{"id":17557,"date":"2018-04-12T10:46:38","date_gmt":"2018-04-12T10:46:38","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/herway.net\/?p=17557"},"modified":"2021-08-12T10:13:02","modified_gmt":"2021-08-12T10:13:02","slug":"cuando-te-fuiste-estaba-devastada-pero-ahora-me-siento-aliviada","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/cuando-te-fuiste-estaba-devastada-pero-ahora-me-siento-aliviada\/","title":{"rendered":"Cuando te fuiste me sent\u00ed desolado, pero ahora me siento aliviado."},"content":{"rendered":"

When you left me, you brought to life one of my biggest fears. I didn\u2019t know what to do with my life, thinking it had come to its end. I had no purpose and no meaning left. I was completely consumed by this pain you caused me and <\/span>I couldn\u2019t move from the spot where you left me.<\/b><\/p>\n

Si en aquel momento alguien me hubiera preguntado cu\u00e1l era una de las cosas m\u00e1s dolorosas de experimentar, el desamor habr\u00eda encabezado sin duda mi lista.<\/span><\/p>\n

I felt like I couldn\u2019t breathe without you by my side. <\/span>Tu partida me rompi\u00f3 de muchas maneras. <\/b><\/p>\n

Y me doli\u00f3 hasta los huesos.<\/b> Pens\u00e9 que nunca ser\u00eda la mujer que sol\u00eda ser y que nunca me recuperar\u00eda de todo el dolor que me causaste.<\/span><\/p>\n

Estaba segura de que morir\u00eda.<\/b><\/p>\n

And then, with time, it got a lot easier. I don\u2019t know how it happened or when it happened but I just know <\/span>I woke up one morning without the feeling that my chest would burn out. I didn\u2019t have the feeling I would break into pieces every second and I could finally breathe properly.<\/b><\/p>\n

It didn\u2019t mean I was completely over you but it was definitely something. It was the beginning of my recovery. It was when I realized that time would heal my wounds and when I became determined that there would come a moment when I\u2019d be over you.<\/span><\/p>\n

Y despu\u00e9s de mucho tiempo, por fin lleg\u00f3 ese momento. Me ha costado mucho tiempo y paciencia llegar hasta aqu\u00ed, pero lo he conseguido. Por fin puedo decir que soy <\/span>finalmente, realmente sobre ti<\/span><\/a>. I don\u2019t love you nor do I hate you<\/span>\u2014<\/span>Me es completamente indiferente.<\/span><\/p>\n

But what is even more important is that I feel like I\u2019ve gotten rid of this huge burden. When you first left me, I felt like the entire world\u2019s weight had fallen on my shoulders, and now I feel like I\u2019ve gotten rid of it. I feel relaxed, liberated and free.<\/b><\/p>\n

Me siento aliviado.<\/b><\/p>\n

And I am not only relieved because I surpassed the pain I was feeling all along. I never thought I\u2019d be the one to say it but I am relieved you are in not in my life anymore.<\/b><\/p>\n

Por fin me di cuenta de lo mal que me trataste mientras estuvimos juntos. Por fin me di cuenta de lo negativamente que me influiste.<\/span><\/p>\n

Me di cuenta de que en realidad era su prisionero. <\/span>Although you didn\u2019t keep me physically locked inside, you caged my mind and soul.<\/b> Tus juegos mentales eran tan fuertes que realmente sent\u00eda que estabas dentro de mi cabeza.<\/span><\/p>\n

I didn\u2019t know it back then but I see it now. <\/span>Veo lo controlador y manipulador que eras en realidad. Por fin veo tu toxicidad.<\/b><\/p>\n

I see how you ruined years of my life and how you could\u2019ve ruined the rest of it, if you\u2019d stayed by my side.<\/span><\/p>\n

I see that I was actually afraid of you. I didn\u2019t <\/span>sobrevivir a los malos tratos f\u00edsicos<\/span><\/a> de ti, pero de alguna manera te las arreglaste para hacerme vivir con miedo. No importaba lo que hiciera, tu posible reacci\u00f3n era el \u00fanico pensamiento que pasaba por mi cabeza. Ahora s\u00e9 que nunca estuve totalmente relajada mientras estuve contigo.<\/span><\/p>\n

And since you left, all of this stopped. Yes, you left me alone but that actually meant I didn\u2019t have anyone to judge every move I made, to constantly try to put me down and criticize me. I didn\u2019t have anyone to patronize me and to feed my insecurities. I didn\u2019t have anyone ruining my confidence and holding me back.<\/span><\/p>\n

Ahora, sin ti a mi lado,<\/span> Por fin puedo ser libre<\/b> and I don\u2019t have to be afraid of anything anymore.<\/span> Now that I\u2019ve finally gotten out of this mental cage you put me in<\/b>Puedo tomar mis propias decisiones, sin preocuparme de lo que pienses de ellas. <\/span><\/p>\n

Por fin puedo disfrutar de cada aliento que tomo y por fin puedo <\/b>vivir mi vida al m\u00e1ximo<\/b><\/a>sin ser abusado emocionalmente, manipulado y chantajeado.<\/b><\/p>\n

And that is the most liberating and relieving feeling there is. Even though I thought I\u2019d never say this<\/b>\u2014<\/b>Me alegro de que te hayas ido.<\/b> <\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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