{"id":18982,"date":"2018-05-21T12:23:03","date_gmt":"2018-05-21T12:23:03","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/herway.net\/?p=18982"},"modified":"2021-08-12T08:26:56","modified_gmt":"2021-08-12T08:26:56","slug":"esta-vacio-por-dentro-por-eso-es-incapaz-de-amar","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/esta-vacio-por-dentro-por-eso-es-incapaz-de-amar\/","title":{"rendered":"Est\u00e1 vac\u00edo por dentro, por eso es incapaz de amar"},"content":{"rendered":"

Las apariencias enga\u00f1an<\/span>\u2014<\/span>he taught me that, all too well. I never imagined who he really was underneath that perfect exterior he so skillfully created. I could never have guessed that he couldn’t love me because he had nothing left to give, he was completely empty on the inside.<\/span><\/p>\n

I couldn’t resist him. There was something that drew me to him, something that just seemed familiar. It made me feel safe. His behavior, his sweet talk, and his smooth ways made my walls tumble down. I trusted him. I fell in love with him in a split second, without fear or doubt, without thinking too much. I just followed my feelings, completely unaware of what lay ahead. <\/span><\/p>\n

Por mi vida, nunca hubiera imaginado que alguien pudiera ser tan fr\u00edo y calculador. Pero ahora s\u00e9 que nunca tuvo intenci\u00f3n de quedarse. Lo ten\u00eda todo planeado, estoy segura. Tengo la sensaci\u00f3n de que lo hab\u00eda hecho un mill\u00f3n de veces antes, as\u00ed que conoc\u00eda bien su plan de juego. Se estaba protegiendo del amor y haci\u00e9ndome da\u00f1o en el proceso. <\/span><\/p>\n

Sab\u00eda qu\u00e9 decir y cu\u00e1ndo decirlo.<\/b> Sab\u00eda darme lo justo. S\u00f3lo lo suficiente de s\u00ed mismo y de sus emociones para que yo me aferrara a \u00e9l y lo deseara m\u00e1s, y nunca lo suficiente para sentir que era completamente m\u00edo. <\/span><\/p>\n

Sab\u00eda estar tan cerca y tan lejos al mismo tiempo. <\/b>He made a plan and he executed it. He lured me in by making our beginning so incredibly beautiful. And when he saw that my feelings were growing, that I was already attached, that\u2019s when the other part of the plan started. <\/span><\/p>\n

Todo cambi\u00f3 gradualmente. <\/b>He started changing the little things in our relationship. For example, texts became less frequent. He would text me, I would text back and then I wouldn\u2019t hear from him for hours. He had a lot of similar texting games, and as easy as it had been to talk to and text with him in the beginning, now it had become frustrating and difficult. <\/span><\/p>\n

Casi nunca ten\u00eda tiempo para m\u00ed. Todo era m\u00e1s importante y yo siempre ocupaba el \u00faltimo lugar. Cuando por fin encontraba tiempo para m\u00ed, me ten\u00eda tan cerca y era tan cari\u00f1oso que me enamoraba a\u00fan m\u00e1s de \u00e9l. Era casi como si me compensara por todo el tiempo del que me hab\u00eda privado. <\/span><\/p>\n

Y en cuanto sal\u00eda por la puerta, todo volv\u00eda a empezar. Se distanciar\u00eda de nuevo. <\/b>Luego me serv\u00eda migajas de su atenci\u00f3n y afecto s\u00f3lo para que yo tuviera algo a lo que aferrarme. Me atra\u00eda cuando ve\u00eda que las cosas se estaban volviendo demasiado dif\u00edciles de manejar, y luego se exced\u00eda cuando yo me alejaba. Me lo hizo una y otra vez hasta que se fue sin siquiera despedirse. <\/span><\/p>\n

That lack of goodbye hurt more than anything because I couldn’t see all that was flawed in our relationship. <\/b>Todos los problemas que tuvimos nunca parecieron irresolubles. Yo segu\u00eda esperando, d\u00e1ndole todo el tiempo, el espacio y la comprensi\u00f3n que quer\u00eda. Su marcha fue totalmente inesperada. Me culp\u00e9 a m\u00ed misma. <\/span><\/p>\n

I couldn’t see how much damage he had left because I kept sugar-coating everything.<\/b> Segu\u00eda aferr\u00e1ndome a esta imagen perfecta de \u00e9l que no ten\u00eda ninguna conexi\u00f3n con la realidad. Esperaba que volviera. Pero nunca lo hizo. Debi\u00f3 pasar a su siguiente conquista. Har\u00e1 lo que siempre hace.<\/span>\u2014<\/span>har\u00e1 que alguien se enamore de \u00e9l sin ninguna intenci\u00f3n de corresponderle. <\/span><\/p>\n

Only after he was no longer a part of my life, after I\u2019d had a chance to think and unwillingly overanalyze every aspect of our relationship, did everything start to make sense. <\/span>Me habl\u00f3 de ella, de su ex, de la que le destruy\u00f3.<\/b> Estaba tan roto que nunca lleg\u00f3 a arreglarse. S\u00f3lo lo dej\u00f3 entumecido y vac\u00edo.  <\/span><\/p>\n

That\u2019s why he put those titanium walls up, got his game on and put an indestructible shield in front of him to protect him from potential hurt. It saved him the hurt but it never allowed him to be happy or to love again either.  <\/span><\/p>\n

Para \u00e9l era m\u00e1s f\u00e1cil hacerme da\u00f1o y pasar a la siguiente chica que abrirse de verdad a m\u00ed y dejarme entrar. <\/b>He felt safe and in control knowing that I cared more and that I couldn\u2019t hurt him. I guess he decided it was time to go when he started caring more for me too. I am not saying this to justify what he did to me. I was also broken and I didn\u2019t go around destroying other people. <\/span><\/p>\n

Al final, s\u00f3lo siento pena por \u00e9l. Se volvi\u00f3 tan bueno esquivando el dolor que tambi\u00e9n esquiv\u00f3 el amor.<\/b> Debe ser triste ser \u00e9l. Sabe que algo terminar\u00e1 incluso antes de que empiece. Planea una ruta de escape cada vez que empieza una relaci\u00f3n. Huye de sus sentimientos para encubrir el hecho de que sigue tan incre\u00edblemente roto.  <\/span><\/p>\n

He never healed and now he is walking around with this numbness and emptiness inside of him that doesn\u2019t allow him to truly feel anything again. He doesn\u2019t allow anybody in because the stakes are too high, the pain is too great. <\/span>But there is still one thing I don’t get<\/i><\/b>\u2014<\/i><\/b>\u201cHow could he hurt me, knowing exactly how it would make me feel?\u201d <\/i><\/b><\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Looks can be deceiving\u2014he taught me that, all too well. I never imagined who he really was underneath that perfect exterior he so skillfully created. I could never have guessed that he couldn’t love me because he had nothing left to give, he was completely empty on the inside. I couldn’t resist him. There was…<\/p>","protected":false},"author":42,"featured_media":18983,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29646],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-18982","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-understanding-men"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29646,"label":"understanding men"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/05\/black-and-white-emotion-looking-59196.jpg",800,558,false],"author_info":{"display_name":"Selma June","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/author\/selmajune\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29646,"name":"understanding men","slug":"understanding-men","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29646,"taxonomy":"category","description":"Wondering about what's going on inside his head? Or do you need explanations for his actions? Learn to understand men, and your life will become easier.","parent":29643,"count":570,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29646,"category_count":570,"category_description":"Wondering about what's going on inside his head? Or do you need explanations for his actions? Learn to understand men, and your life will become easier.","cat_name":"understanding men","category_nicename":"understanding-men","category_parent":29643}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18982","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/42"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=18982"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18982\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/18983"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=18982"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=18982"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=18982"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}