You were the man I loved the most in my life. That love consumed me completely and I ceased to exist outside of it. When I met you, I was certain I\u2019d finally found my other half, my soulmate. From that moment on, I felt that all of my problems would be easy to resolve, as long as you were holding my hand.<\/p>\n
Desde el principio, supe que ten\u00edas problemas. Vi que eras emocionalmente no disponible<\/a> and that you had deep issues that needed to be resolved. I didn\u2019t want to accept that you were actually toxic and instead of staying away from you, I thought I would be the one to save you. Instead of accepting that you were bad for me and everyone around you, I saw you as a lost little boy who needed my help and guidance. I was convinced that I was your savior, your superwoman who would change all of your ways. I thought I would be the one to give you faith in love and in people in general. And most of all, I wanted to bring you back faith in yourself, because I was certain you\u2019d lost it. I wanted for you to see yourself the way I saw you and I wanted for you to love yourself the way I loved you. And I wanted for you to love me the way I loved you.<\/p>\n With time, I saw that I\u2019d actually started living your life. I dedicated my entire being to you only. You became the center of me and my reason for living.<\/strong><\/p>\n But even that wasn\u2019t enough. Even that couldn\u2019t change you and the way you treated me. Even that couldn\u2019t make you love me the way I deserved to be loved. And even that couldn\u2019t make you stay by my side and couldn\u2019t stop you from leaving.<\/strong><\/p>\n And that is something I am finally OK with. That is something I\u2019ve learned to accept and something I\u2019ve learned to live with.<\/p>\n