{"id":16670,"date":"2020-06-20T13:08:16","date_gmt":"2020-06-20T13:08:16","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/herway.net\/?p=16670"},"modified":"2022-02-21T18:51:01","modified_gmt":"2022-02-21T18:51:01","slug":"he-terminado-de-perseguirte-para-demostrarte-que-te-quiero","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/he-terminado-de-perseguirte-para-demostrarte-que-te-quiero\/","title":{"rendered":"He Terminado De Perseguirte Para Demostrar Que Te Amo"},"content":{"rendered":"

Pens\u00e9 que hab\u00eda encontrado el amor. Pens\u00e9 que por fin hab\u00eda terminado de buscar el amor de mi vida. Pens\u00e9 que lo ten\u00eda todo, pero me di cuenta de que no ten\u00eda nada.<\/span><\/p>\n

Al principio, sent\u00eda esa emoci\u00f3n antes de verte. <\/span><\/p>\n

Mi coraz\u00f3n se aceler\u00f3 como loco cuando mi tel\u00e9fono zumb\u00f3 y tu nombre apareci\u00f3 en la pantalla. <\/span><\/p>\n

Pero esa sensaci\u00f3n fue desapareciendo poco a poco con el paso del tiempo. <\/span><\/p>\n

Ten\u00eda la sensaci\u00f3n de que en vez de acercarte a m\u00ed, te alejabas de m\u00ed. Tuve la sensaci\u00f3n Tuve que perseguirte para sentirme amado<\/a>. <\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

It turns out it wasn\u2019t just a feeling. It was really happening. <\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

At first, I was so happy that I had finally found someone who got me and with whom I could be myself. I didn\u2019t have to pretend to be someone else for you to love me. <\/span><\/p>\n

I could do whatever I felt like and I wasn\u2019t judged. I wasn\u2019t manipulated into doing something that I hated, I wasn\u2019t controlled. <\/span><\/p>\n

At least that\u2019s what I thought but I was so mistaken, I was so manipulated.  <\/span><\/p>\n

That is the ugliest side of control and manipulation. You can\u2019t detect it and it consumes you and turns you into a person you don\u2019t want to be. <\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

And when you realize it, it\u2019s too late, you\u2019ve already been trapped. <\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

You were that person who convinced me you\u2019d be there when I fell, you swore you\u2019d never try to change me because you loved me the way I was. <\/span><\/p>\n

Dijiste que ser\u00edas honesto conmigo porque era la \u00fanica manera <\/span>nuestra relaci\u00f3n sobrevivir\u00eda<\/span><\/a>...pero t\u00fa hiciste todo lo contrario. <\/span><\/p>\n

Me hiciste creer que hac\u00edas todas esas cosas cuando en realidad me envolv\u00edas alrededor de tu dedito y me hac\u00edas todo lo que quer\u00edas.<\/span><\/p>\n

Me hiciste perseguirte y rogar por tu amor. Nunca te lo perdonar\u00e9 ni lo olvidar\u00e9. <\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

I know I won\u2019t be able to forget you either, at least not that soon. <\/span><\/p>\n

Pero te juro que alg\u00fan d\u00eda lo conseguir\u00e9. Intentar\u00e9 con todas mis fuerzas olvidar todos esos peque\u00f1os momentos que tuvimos y que val\u00eda la pena recordar, porque los tuvimos. <\/span><\/p>\n

Incluso en esa relaci\u00f3n abusiva, en toda esa toxicidad, hubo momentos en los que realmente pens\u00e9 que me quer\u00edas. <\/span><\/p>\n

Even if you didn\u2019t, I\u2019ll deliberately lie to myself and think that you did. It\u2019s easier that way. It\u2019s easier to think I meant at least one tiny bit to you.  <\/span><\/p>\n

I swear to you, that after some time, you\u2019re going to be nothing more than just an experience, a lesson that I paid a lot for, a mistake that will never happen again. <\/span><\/p>\n

You didn\u2019t deserve even to stay in my mind, you didn\u2019t deserve not one tear that I shed for you, but I did it anyway because I was hurt, because I fell for your dirty <\/span>juegos mentales<\/span><\/a>. No por ti.  <\/span><\/p>\n

But it\u2019s okay now. Now I\u2019ve realized I won\u2019t be chasing you anymore. I won\u2019t be chasing anyone. I realized I don\u2019t need to beg for attention, to beg for love. <\/span><\/p>\n

I realized you never loved me and that\u2019s fine. It\u2019s not fine that you lied instead of telling me and letting me go. <\/span><\/p>\n

Podr\u00edas haberme liberado. Me habr\u00eda dolido menos que ahora. <\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

My love for you should have been enough. You didn\u2019t have to ask for anything else. But since you never loved me, you didn\u2019t appreciate my love, so you wanted more. <\/span><\/p>\n

Me pediste m\u00e1s y m\u00e1s hasta que me di cuenta de que s\u00f3lo te aprovechabas de m\u00ed y me dejabas triste, sin amor y emocionalmente agotada. <\/span><\/p>\n

I gave you chances to prove yourself, to prove to me that you cared, that you wanted us to last. You blew it because you didn\u2019t give a damn and now I\u2019m glad you didn\u2019t. <\/span><\/p>\n

Soon, you\u2019re going to vanish from my mind and I will be able to go on living my life like I never met you, like I never made that mistake.<\/span><\/p>\n

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