{"id":16387,"date":"2018-03-14T14:39:43","date_gmt":"2018-03-14T14:39:43","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/herway.net\/?p=16387"},"modified":"2022-02-10T01:52:24","modified_gmt":"2022-02-10T01:52:24","slug":"estoy-harto-de-prenderme-fuego-solo-para-mantenerte-caliente","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/estoy-harto-de-prenderme-fuego-solo-para-mantenerte-caliente\/","title":{"rendered":"He Terminado De Prenderme Fuego Solo Para Mantenerte Caliente"},"content":{"rendered":"

Desde el momento en que te conoc\u00ed, supe c\u00f3mo emocionalmente roto<\/a> que eras. Sab\u00eda que te hab\u00edan herido en el pasado y que eso te hab\u00eda cambiado para siempre.<\/p>\n

You never liked talking about it that much. All I knew was that you didn\u2019t have a happy childhood and that your family was malfunctioning. You never had someone who was truly yours, someone who would understand you no matter what and someone who would always be there for you. All I knew is that nobody was there to teach you what love was and that made you the person you are today.<\/p>\n

Sab\u00eda que ten\u00edas tus propios problemas que te molestaban y tus propios demonios con los que luchabas constantemente.<\/p>\n

Pero siempre pens\u00e9 que hab\u00eda un ni\u00f1o peque\u00f1o, perdido y vulnerable escondido en tu interior. Que toda tu insensibilidad y comportamiento hacia m\u00ed no era m\u00e1s que una m\u00e1scara, un mecanismo de defensa. Intent\u00e9 justificarte pensando que probablemente supon\u00edas que estaba a punto de hacerte da\u00f1o, igual que todo el mundo. En mi cabeza, esa era la raz\u00f3n por la que nunca te abr\u00edas completamente a m\u00ed. Esa era la raz\u00f3n por la que nunca me dejaste entrar de lleno.<\/p>\n

En mi cabeza, la fe me hab\u00eda puesto en tu camino para que pudiera ayudarte. Me enviaron para ayudarte a abrir tu coraz\u00f3n al amor, para ense\u00f1arte c\u00f3mo deb\u00eda ser el amor. Para ense\u00f1arte c\u00f3mo era ser amado y c\u00f3mo amar.<\/p>\n

Pero no dejabas de apartarme<\/a>. Cada vez que me acercaba a ti, a\u00f1ad\u00edas otro ladrillo a ese muro alto y grueso que imped\u00eda el paso a todo el mundo, incluida yo. Te cerrabas a\u00fan m\u00e1s y me cerrabas por completo. Cuando me pongo a pensarlo, toda nuestra relaci\u00f3n se basaba en que t\u00fa intentabas aislarme por completo y yo intentaba llegar a ti.<\/p>\n

Sabes que hice todo lo que estaba en mi mano para ayudarte. Sabes que mi \u00fanico prop\u00f3sito en la vida era hacer de ti un hombre mejor. Sabes que Te lo di todo, pero no recib\u00ed nada a cambio<\/a>. I never asked for anything from you\u2014I just wanted for you to cooperate. I just wanted you to appreciate all of my efforts and to appreciate me.<\/p>\n

\"Sabes<\/p>\n

S\u00f3lo quer\u00eda que empezaras a quererte como yo te quer\u00eda. Y yo quer\u00eda que me amaras.
\nPero incluso eso fue demasiado para ti.<\/p>\n

As\u00ed que.., aqu\u00ed estoy, admitiendo mi derrota.<\/strong> Aqu\u00ed estoy aceptando que no pod\u00eda hacer nada m\u00e1s por ti. Aqu\u00ed estoy renunciando a ti<\/a>. Aqu\u00ed me est\u00e1n haciendo.<\/p>\n

I am done taking the blame for someone else\u2019s actions.<\/strong> I know you\u2019ve had a rough life. I know you were never loved and taken care of. But none of this is my fault. I was different and you know that. And I don\u2019t have to be the only one dealing with all the consequences of all the pain you\u2019ve been through. I don\u2019t have to be the only one handling the man you\u2019ve become.<\/p>\n

He dejado de ser la persona a la que llamas cada vez que algo va mal.<\/strong> I am done being the one you remember only when you are in trouble. Whenever life had been treating you kindly, you were nowhere to be found. But as soon as everyone around you turned their backs on you, I was the first person you\u2019d call. Because you always knew I was the only one who would never leave you hanging. But whenever I needed you, my troubles were foolish and irrelevant. You were never interested in my issues and concerns and I could never rely on your support.<\/p>\n

Me cans\u00e9 de ser el que siempre entiende.<\/strong> I tried really hard to justify you. I tried finding excuses for the way you were treating me\u2014for all the fights, all the insults and all the times you hurt me. I assumed this was the only behavior pattern you were taught, so I put a lot of effort into trying to show you different ways of communication. I put up with everything you ever told me or did to me, because I tried to find the reasons behind it all. But even then, you refused to open up to me. You never apologized for anything you did to me and you never took responsibility for any of your words or actions. Instead, I was always the one to blame for everything bad in our relationship.<\/p>\n

Me cans\u00e9 de esperar a que entres en raz\u00f3n.<\/strong> I\u2019ve waited for you to change for more than enough time. I\u2019ve given you more than enough chances. But now it\u2019s time for me to accept that none of the things I wish for will ever happen. It\u2019s time for me to accept that you\u2019ll never realize how much I did for you and how much I loved you.<\/p>\n

He terminado de dirigir tus batallas.<\/strong> You are a big boy and it\u2019s time you stop relying on me. It\u2019s time for you to start fighting your own battles, without me holding your hand all the time. You always wanted to present yourself as this tough guy who didn\u2019t need anyone\u2019s help through life, didn\u2019t you? Well, this is your chance to do so.<\/p>\n

He terminado de destruirme para poder salvarte.<\/strong> I\u2019ve realized that you don\u2019t want to be saved. You enjoy being the victim of life circumstances and you don\u2019t want to be happy. And you can\u2019t save someone who doesn\u2019t want to be saved. All you could do was get yourself pulled down into your darkness and that is exactly what happened to me.<\/p>\n

He terminado de elegirte a ti en vez de a m\u00ed.<\/strong> Te quise durante mucho tiempo. Y todav\u00eda te quiero. Pero tengo que aprender a quererme m\u00e1s a m\u00ed misma.<\/p>\n

Me cans\u00e9 de esperar a que me ames.<\/strong> Porque ahora s\u00e9 que hay algunas personas que no son capaces de amar<\/a>. Y por mucho que me mate admitirlo, t\u00fa eres una de esas personas.<\/p>\n

He terminado de prenderme fuego s\u00f3lo para mantenerte caliente. Porque no he conseguido nada haci\u00e9ndolo. Nada excepto quemarme junto contigo.<\/p>\n

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