\u00bfC\u00f3mo pudiste no ver lo mucho que me esforzaba por ti? \u00bfC\u00f3mo pudiste permanecer indiferente a las cosas que hice por ti? \u00bfC\u00f3mo pudiste ponerme en \u00faltimo lugar cuando todo lo que hice fue ponerte en primer lugar?<\/p>\n
\u00bfC\u00f3mo no viste que eras todo lo que yo quer\u00eda?<\/p>\n
For so long I was dying just to make you happy. Now when I look back I see that there isn\u2019t a thing I wouldn\u2019t have done, a thing I didn\u2019t do, just to make you satisfied.<\/p>\n
Siempre estuve ah\u00ed para ti.<\/strong><\/p>\n I was your 2am and your 2pm call. I was the one who\u2019d always answer your calls even if you ignored all of mine, I was always the one to respond immediately to your text even if you left me on read.<\/p>\n Siempre fuiste lo primero, antes que yo, antes que nadie.<\/strong><\/p>\n It was always about what you needed. Other people\u2019s needs were never relevant. You expected me to show up each time you needed me and, as silly as I was, I would drop everything and run to save you. What mattered was that you were okay, I\u2019d make things work for me eventually, as long as you were happy.<\/p>\n Durante mucho tiempo me prend\u00ed fuego s\u00f3lo para mantenerte caliente.<\/strong><\/p>\n I neglected myself, my needs, I was an emotional wreck and I still gave you pieces of myself so you\u2019d be whole.<\/p>\n Dicen que la forma en que te tratas a ti mismo marca la pauta para los dem\u00e1s. Y dej\u00e9 claro que t\u00fa eras lo primero, incluso a costa de mi vida. Dios, estaba tan enamorada de ti, estaba tan cegada por mis sentimientos, que sent\u00eda que todo mi mundo giraba alrededor de una persona y esa persona eras t\u00fa.<\/p>\n Regardless of how many times you left, I\u2019d always take you back with my arms wide-spread. Regardless of how much you hurt me, I\u2019d always find a way to justify your actions. Regardless of how broken I was, I always found the strength to fight for you and save you. But only this far.<\/p>\n Me agot\u00e9. Me cans\u00e9. Acab\u00e9 con las manos vac\u00edas. Te di literalmente todo de m\u00ed hasta que no me qued\u00f3 nada.<\/strong><\/p>\n This torture went on and on. This is exactly what happens to the good girls who don\u2019t pay attention to whom they give their heart. They get broken. I got broken.<\/p>\n I just can\u2019t do this anymore. I can\u2019t pretend I\u2019m fine<\/a> when the love that should build me up just tears me down. I can\u2019t keep giving myself to you and investing in us while, on the other side of the table, you do nothing. This isn\u2019t how these things work.<\/p>\n I just want to be able to fall asleep when I close my eyes. I want all this to be a nightmare and when I wake up, I\u2019ll wake up in a world where you love me back. I\u2019ll wake up in a world where I\u2019m not in love with the most selfish man in this world, I\u2019ll wake up in a world in which my efforts will be seen, where I\u2019ll be cherished and put first for a change. But I know I\u2019m wide awake. I know that I need to stop dreaming that you\u2019ll change and that my love will make you want to be a better man. You are who you are. That ship had sailed a long time ago.<\/p>\n You know, after a few days (perhaps even weeks) of radio silence and me ignoring my friend\u2019s calls and messages, she showed up at my door and almost crushed it by banging on it. When I finally opened it, she asked me just one question: How long are you going to do this to yourself?<\/p>\n Una simple pregunta y s\u00e9 que hab\u00eda muchas otras preguntas ocultas en ella. How long will I keep putting others first? How long will I keep falling for people I know I shouldn\u2019t? How long will I keep treating others better than I treat myself? How long will I continue giving everything when I know I am not gonna get anything in return? How long will I let others keep breaking me over and over again?<\/em><\/p>\n She said: \u201cYou can\u2019t keep pouring from an empty cup. Take care of yourself first.\u201d And so I say enough is enough.<\/p>\n I\u2019m done. I can\u2019t do this anymore. I can\u2019t keep giving my life and my best days to people who don\u2019t appreciate it.<\/strong><\/p>\n Te di m\u00e1s de lo que merec\u00edas<\/a> and even that couldn\u2019t make you feel grateful. Even that couldn’t make you want to be a better man. You don\u2019t do good things, you\u2019re addicted to pain and I\u2019m finally ready to throw in the towel. The time has come for me to turn the tables and be selfish for a change.<\/p>\n Ha llegado el momento de anteponerme a m\u00ed mismo<\/a>. Say what you like but now I know it\u2019s not selfishness, it\u2019s a necessity. I need to cut toxic people and parasites out of my life. I need to stop bending over backward for people who wouldn\u2019t lift a finger for me. I need to stop being there for people who are never there for me. It\u2019s time for me to leave you<\/a> para hacer frente a su propio l\u00edo y salvarme a m\u00ed mismo.<\/p>\n Someone will do for me as much as I did for you. Someone will love me so unconditionally and so effortlessly like I loved you. Someone will appreciate everything I do for him. It\u2019s time to admit that someone is not you and that I\u2019ve just been wasting my time with you.<\/p>\n From now on, I\u2019m done chasing love. I\u2019m determined to love myself when you\u2019re obviously not willing to do that. It\u2019s time to admit you aren\u2019t ready to take my hand, it\u2019s time to put my hands in my pockets and continue walking on my own. It\u2019s time to put myself first and stop feeling guilty for doing what\u2019s best for me. And the best thing I can do now is walk away from you.<\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" How could you not see how hard I was trying for you? How could you stay indifferent to the things I did for you? How could you put me last when all I did was put you first? How could you not see you were all that I wanted? 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