{"id":17588,"date":"2020-08-13T06:46:03","date_gmt":"2020-08-13T06:46:03","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/herway.net\/?p=17588"},"modified":"2021-08-12T06:39:44","modified_gmt":"2021-08-12T06:39:44","slug":"espero-que-herirme-te-persiga-para-siempre","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/espero-que-herirme-te-persiga-para-siempre\/","title":{"rendered":"Espero que herirme te persiga para siempre"},"content":{"rendered":"

I\u2019ve never been a vengeful type of gal. Even when someone would hurt me, I would always try to poner excusas<\/a> para ellos.<\/p>\n

Intentar\u00eda justificarlos a mis ojos y har\u00eda todo lo posible por perdonarlos.<\/p>\n

When I think about it now, it didn\u2019t make me perfect. I don\u2019t know if I was doing it because of them or because it was easier for me that way.<\/p>\n

Forgiveness always felt liberating and it always helped me move on. I thought there was nothing I couldn\u2019t forgive after the right amount of time.<\/p>\n

Hasta que llegaste t\u00fa.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Cambiaste muchas cosas de m\u00ed. Impactaste en mi visi\u00f3n del mundo, en mi opini\u00f3n sobre los hombres y sobre la gente en general. Distorsionaste mi autoimagen y arruinaste mi fe en el amor y en la humanidad.<\/p>\n

But that is something I\u2019ve learned to live with. After a lot of hard work, I\u2019ve accepted this person you\u2019ve made me become.<\/p>\n

I\u2019ve accepted the new me. But what I can\u2019t seem to accept is that you\u2019ve destroyed my ability to forgive.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\"triste<\/p>\n

Porque lo que me hiciste es imperdonable.<\/strong> A veces pienso que ten\u00edas la misi\u00f3n de destruirme desde el momento en que nos conocimos.<\/p>\n

I will never know what made you cause me this much pain but that is not important anymore. The fact is that you\u2019ve hurt me to the bones.<\/p>\n

You\u2019ve wounded and scarred me for life. And you didn\u2019t do this just when you left me.<\/p>\n

Toda nuestra relaci\u00f3n fue un infierno para m\u00ed. Por supuesto, tambi\u00e9n hubo momentos felices. Y segu\u00ed aferr\u00e1ndome a esos momentos felices.<\/p>\n

Fueron las que me hicieron permanecer a tu lado durante a\u00f1os. Pero todo lo malo que me hiciste anul\u00f3 todo lo bueno que me hiciste.<\/p>\n

Ahora, s\u00f3lo recuerdo las cosas horribles.<\/p>\n

S\u00f3lo recuerdo el dolor, la humillaci\u00f3n, las l\u00e1grimas. Me recuerdo pensando que me estaba volviendo loca. Recuerdo la forma en que me manipulaste.<\/p>\n

Recuerdo tus celos y tu comportamiento posesivo. Recuerdo que me controlabas. Te recuerdo pidi\u00e9ndolo todo sin dar nada a cambio.<\/p>\n

\"mujer<\/p>\n

I remember all the sleepless nights I spent praying you\u2019d change. I remember all the abuso emocional<\/a> you were putting me through and all the mornings I wished I hadn\u2019t woken up.<\/p>\n

Recuerdo c\u00f3mo me sent\u00eda impotente y sin esperanza. Recuerdo c\u00f3mo no ve\u00eda ninguna salida.<\/p>\n

Y sobre todo, recuerdo que fuiste t\u00fa quien se march\u00f3 despu\u00e9s de todo lo que me hiciste.<\/p>\n

Recuerdo c\u00f3mo deseaba que volvieras, aunque sab\u00eda que me destruir\u00edas por completo si lo hac\u00edas.<\/p>\n

I remember how I felt used and unwanted, how I was drained and exhausted from all the pain you\u2019ve caused me.<\/p>\n

How I felt I would never be good enough for any man because I obviously wasn\u2019t good enough for you whom I had given everything I had.<\/p>\n

Recuerdo lo destrozada que estaba y c\u00f3mo pensaba que ya no ten\u00eda motivos para seguir viviendo. Recuerdo la desesperaci\u00f3n que ve\u00eda en mis ojos cada vez que me miraba al espejo.<\/p>\n

Although I am way better now, you\u2019ve left a stamp on my mind and soul.<\/p>\n

\"joven<\/p>\n

And that is why I don\u2019t want you to live your life as if nothing has happened, as if you hadn\u2019t caused me any harm. <\/strong><\/p>\n

That is why I don\u2019t want you to be guilt-free and to ever be peaceful. And that is why you can\u2019t have my forgiveness.<\/strong><\/p>\n

I am sorry, but I can\u2019t be the bigger man and wish you all the best. I don\u2019t want you to live felices para siempre.<\/a><\/strong><\/p>\n

En cambio, quiero que te consuma la culpa durante el tiempo que a m\u00ed me consuma este dolor y esta desesperaci\u00f3n.<\/p>\n

Quiero que pases por todo lo que me hiciste pasar y quiero que sientas todo lo que yo sent\u00ed por tu culpa.<\/p>\n

Incluso cuando seas feliz, espero que exista una voz en tu cabeza que te recuerde todo lo que me hiciste. <\/strong><\/p>\n

Incluso cuando te olvidas por completo de m\u00ed, deseo que te despiertes en mitad de la noche consumida por la culpa, sin saber siquiera por qu\u00e9 te sientes as\u00ed. <\/strong><\/p>\n

Incluso si alguna vez cambias, quiero que siempre tengas en mente que existe una mujer cuya vida destruiste y quiero que nunca seas <\/strong>en paz contigo mismo por esto.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Call me a bad or a vengeful person, but I hope I\u2019ll haunt you for as long as you breathe because that is the least you deserve.<\/p>\n

\"Espero
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