{"id":14840,"date":"2020-07-19T14:03:55","date_gmt":"2020-07-19T14:03:55","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/herway.net\/?p=14840"},"modified":"2021-08-12T10:15:02","modified_gmt":"2021-08-12T10:15:02","slug":"y-si-no-me-dejas-no-me-dejas","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/y-si-no-me-dejas-no-me-dejas\/","title":{"rendered":"Me da mucho miedo quererte, pero te quiero de todas formas"},"content":{"rendered":"

I\u2019ve run out of reasons to run away from you. I\u2019ve tried so hard to find something, anything that will be a strong enough reason to walk away from you, just so I don\u2019t have to face my fear. But I have nothing.<\/p>\n

Me sacudiste hasta la m\u00e9dula, haciendo que todos mis muros se derrumbaran mientras intentaba reconstruirlos, atrapando ladrillos de viejo dolor que tan pacientemente apil\u00e9 hasta que fueron lo suficientemente gruesos y altos como para protegerme.<\/p>\n

Y t\u00fa segu\u00edas ah\u00ed, asegur\u00e1ndote de que estuviera a salvo, asegur\u00e1ndote de mantenerme caliente, ahora que los huracanes de la vida pueden tocarme de nuevo.<\/p>\n

Fuiste al mismo tiempo el terremoto que me parti\u00f3 en pedazos y el pegamento que me mantuvo unida.<\/b><\/p>\n

I\u2019m so scared of falling apart again.<\/b> But you already know that. You already know that every time I pull away, it\u2019s not because I don\u2019t love you. It\u2019s because I\u2019m afraid of your touch.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m not used to being touched gently, touched in a way I can actually feel loved. I\u2019m not used to being held when I\u2019m broken.<\/p>\n

\"pareja<\/p>\n

I\u2019m not used to feeling loved, but you love me. You are still here, you are holding me. Eres mi mayor miedo y la fuente de mi coraje.<\/b><\/p>\n

I\u2019m so scared of being <\/b>herido de nuevo<\/b><\/a>.<\/b> I\u2019m just afraid that if I get hurt once more, I won\u2019t be able to get back on my feet again. I\u2019m so afraid of being manipulated again, of being intoxicated and twisted.<\/p>\n

But I trust you. For crazy reasons I can\u2019t even put in words, I trust you.<\/p>\n

Conf\u00edo en ti cuando dices que nunca me har\u00e1s da\u00f1o. Conf\u00edo en ti cuando dices que siempre estar\u00e1s aqu\u00ed.<\/p>\n

Pero cuando la noche vuelve arrastr\u00e1ndose hacia m\u00ed, mis miedos est\u00e1n aqu\u00ed de nuevo, gritando y resonando en mi mente. Inmoviliz\u00e1ndome en la cama, ahuyentando mi paz y mis sue\u00f1os.<\/p>\n

Pero t\u00fa sigues ah\u00ed. Abraz\u00e1ndome, bes\u00e1ndome hasta que me duermo.<\/p>\n

\"Pareja<\/p>\n

I\u2019m scared of loving again. Of not being loved back. Of being taken for granted. But why do I love you? Why do I trust your words? What\u2019s so special about you that makes my <\/b>los muros se derrumban<\/b><\/a>?<\/b><\/p>\n

It\u2019s the feeling of calm I feel when I\u2019m with you. It\u2019s the warmth in my soul I feel when I look into your eyes.<\/b><\/p>\n

It\u2019s the feeling of my hand in yours. It\u2019s the feeling that I finally belong somewhere, that I belong in your arms. It\u2019s the feeling of your heartbeat when I\u2019m laying on your chest.<\/p>\n

It\u2019s the feeling I get when you lean your head on mine, telling me how I\u2019m your \u2018little pumpkin\u2019. Telling me how I\u2019m the best thing that has happened to you.<\/p>\n

It\u2019s the patience you have for me.<\/b> It\u2019s the strength you have for my demons. It\u2019s the way you are ready to fight my wars, because they are now yours, too.<\/p>\n

Every time I run away, you\u2019re waiting for me. Every time I laugh away your words of love, you make me feel them.<\/p>\n

\"Una<\/p>\n

Ya no puedo ver a la mujer que t\u00fa ves.<\/b> That\u2019s the woman that was broken, beaten to death. The woman I locked up behind all those walls that you tumbled down. But you see her. You see her fire, her passion and her beauty.<\/p>\n

Y cada d\u00eda, cada ma\u00f1ana, te aseguras de que yo tambi\u00e9n la vea. Viste cada defecto m\u00edo, pero los besaste igual.<\/p>\n

You saw my scars and mended them with your love. You saw my bruises and healed them with your gentle touch. You saw oceans of sadness in my eyes and learned to swim in them, so I\u2019m not alone anymore.<\/p>\n

Amarte. Dejarte entrar. Tenerte a mi lado sigue siendo lo que m\u00e1s miedo me da. <\/b>It still frightens me to death, but I\u2019d rather die in your arms than live without them.<\/p>\n

I choose to fight every day, just to see your eyes once more. Just to feel your heartbeat and to hear you one more time calling me \u2018Pumpkin\u2019. I\u2019m scared as hell to love you, but I\u2019d rather be afraid with you than brave alone.<\/b><\/p>\n

\"Me<\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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