam\u00e1s podr\u00eda creer que alguien puede amarme. Me amaste con ese est\u00fapido tipo de amor que te hizo caminar conmigo por el centro comercial comprando maquillaje. Me amaste con ese est\u00fapido tipo de amor que te hizo mirar <\/span>El destello<\/span><\/i> with me, even though you\u2019re diehard Marvel fan. But I needed to learn how to love myself. I needed to fall in love with myself, with my past and who I am. <\/span>Necesitaba enamorarme de esta mujer rota que aprendi\u00f3 a valerse por s\u00ed misma.<\/b> Necesitaba enamorarme de m\u00ed misma para poder enamorarme de ti.<\/span><\/p>\n

Espero que entiendas que te quer\u00eda.<\/b> Espero que entiendas que nunca quise alejarte, Nunca quise que me arreglaras<\/a> because I had to do that myself. I needed to understand that I may be broken, but I\u2019m not less worthy because of it. I needed to understand that I can still love even though my heart is shattered to pieces. I needed to understand that I can\u2019t lose myself if I know my worth. And I needed for you to understand that I never loved you any less because I learned how to love myself more. But somehow, you couldn\u2019t see that. Somehow, you felt betrayed because I needed distance. You felt hurt because I decided that I don\u2019t need your help.<\/span><\/p>\n

I really hope that you\u2019re still the man I once loved because some girl will be the luckiest woman to have you.<\/b> Someone who\u2019s not broken as I was; someone who knows how to love herself and how to love you. And I hope that you understand that I never needed you to fix me. I just needed you to hold me, while I did it myself.<\/span><\/p>\n

Con todo mi amor, tu peque\u00f1o Flash.<\/span><\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Hey baby, it\u2019s been some time. I guess I don\u2019t have any right to ask you how you\u2019ve been? But still, I hope you\u2019re doing great. I hope that you\u2019re happy and that you found someone who needs your help more than I did. You always had the need to fix people, but I never…<\/p>","protected":false},"author":40,"featured_media":11697,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29617],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-11695","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-heartbreak"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29617,"label":"heartbreak"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/01\/pexels-photo-105882.jpeg",800,533,false],"author_info":{"display_name":"Tara Brown","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/author\/tara-brown\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29617,"name":"heartbreak","slug":"heartbreak","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29617,"taxonomy":"category","description":"Recovering after having your heart broken is tough. That's why I've decided to collect different stories of heartbreak - to help everyone going through the same.","parent":38,"count":146,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29617,"category_count":146,"category_description":"Recovering after having your heart broken is tough. That's why I've decided to collect different stories of heartbreak - to help everyone going through the same.","cat_name":"heartbreak","category_nicename":"heartbreak","category_parent":38}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11695","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/40"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=11695"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11695\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/11697"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=11695"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=11695"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=11695"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}