{"id":18447,"date":"2018-05-08T09:53:59","date_gmt":"2018-05-08T09:53:59","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/herway.net\/?p=18447"},"modified":"2022-01-12T21:13:14","modified_gmt":"2022-01-12T21:13:14","slug":"fue-increiblemente-duro-dejarte-ir-pero-no-me-dejaste-otra-opcion","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/fue-increiblemente-duro-dejarte-ir-pero-no-me-dejaste-otra-opcion\/","title":{"rendered":"Fue incre\u00edblemente duro dejarte marchar pero no me dejaste otra opci\u00f3n"},"content":{"rendered":"

I didn\u2019t want this. I didn\u2019t want to let go of somebody who meant the world to me and whom I loved with all that I am. I didn\u2019t want to let go of somebody I planned my future with, somebody I could never imagine myself without. But here I am. Picking up the pieces and putting myself back together because you left me no other choice but to leave.<\/span><\/p>\n

To be honest, I never thought I could do it. Tears would roll down my face every time I thought of the inevitable end we were headed toward. I just didn\u2019t want to face it. I kept deluding myself, imagining how things were going to get better, how you would change because you would see how much I loved you and how hard I was fighting to make things work. <\/span><\/p>\n

Pero nunca pensaste en cambiar, \u00bfverdad? <\/b>You were just fine with the way things were going. You didn\u2019t mind the fact that I was making all the effort, that I was always dreaming of the good old days and waiting for them to come back around again. You surely didn\u2019t mind me forgiving you for everything you did, sometimes even without you saying you were sorry. <\/span><\/p>\n

No, you didn\u2019t mind and you <\/span>lo daba todo por hecho<\/span><\/a>. Abusaste de mi amor y de mi bondad. Pensaste que pod\u00edas hacer lo que quisieras y que yo siempre ser\u00eda la tonta que pas\u00f3 por alto todo con tal de tenerte cerca. <\/span><\/p>\n

You would inflict wounds on my heart just by using words so nasty I can\u2019t even repeat them; they still hurt. You never had enough time for me, everything else came first. And every time I made a complaint of any sort you would say that I was ungrateful, unreasonable and self-absorbed. Nothing was ever your fault and it was always easier to put the blame on me. <\/span><\/p>\n

We were always moving back and forth. I think that\u2019s what pushed me away the most.<\/b> Estaba cansado de tanta tristeza. Era incapaz de lidiar con tu inconsistencia. Un d\u00eda me dabas el mundo y al siguiente me lo quitabas. Un d\u00eda me dabas el mundo y al siguiente me lo quitabas. Estabas ah\u00ed pero nunca estabas realmente ah\u00ed, siempre ten\u00edas un pie fuera de la puerta. <\/span><\/p>\n

That\u2019s not how you love, with only half of your heart. Love demands all or nothing, there can\u2019t be any in-between. <\/b>I know you cared, I know you loved me in your own way but it was never enough. You just gave your bare minimum. You invested as much as you needed and nothing more. And when I sum it all up, I spent so much time crying and so little time smiling. Love shouldn\u2019t feel like torture. Love shouldn\u2019t make you this exhausted. Love shouldn\u2019t be begged for. <\/span><\/p>\n

And I did just that, didn\u2019t I? Against my better judgment, I begged for your love.<\/b> Te rogu\u00e9 que me trataras mejor. Te rogu\u00e9 que cambiaras. Te rogu\u00e9 que me dedicaras m\u00e1s tiempo, m\u00e1s atenci\u00f3n, m\u00e1s aprecio por todo lo que estaba haciendo, por todo lo malo que dej\u00e9 pasar por el bien de nuestra relaci\u00f3n. Pero mi <\/span>mendigar fue en vano<\/span><\/a>. Me cans\u00e9 de eso. Me cans\u00e9 de que me maltrataran. Me cans\u00e9 de que no me quisieran. <\/span><\/p>\n

I know you don\u2019t get that I had to leave. You still don\u2019t see all the things you did wrong. You still think you have the right to be in my life when it suits you. You are capable of putting on your best show ever to convince me to let you back in. But I wasted four years of my life waiting for things to change. Holding on to the hope of some distant possibility that we could make things work, that we could be happy. <\/span><\/p>\n

No te dejo ir por falta de amor, te dejo porque tuve demasiado amor; creo que a\u00fan lo tengo pero empez\u00f3 a desvanecerse porque nunca fue correspondido. <\/b>Finalmente me di cuenta de que me estaba aferrando a algo que nunca ser\u00eda<\/a>. Porque si ten\u00eda que pasar, ya habr\u00eda pasado. Tuvimos tiempo m\u00e1s que suficiente. Te di infinitas oportunidades que ni siquiera te molestaste en usar. S\u00f3lo estaba perdiendo el tiempo con <\/span>alguien que nunca me valor\u00f3<\/span><\/a>.<\/span><\/p>\n

That\u2019s why I am done, even though it\u2019s breaking me, even though this is the hardest thing I ever had to do. I have to be stronger than ever this time. Stronger than my feelings because I know that I deserve better. <\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

No tengo m\u00e1s oportunidades que dar. Estoy harta de que te hagas la v\u00edctima indefensa y me eches toda la culpa a m\u00ed. Estoy cansada de ser infeliz. Estoy cansada de todo el dolor y el sufrimiento que me haces pasar. Estoy cansada de estar cansada. <\/span><\/p>\n

Esta vez te estoy viendo por lo que realmente eres y no por lo que espero que llegues a ser. Esta vez me elijo a m\u00ed y a mi propia felicidad antes que a ti. Gracias por dejarme sin otra opci\u00f3n que dejarte ir. <\/span><\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I didn\u2019t want this. I didn\u2019t want to let go of somebody who meant the world to me and whom I loved with all that I am. I didn\u2019t want to let go of somebody I planned my future with, somebody I could never imagine myself without. But here I am. Picking up the pieces…<\/p>","protected":false},"author":13,"featured_media":18448,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29628],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-18447","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-dealing-with-breakup"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29628,"label":"dealing with breakup"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/05\/riccardo-mion-645216-unsplash-4.jpg",800,533,false],"author_info":{"display_name":"April Callaghan","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/author\/april\/"},"comment_info":1,"category_info":[{"term_id":29628,"name":"dealing with breakup","slug":"dealing-with-breakup","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29628,"taxonomy":"category","description":"Breakups are painful but worry not; you don't need to go through all of it alone. If you need advice on when and how to break up, you'll find it all here.\r\n","parent":29627,"count":263,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29628,"category_count":263,"category_description":"Breakups are painful but worry not; you don't need to go through all of it alone. If you need advice on when and how to break up, you'll find it all here.\r\n","cat_name":"dealing with breakup","category_nicename":"dealing-with-breakup","category_parent":29627}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18447","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/13"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=18447"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18447\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/18448"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=18447"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=18447"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=18447"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}