It\u2019s completely normal to feel like you have just been hit by a ton of bricks. Whether you didn\u2019t see it coming, or you felt it approaching, it will still never soften the blow. Right now, it makes you sick to even think about another day without him a part of it. You will be mentally and physically sick. In the lyrics of a song by our favorite female country artist, Reba, she states, \u2018I\u2019m pretty sure it\u2019s not the end of the world tonight, even though deep down in my soul it feels like it might, I\u2019m pretty sure I\u2019ll wake up tomorrow still breaking inside and I\u2019ll go on missing you, I\u2019ll go on wanting you, I\u2019ll go on with or without you, I\u2019ll go on\u2019.<\/p>\n
It\u2019s not just tomorrow that you will wake up breaking inside. But as you go on, the pain subsides. You\u2019re always going to love him no matter how much he hurt you so don\u2019t waste your time fighting to not love him anymore. You\u2019re always going to carry a piece of him with you wherever life takes you. And you can\u2019t be mad about that. Each person our heart decides is special enough to let in, they leave something with us that changes who we are forever. They have a purpose.<\/p>\n
Whether he walked away or you walked away, the heartache doesn\u2019t change. It still hurts just the same. You\u2019re not going to want to get out of bed. Facing a world without him in it just doesn\u2019t seem right so you stay in bed. You still snuggle the blanket he gave you for Christmas just to still smell his cologne. You look through pictures of you and him on your phone and you grieve to just have that all back. You would do just about anything to go back to that moment in time. It\u2019s an awful experience. But I will tell you this, it will either make you or break you.<\/p>\n
If there\u2019s one piece of advice I can give you, it\u2019s even if it does break you, you\u2019re still fixable. I let it break me only because I believed every voice in my head that convinced me I wasn\u2019t enough. I did that to myself. I have no one to blame for that break but myself. Please don\u2019t do that to yourself. There is not a single man out there worth losing yourself over. Stay strong! You were always enough. Maybe too much and that\u2019s okay. He\u2019s not meant for your love. I was the one to leave and I still somehow convinced myself I wasn\u2019t enough for him. That\u2019s how controlling the voices in your head can get. Did you know that the absence of hope alone is what causes people to believe in the voices? If you have no hope for a future without him, no hope in who you are as a woman without him, then you\u2019re going to break. Choose hope! Hope is what has saved lives.<\/p>\n