{"id":16051,"date":"2018-03-09T07:59:23","date_gmt":"2018-03-09T07:59:23","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/herway.net\/?p=16051"},"modified":"2022-02-26T22:50:07","modified_gmt":"2022-02-26T22:50:07","slug":"tengo-miedo-de-que-vuelvas","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/tengo-miedo-de-que-vuelvas\/","title":{"rendered":"Ten\u00eda miedo de que me dejaras y ahora tengo miedo de que vuelvas"},"content":{"rendered":"

Mientras estuvimos juntos, mi mayor miedo era que te alejaras de m\u00ed y nada aparte de esto pod\u00eda ayudarme con ese miedo al abandono que sent\u00eda: Supera el miedo al abandono y disfruta de tus relaciones<\/a><\/p>\n

Constantemente me dejabas y volv\u00edas a m\u00ed a tu antojo. Y yo siempre estaba all\u00ed, esper\u00e1ndote pacientemente. Nunca supe por qu\u00e9 lo hac\u00edas, pero con el tiempo lo acept\u00e9 como parte de nuestra relaci\u00f3n. Lo acept\u00e9 como parte de lo que eras.<\/p>\n

You were simply like that. I knew that you were free-spirited and that you couldn\u2019t stay in one place for too long. Even when you loved someone, you never allowed yourself to get too attached to that person. You were always afraid to open up to me completely. You always relied on yourself only and you acted like you didn\u2019t need anyone in your life, including me.<\/p>\n

But somehow, you kept coming back to me. And although I accepted this to be our relationship pattern, I was always terrified that one time you wouldn\u2019t come back. I was petrified that one of those times would be the last one.<\/p>\n

Y tristemente, todos mis temores se hicieron realidad. Un d\u00eda se alej\u00f3 de m\u00ed<\/a> sin ning\u00fan aviso ni explicaci\u00f3n. Pero estaba segura de que s\u00f3lo era una de tus fases y esper\u00e9 pacientemente a que volvieras a m\u00ed, como siempre hac\u00edas. Y Puls\u00e9 el bot\u00f3n de pausa en mi vida<\/a>como siempre hice.<\/p>\n

Pero pasaban los meses y you weren\u2019t coming back.<\/strong><\/p>\n

It was difficult for me to accept but I saw that you\u2019d continu\u00f3<\/a> con tu vida, como si nunca hubiera formado parte de ella. Estabas decidido a marcharte para siempre y a no mirar atr\u00e1s.<\/p>\n

The following period was one of the hardest of my life. At first, I refused to accept that you weren\u2019t coming back. But when I couldn\u2019t lie to myself anymore, the truth hit me hard. I just couldn\u2019t accept that you had walked away from me like I never existed, like we never existed. You were the first thing on my mind after I woke up and the last thought before I went to sleep.<\/p>\n

But after some time, I finally realized some things. I accepted that you didn\u2019t have the slightest intention of coming back and for the first time, I was OK with that. It took me a lot of time, tears and patience but I came to the conclusion that I didn\u2019t need you in my life. I didn\u2019t need someone who would constantly leave me and I didn\u2019t want to be the one always waiting for you to come back.<\/p>\n

Necesitaba un hombre de verdad<\/a> en mi vida, alguien en quien pudiera confiar. Necesitaba un hombre que siempre estuviera a mi lado, pasara lo que pasara. Necesitaba a alguien que me apoyara en las buenas y en las malas, y no alguien que se marchara en cuanto las cosas se pusieran feas.<\/p>\n

\"Necesitaba<\/p>\n

Necesitaba un hombre que fuera todo lo que t\u00fa no eras.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Y eso me hizo comprender que en realidad ten\u00eda suerte de que te hubieras alejado de m\u00ed.<\/p>\n

Pero en cuanto viste que estaba a punto de seguir adelante con mi vida, empezaste a darme se\u00f1ales contradictorias y se\u00f1ales de que no me superabas<\/a>. Your friends started telling me that you regretted everything you did to me and that you couldn\u2019t live without me. Wherever I\u2019d go, you would be right there. I kept getting drunk phone calls from you in the middle of the night, telling me that you missed me.<\/p>\n

And I wasn\u2019t indifferent. Although I thought I\u2019d completely moved on with my life, every time I\u2019d see you or hear your voice, it reminded me of everything. It reminded me of all the love I used to feel for you and of all the happy memories the two of us shared.<\/p>\n

Pero tambi\u00e9n me record\u00f3 todo el dolor que me causaste.<\/strong> Me record\u00f3 todas las noches que me qued\u00e9 dormida con el tel\u00e9fono en la mano, toda arreglada, esperando a que me llamaras. Me record\u00f3 todas las veces que te alejaste de m\u00ed sin ninguna explicaci\u00f3n. Me record\u00f3 todas las humillaciones que me hiciste pasar, todas las l\u00e1grimas que llor\u00e9 esperando a que volvieras.<\/p>\n

Y una vez m\u00e1s, me temo.<\/strong> Pero esta vez, no tengo miedo de que me dejes. Esta vez, me petrifica que volver\u00e1s<\/a>.<\/p>\n

Y Tengo a\u00fan m\u00e1s miedo de que te lleve de vuelta.<\/strong><\/p>\n

I am scared that only one look at you will make me want to forgive everything you did to me. I am scared that I will forget all the pain you put me through, the moment you smile at me. I am afraid I won\u2019t be able to stay strong for much longer and that I will fall into temptation.
\nY eso es lo \u00faltimo que quiero para m\u00ed.<\/p>\n

As\u00ed que, por favor, al\u00e9jate de m\u00ed. Si no es por mi bien, entonces por el bien de todo el amor que te di. Es lo menos que merezco.<\/p>\n

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While we were together, my biggest fear was that you would walk away from me and nothing besides this could help with that fear of abandonment I was feeling: Overcome fear of abandonment and enjoy your relationships You were constantly leaving me and coming back to me as you wished. And I was always there, waiting…<\/p>","protected":false},"author":40,"featured_media":16053,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29617],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-16051","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-heartbreak"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29617,"label":"heartbreak"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/03\/max-rovensky-562056-unsplash.jpg",800,531,false],"author_info":{"display_name":"Tara Brown","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/author\/tara-brown\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29617,"name":"heartbreak","slug":"heartbreak","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29617,"taxonomy":"category","description":"Recovering after having your heart broken is tough. That's why I've decided to collect different stories of heartbreak - to help everyone going through the same.","parent":38,"count":146,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29617,"category_count":146,"category_description":"Recovering after having your heart broken is tough. That's why I've decided to collect different stories of heartbreak - to help everyone going through the same.","cat_name":"heartbreak","category_nicename":"heartbreak","category_parent":38}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16051","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/40"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=16051"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16051\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/16053"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=16051"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=16051"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=16051"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}