{"id":18156,"date":"2018-04-27T18:59:25","date_gmt":"2018-04-27T18:59:25","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/herway.net\/?p=18156"},"modified":"2021-08-12T10:03:51","modified_gmt":"2021-08-12T10:03:51","slug":"no-importa-lo-que-hagas-ahora-nunca-podras-borrar-todo-lo-que-me-hiciste-en-el-pasado","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/no-importa-lo-que-hagas-ahora-nunca-podras-borrar-todo-lo-que-me-hiciste-en-el-pasado\/","title":{"rendered":"No importa lo que hagas ahora, nunca podr\u00e1s borrar todo lo que me hiciste en el pasado"},"content":{"rendered":"

Me causaste mucho dolor y sufr\u00ed mucho por tu culpa. <\/span>Me rompiste el coraz\u00f3n<\/span><\/a> y me rompiste. Destruiste todo lo que pod\u00edas destruir de m\u00ed y me cambiaste como persona para siempre. Siempre me trataste como un pedazo de mierda, como si nunca te hubiera importado.<\/span><\/p>\n

When I come to think of it now, I don\u2019t know if there is anything left that you didn\u2019t do to me. Because you lied to me, you cheated on me, you neglected me, you manipulated me and you controlled me. Above all, you abused me in more than one way. And that is something I am aware of now.<\/span><\/p>\n

Sabes, durante mucho tiempo, segu\u00ed minti\u00e9ndome a m\u00ed misma. Simplemente me negaba a admitir que en realidad eras una mala persona y que nunca me quisiste de verdad. Me negaba a aceptar todas las cosas que me hac\u00edas, as\u00ed que segu\u00eda justific\u00e1ndote y me culpaba de todo. Segu\u00eda inventando excusas para tus mentiras, dici\u00e9ndome que deb\u00eda de haber malinterpretado las cosas. Cada vez que te pillaba enga\u00f1\u00e1ndome, me dec\u00eda que me lo estaba imaginando todo. Y en esas situaciones, estaba m\u00e1s que feliz de aceptar tus falsas excusas que obviamente no ten\u00edan sentido. Aunque sab\u00eda que me maltratabas, me dec\u00eda a m\u00ed misma que estaba <\/span>demasiado sensible<\/span><\/a> o que era culpa m\u00eda por provocarte. En realidad, esas eran las cosas que me dec\u00edas y yo ten\u00eda tantas ganas de cre\u00e9rmelas. Supongo que entonces me cre\u00eda todas las mentiras posibles que me pon\u00edas delante. Lo \u00fanico en lo que nunca quise creer fue en la verdad. Nunca quise aceptar que eras un abusador t\u00f3xico y que necesitaba alejarme de ti si quer\u00eda salvar mi cordura.<\/span><\/p>\n

I don\u2019t know what happened but with time, I knew I had to accept it. I guess it was when my bruises were too evident and too big for me to hide. I guess I became ashamed of the people around me seeing them and that was what made me wake up from this nightmare you were putting me through. And that was when I left you for good.<\/span><\/p>\n

When I first left, you didn\u2019t take me seriously. You were certain I\u2019d come crawling back to you. But that was something I had no intention of doing.<\/span><\/p>\n

With time, you saw I wasn\u2019t changing my mind. And you couldn\u2019t believe it. You couldn\u2019t believe I had the nerve to walk away from you. And that was when your efforts to win me back started. That was when you allegedly figured it all out and when you realized how badly you had treated me. That was when you started begging me to come back to you, promising me that this time was different and trying to assure me that you were a changed man. That was when you started acting like you would do anything just for me to go back to you.<\/span><\/p>\n

Pero d\u00e9jame decirte una cosa<\/span>\u2014<\/span>I am not buying any of it. I don\u2019t believe you and I never will.<\/b> I know you don\u2019t want me back because you love me; you want me back because you can\u2019t believe you lost the person who you could always treat the way you wanted to. You want me back to help you boost your sick ego. And that is something I am not ready to do anymore.<\/span><\/p>\n

You keep finding ways to get to me and you keep telling me you feel sorry for everything you did to me. But I know that is not true. I know you are not even aware of all the suffering I\u2019ve been through because of you. I know that deep down, you still think all of it was my fault. <\/span>S\u00f3lo me dices todo lo que quiero o\u00edr porque crees que te ayudar\u00e1 a reconquistarme.<\/b><\/p>\n

Well, it won\u2019t. <\/span>Nunca volver\u00e9 contigo y no hay nada que puedas hacer para cambiarlo.<\/b> I am not telling you this because I\u2019m heartless or because I want revenge for everything you did to me. I am telling you this because I really mean it. <\/span><\/p>\n

Tienes que aceptar el hecho de que no hay nada que puedas hacer ahora para hacerme olvidar todo lo que me hiciste en el pasado. <\/span>You don\u2019t have a magical eraser that can remove all the wounds and scars on my soul and body that you caused.<\/b><\/p>\n

Even if you have changed (and I know you haven\u2019t), you need to understand that just seeing your face reminds me of all the pain I\u2019ve been through. It reminds me of every tear I cried for you and of every humiliation you put me through. It reminds me of every time you hit me, of every time you crushed my heart, of every lie you told me straight to my face and of every woman you <\/span>me enga\u00f1\u00f3<\/span><\/a> con. Y no hay nada que puedas hacer para que lo olvide.<\/span><\/p>\n

The only thing you can do is leave me alone. If you really regret all the things you did to me, please let me go and don\u2019t come back into my life ever again.<\/b> <\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

You caused me a lot of pain and I suffered a lot because of you. You broke my heart and you broke me. You destroyed everything that you could destroy about me and you changed me as a person for good. You always treated me like a piece of shit, like I never mattered to…<\/p>","protected":false},"author":40,"featured_media":18158,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29619],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-18156","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-stories-love"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29619,"label":"stories"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/04\/tyler-nix-601519-unsplash-1.jpg",800,533,false],"author_info":{"display_name":"Tara Brown","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/author\/tara-brown\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29619,"name":"stories","slug":"stories-love","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29619,"taxonomy":"category","description":"To all the souls struggling with complicated love experiences: These heartfelt stories about love, heartbreak, and moving on will be your voice of wisdom.","parent":38,"count":424,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29619,"category_count":424,"category_description":"To all the souls struggling with complicated love experiences: These heartfelt stories about love, heartbreak, and moving on will be your voice of wisdom.","cat_name":"stories","category_nicename":"stories-love","category_parent":38}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18156","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/40"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=18156"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18156\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/18158"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=18156"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=18156"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=18156"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}