I feel emotionally, mentally and even spiritually disemboweled. It is far more than simple heartbreak. Somewhere in that relationship I lost myself. I lost myself to someone who didn\u2019t give two shits about me. Now, I\u2019m dealing with the pain of a relationship gone bad and trying to discover myself all over again.<\/p>\n
Esto es m\u00e1s que una simple angustia<\/strong>. It\u2019s much worse. It\u2019s a disease you try to cure but somehow always comes back to haunt you. It\u2019s a scar that no cosmetic placed over your heart can cover. The damages are there, just below the surface barely visible, but there.<\/p>\n To be honest, I have no idea how in the hell this all happened. I assumed after the year of us dating, you were someone whom I could trust\u2014after all I loved you.<\/p>\n Supuse que eras alguien que de verdad se preocupaba por mi bienestar. No ten\u00eda ni idea de que tomar\u00edas mis miedos y mayores preocupaciones y los usar\u00edas para picar, ya que constantemente tirabas de esos detonantes para conseguir lo que quer\u00edas. Utilizaste mi mayor miedo, que era la comida, para controlar lo que entraba y sal\u00eda de mi boca. Casi me hicieron una transfusi\u00f3n de sangre porque permit\u00ed que me hicieras sentir culpable por comer una hamburguesa en lugar de una ensalada.<\/p>\n Te permit\u00ed usar mi miedo, tomarlo y darle forma, en una calamidad.<\/strong> What\u2019s worse is that I never understood what was wrong with me in the first place. And what was even worse, was the tears that fell from my face were silently done.<\/p>\n Silenciosamente hecho donde nadie pod\u00eda ver. Silenciosamente hecho porque me negu\u00e9 a creer que eras la persona que realmente eras.<\/p>\n What’s even more heartbreaking is that friends and family suspected what was going on, and while they were ready to defend me by packing up my belongings, I was always ready trying to defend you. Defend you because I loved you and defend you because I thought there was an ounce of tenderness left in your heart.<\/p>\n Por desgracia, estaba terriblemente equivocado, y Por desgracia, no hay ninguna gu\u00eda sobre c\u00f3mo superar el da\u00f1o que me hiciste pasar.<\/strong> The only thing that seems to ease my pain is crying and I\u2019m not ashamed to mention that either. The only thing I can tell you is I wish I had listened to myself more and gotten out of this toxicity sooner.<\/p>\n Entiendo que tengo una gran monta\u00f1a que escalar para superar esto. I understand that in this journey of self-discovery a part of me will have to die\u2014like <\/strong>un c\u00e1ncer needs to die in order for the body\u2019s survival. I understand that it’s only for the better.<\/strong> Entiendo que es una cuesti\u00f3n de tiempo y entiendo que el nuevo yo ser\u00e1 mucho m\u00e1s fuerte<\/a> que el antiguo yo. There are many horrors in the world in which we live. Never in my wildest dreams did I think you would be classified as such. You see, the trauma you caused has impacted my life in many ways. The shadow you cast has caused some strange and painful illness that is silently killing me. 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