{"id":12674,"date":"2018-01-18T14:07:20","date_gmt":"2018-01-18T14:07:20","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/herway.net\/?p=12674"},"modified":"2021-08-12T12:06:56","modified_gmt":"2021-08-12T12:06:56","slug":"no-paraba-de-preguntar-fix-broke-point-fix","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/no-paraba-de-preguntar-fix-broke-point-fix\/","title":{"rendered":"No dejabas de pedirme que te arreglara, pero me rompiste hasta el punto de que tuve que arreglarme sola"},"content":{"rendered":"

It’s funny how you were the best thing that happened to me and the worst thing that happened to me at the same time. I tasted true happiness when I was with you and all the bitterness that pain can bring you too. <\/span><\/p>\n

We had a good run for a while there. I guess beginnings are usually perfect like that. I was so serene, so incredibly happy. To be honest, I was scared how happy I was. At first, I thought it was because I didn’t know how to enjoy my happiness. Then again, it could have been that something was off. Maybe my intuition was warning me but I remember discarding that thought in an instant. I should have stuck to that little voice inside my head telling me something was wrong.<\/span><\/p>\n

Siempre sent\u00ed pena por esas pobres chicas que eran manipuladas por sus novios. <\/a>Parec\u00edan tan incre\u00edblemente ingenuos. Confiaban en cada mentira que les serv\u00edan. No sab\u00eda que me convertir\u00edas en uno de ellos. <\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

But you did. I was as blind as they come because I loved you. You started to change and all those happy moments faded so quickly that I didn’t even realize what was happening. <\/span><\/p>\n

Habl\u00e1bamos de compromiso, de tener un apartamento peque\u00f1o y acogedor que fuera nuestro santuario. Llegamos al punto de poner nombre a nuestros futuros hijos cuando me di cuenta de que nos est\u00e1bamos adelantando. <\/span><\/i><\/p>\n

Yo quer\u00eda ir m\u00e1s despacio, pero t\u00fa me asegurabas que todo era normal, que no eras como los dem\u00e1s hombres, que eras m\u00e1s cari\u00f1oso y seguro de tus decisiones. Me ense\u00f1aste tus heridas. Te abriste a m\u00ed y te quise m\u00e1s por ello. <\/span><\/p>\n

No ten\u00eda idea de que usar\u00edas eso en mi contra. Me hiciste sentir responsable de tus sentimientos. Fue muy dif\u00edcil de manejar. Yo s\u00f3lo quer\u00eda ser la persona m\u00e1s importante en tu vida, nunca ped\u00ed estar a cargo de tus sentimientos. Nunca me correspondi\u00f3 hacerlo.<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

Empezaste a mentir hasta el punto de hacerme cuestionar mi cordura. Dec\u00edas una cosa un d\u00eda y otra completamente distinta al siguiente. Hac\u00edamos planes para vernos y de repente dec\u00edas que ni siquiera hab\u00edamos hablado de ello. <\/span><\/p>\n

At first, I thought I got it wrong. I must have heard some things wrong. Maybe I forgot. Maybe you forgot. But after a while, I realized what was happening. Every time you didn’t want to do something or to be blamed for something, you would blame it all on me and my poor memory. <\/span><\/p>\n

There were so many situations in which you manipulated me into thinking I was the main culprit. You were a textbook example of an emotional manipulator and I couldn\u2019t see it until you drained me completely. <\/b><\/p>\n

Todo reca\u00eda sobre mis hombros. Por otra parte, hubo muchos momentos en los que me sent\u00ed realmente feliz a tu lado, pero nunca duraron mucho porque siempre surg\u00eda alg\u00fan nuevo problema. Creabas drama en una fracci\u00f3n de segundo cuando en realidad no hab\u00eda necesidad de ning\u00fan tipo de reacci\u00f3n. <\/span><\/p>\n

Normalmente, la gente dice que fue un gran momento el que marc\u00f3 la diferencia. Un momento en el que eligieron ser felices y dejar ir a la persona que no era adecuada para ellos. Para m\u00ed, fueron millones de peque\u00f1os momentos extremadamente dolorosos. Hasta que uno de ellos, el m\u00e1s peque\u00f1o de todos, me hizo... finalmente dejarte ir.<\/a> I just couldn’t stay anymore. <\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

It’s like you pulled my emotions into an emotional black hole and there was no exiting it. You just kept wanting more. I couldn’t stand being accused of the reason for your poor mood or your poor behavior. You were so used to relying on me, I was so used to being there for you, but I couldn’t ever expect you to do the same. I had to go. <\/span><\/p>\n

You kept asking me to fix you but you brought me to the point where I had to fix myself. That’s what I am doing now. Fixing and \u00a0building myself back up again, brick by brick. <\/i><\/b><\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

It’s funny how you were the best thing that happened to me and the worst thing that happened to me at the same time. I tasted true happiness when I was with you and all the bitterness that pain can bring you too. We had a good run for a while there. I guess beginnings…<\/p>","protected":false},"author":40,"featured_media":12683,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29617],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-12674","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-heartbreak"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29617,"label":"heartbreak"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/01\/gbarkz-505940.jpg",800,536,false],"author_info":{"display_name":"Tara Brown","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/author\/tara-brown\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29617,"name":"heartbreak","slug":"heartbreak","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29617,"taxonomy":"category","description":"Recovering after having your heart broken is tough. That's why I've decided to collect different stories of heartbreak - to help everyone going through the same.","parent":38,"count":146,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29617,"category_count":146,"category_description":"Recovering after having your heart broken is tough. That's why I've decided to collect different stories of heartbreak - to help everyone going through the same.","cat_name":"heartbreak","category_nicename":"heartbreak","category_parent":38}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12674","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/40"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=12674"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12674\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/12683"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=12674"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=12674"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=12674"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}