{"id":19139,"date":"2019-09-28T07:45:02","date_gmt":"2019-09-28T07:45:02","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/herway.net\/?p=19139"},"modified":"2022-01-19T15:08:26","modified_gmt":"2022-01-19T15:08:26","slug":"despues-de-ti-el-infierno-deberia-ser-facil","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/despues-de-ti-el-infierno-deberia-ser-facil\/","title":{"rendered":"Despu\u00e9s de ti, el infierno deber\u00eda ser f\u00e1cil"},"content":{"rendered":"

Durante demasiado tiempo, me avergonc\u00e9 de las cosas que dej\u00e9 que me hicieras. Durante demasiado tiempo, me avergonc\u00e9 de haber estado tan ciega ante tus enga\u00f1os, de haber estado tan ciega ante todas tus manipulaciones y juegos<\/a> jugaste conmigo y con mi mente, hasta el punto en que<\/p>\n

Ya no sab\u00eda cu\u00e1l era la verdad real y cu\u00e1l era TU verdad.<\/p>\n

But not anymore. Because it\u2019s not my fault I loved you. It\u2019s not my fault I trusted you. That\u2019s the way I am and that\u2019s probably why you choose me.<\/p>\n

And that\u2019s probably why you knew I\u2019ll be silent about all the things that happened behind our closed door.<\/p>\n

Pero no m\u00e1s.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Me niego a seguir barriendo la suciedad bajo la alfombra. Me niego a seguir ocultando mi dolor tras la sonrisa.<\/p>\n

Me niego a seguir dici\u00e9ndole a todo el mundo que terminamos porque las cosas simplemente nunca funcionaron.<\/p>\n

Terminamos porque eres un gilipollas que s\u00f3lo buscaba un poco de diversi\u00f3n.<\/p>\n

Y qu\u00e9 divertido fue eso. Mis l\u00e1grimas, el dolor y la mirada perdida cuando me hiciste cuestionar mi cordura. <\/strong><\/p>\n

Mis inseguridades que me ahogaban cada vez m\u00e1s hasta que olvid\u00e9 por completo todas las cosas que amaba de m\u00ed misma.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Olvid\u00e9 lo gracioso que puedo ser porque contigo ya no me re\u00eda. Olvid\u00e9 lo inteligente que soy porque tus palabras t\u00f3xicas me hac\u00edan sentir la persona m\u00e1s est\u00fapida del mundo.<\/p>\n

Cada vez que lograba algo, lo menospreciabas. Te burlabas de ello. Te burlabas de m\u00ed.<\/p>\n

Every time I busted my ass off for something, you assured me that you could\u2019ve done it with one finger.<\/p>\n

Durante demasiado tiempo, me avergonzaba admitir que segu\u00eda con alguien tan t\u00f3xico.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Durante demasiado tiempo, me avergonz\u00f3 admitir que me hab\u00eda quedado voluntariamente con alguien tan abusivo.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Pero no m\u00e1s.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Porque cari\u00f1o, despu\u00e9s de ti, el infierno parece tan f\u00e1cil. El infierno parece un campo de flores donde cantan los p\u00e1jaros y sopla una brisa agradable.<\/p>\n

El infierno parece un sue\u00f1o hecho realidad, despu\u00e9s de la pesadilla que viv\u00ed contigo<\/a>. Al menos, cuando est\u00e1s en el infierno sabes lo que hiciste. Sabes la raz\u00f3n por la que est\u00e1s all\u00ed.<\/p>\n

Pero nunca supe qu\u00e9 hice para que me trataras como lo has hecho. Te di todo lo que ten\u00eda. Te di mi coraz\u00f3n, mi alma, mi mente y mi cuerpo.<\/p>\n

You had it all, but it wasn\u2019t enough for you. You weren\u2019t happy until you destroyed every single piece of me. You weren\u2019t happy until you broke me to the point where I couldn\u2019t even breathe in.<\/p>\n

I was silently crying, trying to catch my breath, trying to make you see that I\u2019m the one who loves you. Trying to make you see that I\u2019m better than her.<\/p>\n

But this was never about me or her. This was simply about you finding a new victim for your twisted games. This was simply about you doing what you do best \u2013 fucking people up.<\/p>\n

Durante demasiado tiempo, me avergonc\u00e9 de decir la verdad a mis amigos.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Durante demasiado tiempo, me avergonc\u00e9 de decirme la verdad a m\u00ed misma.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Now\u2026 it\u2019s just a distant echo of old pain and embarrassment. There are still flashbacks of the nightmare I lived with you\u2014all the worst ones, of course. You never spared yourself when it came to rompi\u00e9ndome<\/a>.<\/p>\n

La primera vez que dej\u00e9 que alguien se acercara, temblaba. La primera vez que intent\u00f3 abrazarme, me estremec\u00ed.<\/p>\n

Me estremec\u00ed, pensando que me pegar\u00eda. Pensando que me har\u00eda lo mismo que t\u00fa.<\/p>\n

Y en ese momento, cuando vi la expresi\u00f3n de quebranto en su rostro, me di cuenta de que a\u00fan eres demasiado fuerte en mi mente para seguir adelante. Me di cuenta de que necesito borrarte por completo si quiero seguir adelante.<\/p>\n

As\u00ed que hice una lista de cada cosa que me hiciste. Cada vez que me humillaste. Cada vez que me hiciste sentir menos digna y cada vez que me quitaste una parte de mi valor.<\/p>\n

Every time your words made me cry and now, once again they did the same. And lastly, every time your action caused pain so strong that I couldn\u2019t breathe in. Pain so strong that it shook me to my core. And it did once again.<\/p>\n

Quem\u00e9 la lista. Quem\u00e9 el pasado. Y quem\u00e9 tu recuerdo.<\/strong><\/p>\n

And as much as it sounds clich\u00e9, I rose out of that fire like a phoenix. <\/strong><\/p>\n

Brighter and stronger than ever. And more ready to conquer the world, since I\u2019ve already conquered hell.<\/strong><\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

For too long, I was ashamed of things I let you do to me. For too long, I was ashamed that I was so blind to you cheating around, that I was so blind to all of your manipulations and games you played with me and with my mind, until the point where I no…<\/p>","protected":false},"author":40,"featured_media":19140,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29619],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-19139","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-stories-love"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29619,"label":"stories"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/05\/caleb-george-144975-unsplash.jpg",800,521,false],"author_info":{"display_name":"Tara Brown","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/author\/tara-brown\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29619,"name":"stories","slug":"stories-love","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29619,"taxonomy":"category","description":"To all the souls struggling with complicated love experiences: These heartfelt stories about love, heartbreak, and moving on will be your voice of wisdom.","parent":38,"count":424,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29619,"category_count":424,"category_description":"To all the souls struggling with complicated love experiences: These heartfelt stories about love, heartbreak, and moving on will be your voice of wisdom.","cat_name":"stories","category_nicename":"stories-love","category_parent":38}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/19139","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/40"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=19139"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/19139\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/19140"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=19139"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=19139"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=19139"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}