{"id":12307,"date":"2020-06-15T14:55:52","date_gmt":"2020-06-15T14:55:52","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/herway.net\/?p=12307"},"modified":"2021-08-11T14:20:32","modified_gmt":"2021-08-11T14:20:32","slug":"se-necesita-cartero-abandonado","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/se-necesita-cartero-abandonado\/","title":{"rendered":"Una carta al hombre que me abandon\u00f3 cuando m\u00e1s lo necesitaba"},"content":{"rendered":"

Me lo prometiste. Prometiste que te quedar\u00edas a mi lado hasta el final de nuestros d\u00edas, as\u00ed que \u00bfd\u00f3nde est\u00e1s ahora? \u00bfD\u00f3nde est\u00e1s ahora que m\u00e1s te necesito?<\/p>\n

Me diste tu palabra de que ibas a estar a mi lado hasta que todo estuviera bien e incluso m\u00e1s all\u00e1, pero rompiste esa promesa y me dejaste caer sola, sin nadie que me salvara.<\/strong><\/p>\n

You promised you wouldn’t leave me. But you did. You failed to be there for me when I needed you the most.<\/p>\n

I’ve sufr\u00eda depresi\u00f3n<\/a> ever since I can remember and you thought that it wasn’t that big of a deal, because you loved me from head to toe, you loved my soul, my heart AND my mind.<\/p>\n

Nunca pude entender lo que ve\u00edas en m\u00ed, pero lo que s\u00ed ve\u00edas era todo tu mundo, toda tu vida. O al menos eso es lo que me dec\u00edas.<\/p>\n

You see, depression isn’t the same as being sad.<\/strong> If you’re sad, you have a reason for that, but depression is a mental illness that doesn’t allow you to smile when the sun is out and it doesn’t allow you to dance when your favorite song is playing.<\/p>\n

\"morena<\/p>\n

We had a rough start. I would burst into tears whenever I was alone with my thoughts for too long and when I would call you, you would always be there for me, sometimes not leaving my house for days, making me tea and food to eat, because I wouldn’t have eaten otherwise.<\/p>\n

Me ense\u00f1aste que no todas las personas iban a abandonarme. Eso cambi\u00f3 muy pronto.<\/p>\n

Despu\u00e9s de a\u00f1os de d\u00edas buenos y malos, empezaste a mirarme como una carga, como mirar\u00edas a alguien que s\u00f3lo te hace la vida m\u00e1s dif\u00edcil.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Your life would’ve been much easier without me, right? I would cry myself to sleep every night because I started to notice the changes in your behavior.<\/p>\n

You weren’t there for me when I thought that the whole world was against me, you weren’t there when mis oscuros pensamientos<\/a> me hac\u00eda efecto y me dejaba en cama durante d\u00edas.<\/p>\n

It’s scary to be alone with your thoughts. It’s a death sentence when you have depression.<\/p>\n

\"chica<\/p>\n

I never wanted you to suffer, I never wanted you to dedicate everything you could to someone like me. But you still did. Until the point when you didn’t.<\/p>\n

Hasta el d\u00eda en que abr\u00ed la puerta y me dijiste que quer\u00edas llevarte tus cosas a tu casa, porque no hac\u00eda falta que estuvieran en la m\u00eda.<\/p>\n

You told me that your life was too short to spend it with someone like me. Someone who wasn’t able to fight for herself. You told me that I simply wasn’t worth it. You made me believe that myself.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Durante d\u00edas, meses, incluso a\u00f1os, nunca dud\u00e9 de tu decisi\u00f3n. Siempre era yo la necesitada y pensaba que nunca daba nada a cambio.<\/p>\n

So when my mind cleared up, I saw it all in a way I\u2019d never thought would be possible.<\/p>\n

Vi tu comportamiento desde el principio, pero pens\u00e9 que me lo estaba imaginando. Vi c\u00f3mo tus ojos recorr\u00edan los cuerpos de otras mujeres<\/a>.<\/p>\n

\"retrato<\/p>\n

Vi c\u00f3mo intercambiabas miradas con ellos, sin saber qu\u00e9 har\u00edas con ellos cuando me fuera a casa.<\/p>\n

Siempre pens\u00e9 que las palabras que me dec\u00edas, los insultos que soportaba, en realidad me los merec\u00eda.<\/p>\n

Nunca pens\u00e9, ni por un segundo, que tuviera algo que perdonarte, aunque te perdon\u00e9 demasiadas veces sin siquiera saberlo.<\/p>\n

With this in mind, I would always come back to everything and I did stop seeing everything as my own fault. If you really did love me, those things wouldn’t have happened.<\/p>\n

I wouldn’t have suffered even more than I already did. It’s like you did it on purpose, to make my pain stronger. As if it wasn\u2019t already strong enough.<\/p>\n

Te necesitaba. Te necesitaba para que me ense\u00f1aras que la vida no tiene que ser tan dura. Que la vida es hermosa, salvaje y f\u00e1cil. Por una fracci\u00f3n de segundo, incluso pens\u00e9 que lo era.<\/p>\n

\"Ri\u00f1a<\/p>\n

But let me tell you that you have taught me a great lesson. You’ve made me see that no one can save me unless I save myself. I need to be the one who will show myself the sunny day and the starry night.<\/p>\n

Necesito mostrarme las flores y esas hermosas mariposas. Necesito mostrarme mi propia belleza. Para empezar, nunca fue tu trabajo.<\/p>\n

Hoy soy yo quien es m\u00e1s fuerte, porque t\u00fa te rendiste y yo me qued\u00e9 luchando sola.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Haci\u00e9ndome m\u00e1s fuerte, derrotando todo lo que se interpon\u00eda en mi camino hacia la felicidad. Y lo hice todo yo sola.<\/p>\n

Pero tengo que agradecerte que me hayas hecho darme cuenta de esto. As\u00ed que, gracias. Ese era tu prop\u00f3sito, probablemente.<\/p>\n

Esta ma\u00f1ana me he hecho un caf\u00e9 y me he re\u00eddo al pensar en la ni\u00f1a peque\u00f1a y rota que era antes. Vuelve a m\u00ed de vez en cuando.<\/p>\n

Me visit\u00f3 anoche y me asust\u00f3, me hizo llorar. Pero esta ma\u00f1ana se ha ido y soy m\u00e1s fuerte que nunca.<\/p>\n

S\u00e9 que puedo conquistar el mundo yo sola. Incluso sin ti. Probablemente sin ti.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\"Una<\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

You promised. You promised that you were going to stay by my side until the end of our days, so where are you now? Where are you now that I need you the most? You gave me your word that you were going to be there for me until everything was fine and even beyond…<\/p>","protected":false},"author":41,"featured_media":94686,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29653],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-12307","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-letters"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29653,"label":"letters"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/01\/A-Letter-To-The-Man-Who-Abandoned-Me-When-I-Needed-Him-The-Most.jpg",800,533,false],"author_info":{"display_name":"Martha Sullivan","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/author\/martha-sullivan\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29653,"name":"letters","slug":"letters","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29653,"taxonomy":"category","description":"Regardless if you're looking for moving on, romantic, emotional, or open letters on various topics, you can be sure that you'll find it all here. ","parent":29651,"count":207,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29653,"category_count":207,"category_description":"Regardless if you're looking for moving on, romantic, emotional, or open letters on various topics, you can be sure that you'll find it all here. ","cat_name":"letters","category_nicename":"letters","category_parent":29651}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12307","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/41"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=12307"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12307\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/94686"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=12307"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=12307"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=12307"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}