{"id":21488,"date":"2018-08-02T07:38:08","date_gmt":"2018-08-02T07:38:08","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/herway.net\/?p=21488"},"modified":"2021-08-12T06:55:17","modified_gmt":"2021-08-12T06:55:17","slug":"una-carta-abierta-a-mi-depresion","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/una-carta-abierta-a-mi-depresion\/","title":{"rendered":"Carta abierta a mi depresi\u00f3n"},"content":{"rendered":"

\u00a1Hola, Depresi\u00f3n!<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n

Quiero que sepas que escribo por muchas razones. Quiero ponerlo todo por escrito para ser consciente de que tengo una enfermedad real y que probablemente formar\u00e1 parte de m\u00ed el resto de mi vida.<\/p>\n

I am also writing this letter for all those people who keep asking me what is wrong with me and why I don\u2019t look okay. I just want to tell them that they should mind their own business and to get the fuck off of me.<\/p>\n

Y, sobre todo, escribo esta carta para conocerte mejor.<\/strong> <\/em>Porque, aunque formes parte de mi vida desde hace mucho tiempo, nunca te he hablado directamente. Pero ya va siendo hora, \u00bfno?<\/p>\n

It is time to accept you as an equal because even if I don\u2019t think so, you run my mind and at the moment, I can\u2019t do anything about that. You are always there, and even if I think that you have gone for a couple of days, I can\u2019t totally relax, knowing that you are waiting just around the corner to attack me again.<\/p>\n

But you never come alone. You have your best friend always coming with you. She is similar to you, but she still makes me feel different. She makes my brain work overtime, like it is my last day on this planet and like something bad will happen to me if I don\u2019t organize my life. Her name is ansiedad<\/a>.<\/p>\n

So, anxiety, if you are reading this letter, I want you to know that there are a couple of lines in this letter for you as well, since I don\u2019t want you to feel neglected. <\/strong><\/em>Al fin y al cabo, t\u00fa tambi\u00e9n formas parte de mi vida y yo tambi\u00e9n tengo que empezar a conocerte.<\/p>\n

You and depression are a perfect duo that makes my every day a living hell. First, you make me all nervous about the smallest things in my life, and then when you convince me that everything will be bad, depression comes and says that I shouldn\u2019t even bother getting out of bed because I am incapable of doing anything right.<\/p>\n

It tells me that I am not worthy, that I am not enough and that all the other people are way better than me. It also tells me that I am the unlovable one and that people spend time with me only because of their interests. It keeps telling me that I don\u2019t possess any values and that others can handle many tasks better than me.<\/p>\n

Y al final del d\u00eda, despu\u00e9s de luchar como un le\u00f3n durante toda la jornada, soy incapaz de pensar con claridad.<\/strong> <\/em>Soy incapaz de hablar con normalidad con mis amigos, personas que se merecen todo de m\u00ed pero que s\u00f3lo reciben las migajas de mi mesa.<\/p>\n

But thank God, they know how I feel, so they always tell me to get some rest and that I shouldn\u2019t worry for not spending time with them, even if I said that I would.<\/p>\n

You know depression, you are doing so much harm to me but I don\u2019t know why you even came into my life. Why are you doing all these nasty things to me? Why are you making me lose my mind, and why do you want to see me down?<\/p>\n

Because no matter how much I try to talk to myself, no matter how much I try to rationalize things, I simply can\u2019t.<\/strong> <\/em>I can\u2019t fight you because you are stronger every single time.<\/p>\n

Luckily, I can pretend well that I am okay, even if you keep feeding me with your dark thoughts. People don\u2019t see that my world is actually falling apart while there is a smile on my face.<\/p>\n

Sabes, viviendo tanto tiempo contigo, me convert\u00ed en un perfecto mentiroso<\/a>, and I can convince all the people around me that I am okay, even if I am not. I can convince them that I am having the time of my life, but the harsh truth is that I actually don\u2019t feel any happiness.<\/p>\n

Estoy c\u00f3modamente insensible y en alg\u00fan momento del camino aprend\u00ed a vivir as\u00ed.<\/strong> <\/em>Lo quieras o no, te acept\u00e9 como parte de mi vida, y estoy luchando con ese sentimiento cada d\u00eda.<\/p>\n

As\u00ed que, como te conozco desde hace tanto tiempo, quer\u00eda pedirte un favor. Quer\u00eda pedirte que aflojes un poco, \u00bfquieres? \u00bfPuedes por favor dejarme vivir sin ti un par de d\u00edas? Ser\u00e1 bueno para los dos. Descansar\u00e1s un poco de m\u00ed y Dios sabe que yo descansar\u00e9 de ti.<\/p>\n

Si me dejas un par de d\u00edas, volver\u00e9 a ser la de antes. Me reir\u00e9. Sentir\u00e9 felicidad. Sentir\u00e9 que Soy digno<\/a>y que soy suficiente. La vida volver\u00e1 a ser bella para m\u00ed y podr\u00e9 respirar con los pulmones llenos.<\/p>\n

Entonces, \u00bfqu\u00e9 me dices? \u00bfMe dejar\u00e1s en paz por un tiempo?<\/strong><\/em> I promise I will be good. I promise I won\u2019t forget about you. Life will just be simpler. Life will just be my own, and I won\u2019t share it with anyone.<\/p>\n

Don\u2019t think that I will find another friend because you are my friend for life. So, don\u2019t be afraid to go away because I am not going anywhere. I will be right here and when you wish, you can come back. But when you leave me and when you look at my face from a distance, take a moment and think about me.<\/p>\n

Do you really want to turn off that fire in my eyes and the laugh that makes others laugh as well? Do you really want to see me down, crawled in my bed for days, thinking about suicide because I can\u2019t live any longer like that? Don\u2019t you know that if I die, you will be dead as well?<\/p>\n

Bear in mind that you DON\u2019T exist without me!<\/strong> <\/em>If it weren\u2019t for me, you wouldn\u2019t have anyone to terrorize. So, I am asking you for just a small favor, okay? Since we must live in symbiosis, let\u2019s make it easier for the both of us. If you are about to be a part of my life forever, let\u2019s make this partnership bearable.<\/p>\n

Let\u2019s be amigos<\/a>, okay? Let\u2019s talk. Let\u2019s do everything together. But let\u2019s just separate from each other once in a while. I assure you that we both need that time for ourselves.<\/p>\n

Te aseguro que estoy haciendo lo correcto. S\u00f3lo dame un descanso, para que pueda reiniciar de nuevo. Dame un respiro, para que pueda reunir algo de energ\u00eda para batallas sin sentido contigo.<\/p>\n

Dame un respiro, as\u00ed podr\u00e9 recordarme a m\u00ed misma lo que es ser feliz.<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n

Come on depression, don\u2019t be such a bitch, and let me breathe!<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n

\"Carta<\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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