{"id":14669,"date":"2020-08-16T09:59:27","date_gmt":"2020-08-16T09:59:27","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/herway.net\/?p=14669"},"modified":"2022-03-02T00:00:38","modified_gmt":"2022-03-02T00:00:38","slug":"por-fin-dejar-ir-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/por-fin-dejar-ir-2\/","title":{"rendered":"Por fin te dejo marchar"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>What you and I had was strong and intense. I know most people think that their love story is different from anyone else\u2019s, but I really do believe that our romance was something special and unique.<\/p>\n<p>Desde el momento en que nos conocimos, una vocecilla en mi interior me gritaba que lo nuestro nunca funcionar\u00eda. Aunque yo era alguien que siempre cre\u00eda en su intuici\u00f3n, esta vez decid\u00ed ignorarla.<\/p>\n<p>Mis emociones por ti eran m\u00e1s fuertes que mi instinto y ten\u00eda que estar contigo.<\/p>\n<p>Intent\u00e9 luchar contra ello. Intent\u00e9 luchar contra ti y contra esta loca pasi\u00f3n que sent\u00eda, pero una fuerza invisible segu\u00eda tirando de m\u00ed hacia ti.<\/p>\n<p>In time, I had to accept the fact that I couldn\u2019t control myself around you and that I wasn\u2019t feeling only passion anymore\u2014it had become love.<\/p>\n<p>Although I hated you for the power you had over me, that was also the thing that attracted me to you the most\u2014the fact that you managed to change me.<\/p>\n<p>Siempre fui una chica estable y tranquila, y nada ni nadie pod\u00eda sacudir mi mundo. Hasta que llegaste t\u00fa.<\/p>\n<p>Cambiaste todos mis principios y contigo me convert\u00ed en todo lo que jur\u00e9 que nunca llegar\u00eda a ser. Mientras estuve contigo, todo fue una monta\u00f1a rusa emocional.<\/p>\n<p>Con nosotros dos, todo era extraordinario; cuando te amaba, ese amor me consum\u00eda por completo y cuando me causabas dolor, ese dolor me devastaba por completo.<\/p>\n<p>Sent\u00eda que estaba perdiendo la cabeza, que era una marioneta de mis propias emociones y que, me gustara o no, eran lo \u00fanico que me guiaba por la vida.<\/p>\n<p>Me hiciste sentir viva, como nadie antes de ti, incluso cuando sufr\u00eda por tu culpa y sobre todo durante nuestros momentos felices.<\/p>\n<p>Antes de darme cuenta, <a href=\"https:\/\/thoughtcatalog.com\/abbey-adams\/2017\/05\/maybe-i-was-addicted-to-him-and-the-way-he-made-me-feel\/\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\">Yo era adicto a ti<\/a> in all ways possible\u2014emotionally, sexually and even physically.<\/p>\n<p>When you weren\u2019t around, besides being an emotional wreck, I was also feeling physical pain because of your absence and that was something I\u2019d never experienced before.<\/p>\n<p>Sacaste lo mejor y lo peor de m\u00ed al mismo tiempo. Eras el \u00fanico hombre que pod\u00eda hacerme sentir como una ni\u00f1a inocente pero tambi\u00e9n como la guerrera m\u00e1s fuerte al mismo tiempo.<\/p>\n<p>Pod\u00edas hacerme sentir en la cima del mundo o cayendo en el abismo m\u00e1s profundo. Al mismo tiempo, eras mi peor debilidad y mi mayor fortaleza.<\/p>\n<p>Y ese contraste fue lo que me mantuvo contigo.<\/p>\n<p>A pesar de todo el dolor que me causaste, tambi\u00e9n me diste algunos de los momentos m\u00e1s bonitos de mi vida y, en el fondo, sigo creyendo que s\u00ed me quer\u00edas mucho.<\/p>\n<p>Maybe you still do. You just didn\u2019t want to or didn\u2019t know how to show that the right way.<\/p>\n<p>All I know is that it wasn\u2019t enough for me.<\/p>\n<p>When you truly love someone, you don\u2019t give that person the crumbs of your love and attention\u2014you give them your whole self.<\/p>\n<p>Y eso es algo que t\u00fa nunca pudiste hacer, a pesar de todos mis esfuerzos. Mientras yo me entregaba por completo a ti, t\u00fa siempre manten\u00edas una peque\u00f1a parte de ti oculta a todo el mundo, incluida yo.<\/p>\n<p>Y por mucho que lo intent\u00e9, nunca pude llegar a esa parte.<\/p>\n<p>Por muy cerca que estuvieras de m\u00ed, siempre sent\u00eda que hab\u00eda una distancia entre nosotros. Y cada vez que sent\u00edas que me acercaba demasiado a ti, hu\u00edas o te alejabas de m\u00ed.<\/p>\n<p>Before I met you, I was a rock that couldn\u2019t be broken by anything or anyone\u2014or at least that was what I thought. But with your every departure, I became weaker and weaker.<\/p>\n<p>Me pasaba los d\u00edas esperando a que volvieras y aceptando las disculpas que nunca me diste.<\/p>\n<p>I never knew what was going on with you when you weren\u2019t around me. I never asked if you were seeing anyone else, not because I trusted you blindly, but because I was terrified of your answer.<\/p>\n<p>Y aunque era mejor no saberlo, eso era otra cosa que me estaba matando.<\/p>\n<p>Sin embargo, pens\u00e9 que todas mis noches sin dormir y mis l\u00e1grimas eran dignas de que volvieras a m\u00ed.<\/p>\n<p>Pero al cabo de un tiempo, me di cuenta de que mis momentos de dolorosa soledad eran cada vez m\u00e1s largos y frecuentes y que nuestros momentos comunes de felicidad se convert\u00edan en rarezas.<\/p>\n<p>La \u00faltima vez que volviste, me prometiste que por fin tendr\u00edamos una vida feliz y tranquila.<\/p>\n<p>Me prometiste que hab\u00edas terminado con tus dudas y que estabas segura de que yo era la elegida. Hablamos de nuestro futuro.<\/p>\n<p>And everything seemed perfect for a while. But then you did it again. I don\u2019t know if you got scared of opening up too much to me or if you had found someone else. Actually, now that I think about it, it doesn\u2019t matter. The only thing that matters is that you have left me again.<\/p>\n<p>Only this time, something broke deep inside of me. If someone asked me why this time was different, I wouldn\u2019t know the answer. I guess I\u2019ve finally had it.<\/p>\n<p>I\u2019ve realized that I\u2019ve spent years waiting for you to leave me and waiting for you to come back. I\u2019ve spent years living your life, trying to fix your problems and trying to fix you.<\/p>\n<p>I\u2019ve spent years craving your complete love and<a href=\"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/cansado-de-mendigar-atencion-2\/\"> mendigando su atenci\u00f3n.<\/a><\/p>\n<p>Your final departure was the last nail in the coffin. I am out of time, energy and patience and I think I\u2019ve reached my personal emotional bottom. Although someone may think this is a bad thing, it actually isn\u2019t\u2014there is no way but up to go from down here.<\/p>\n<p>As\u00ed que.., <a href=\"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/love\/dio-oportunidades-merecen-ahora-im-hecho\/\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\">He terminado.<\/a>. I am not done because I\u2019ve decided it\u2019s time for me to stop fighting you, I\u2019m done because I\u2019ve decided it\u2019s time for my reasoning and heart to stop fighting.<\/p>\n<p>My emotions had their chance, but they brought me nowhere, so it\u2019s about time for my reasoning to prevail.<\/p>\n<p>I think this is the hardest thing I ever had to do, but I am finally letting you go. I am letting you go, even though I don\u2019t know if you even planned on coming back to me or not.<\/p>\n<p>En cualquier caso, ya no tienes a nadie que te espere, pase lo que pase.<\/p>\n<p>And I am not saying this just to scare you and make you come back to me. I know you probably don\u2019t believe me, but I am really letting you go and with you, I am also letting go the person you made me become.<\/p>\n<p>Me estoy deshaciendo de todo lo que me recuerda a ti. Me deshago de todos nuestros recuerdos. Voy a quemar todas las fotos de nosotros dos sonriendo y voy a regalar todos tus regalos.<\/p>\n<p>Not because these things don\u2019t mean anything to me, but because I could never move on with my life while stumbling on fragments of you.<\/p>\n<p>Sobre todo, dejo ir todos mis sue\u00f1os y esperanzas relacionados contigo. Dejo ir el futuro que podr\u00edamos haber tenido juntos.<\/p>\n<p>Abandono la idea de que podr\u00edas encontrar la paz a mi lado. Abandono la idea de que los dos somos almas gemelas que envejecer\u00e1n juntas.<\/p>\n<p>Y estoy dejando ir la posibilidad de salvarte porque ahora s\u00e9 que necesito salvarme yo primero. Realmente quiero ser feliz, sabes.<\/p>\n<p>Y todo lo que hice contigo y por ti fue porque ansiaba esa felicidad. Pens\u00e9 que podr\u00eda tenerla contigo, pero ahora s\u00e9 que era imposible. Y ya era hora de que lo aceptara.<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/relationship\/13-razones-por-las-que-las-chicas-buenas-se-van\/\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\">Alejarse<\/a> de ti es algo que pens\u00e9 que nunca llegar\u00eda a hacer. Pero, al mismo tiempo, es algo que necesito hacer si quiero rescatarme.<\/p>\n<p>If I stay in this never-ending circle with you, I will break completely. And I will become just like you\u2014cold, distant and emotionally unavailable and that is the last thing I want.<\/p>\n<p>And I wouldn\u2019t have you to help me glue myself back together.<\/p>\n<p>Quiero aprender a ser una persona completa de nuevo, sin ti en mi vida. Y quiero tratar de encontrar la felicidad con alguien nuevo.<\/p>\n<p>You shouldn\u2019t think I am holding any grudges. Despite all the pain you\u2019ve caused me, I really do forgive you, because I know you just didn\u2019t know any better.<\/p>\n<p>Y te deseo lo mejor, de todo coraz\u00f3n.<\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>What you and I had was strong and intense. I know most people think that their love story is different from anyone else\u2019s, but I really do believe that our romance was something special and unique. From the moment we met, a loud voice inside of me was yelling that we would never work. Although&#8230;<\/p>","protected":false},"author":40,"featured_media":14679,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29618],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-14669","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-moving-on"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29618,"label":"moving on"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/02\/frankie-cordoba-557847-1.jpg",800,574,false],"author_info":{"display_name":"Tara Brown","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/author\/tara-brown\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29618,"name":"moving on","slug":"moving-on","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29618,"taxonomy":"category","description":"When nothing else works - inspiring stories about moving on are bound to help you let go of people and situations you never thought you could live without.\r\n","parent":38,"count":200,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29618,"category_count":200,"category_description":"When nothing else works - inspiring stories about moving on are bound to help you let go of people and situations you never thought you could live without.\r\n","cat_name":"moving on","category_nicename":"moving-on","category_parent":38}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14669","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/40"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=14669"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14669\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/14679"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=14669"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=14669"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=14669"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}