{"id":21523,"date":"2018-08-02T11:43:11","date_gmt":"2018-08-02T11:43:11","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/herway.net\/?p=21523"},"modified":"2021-08-12T06:54:16","modified_gmt":"2021-08-12T06:54:16","slug":"me-canse-de-que-me-rompiera-el-corazon-asi-que-me-enamore-de-mi-misma","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/me-canse-de-que-me-rompiera-el-corazon-asi-que-me-enamore-de-mi-misma\/","title":{"rendered":"Me cans\u00e9 de que me rompiera el coraz\u00f3n y me enamor\u00e9 de m\u00ed misma"},"content":{"rendered":"

\u00c9rase una vez, me enamor\u00e9 de \u00e9l. \u00c9rase una vez, me entregu\u00e9 por completo a \u00e9l.<\/i><\/b>o the man who couldn\u2019t care less for me<\/i><\/b><\/a>. \u00c9rase una vez, que me rompieron el coraz\u00f3n. <\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

Me golpearon hasta matarme emocionalmente. Era como un cad\u00e1ver viviente, respiraba, com\u00eda, beb\u00eda, pero era incapaz de sentir nada. <\/span><\/p>\n

Estaba completamente adormecida en mi mundo de caos, el que \u00e9l hizo de mi vida, prometi\u00e9ndome un cuento de hadas al principio. Pero todo lo que obtuve fueron l\u00e1grimas, tristeza y agon\u00eda. Me lo merec\u00eda todo, pero al final no consegu\u00ed nada bueno, y \u00e9l es el \u00fanico culpable de ello.<\/span><\/p>\n

He was such a nice guy at first. He took care of me. He protected me, and he was keeping me like I was the apple of his eye. But somewhere along the road, he changed. He transformed into a man I couldn\u2019t recognize anymore. He started picking fights out of nowhere. <\/span><\/p>\n

He always made me feel like I wasn\u2019t good enough for him, like I just got lucky for him choosing me. He made me believe<\/span> Yo era la antip\u00e1tica,<\/span><\/a> the one who doesn\u2019t deserve love and good treatment. <\/span><\/p>\n

He convinced me that the way he was treating me was the right way because I didn\u2019t deserve anything better than that. He made me completely lose myself over him. <\/span><\/p>\n

He always wanted me to make him my priority while he never made me his. And I, blindly in love accepted all of his terms. I accepted them all and didn\u2019t ask what I will get from it. <\/span><\/p>\n

I just obeyed him, thinking that he knows best. I didn\u2019t even use my head to think about that. I didn\u2019t think about the fact that he was using me all that time. <\/span><\/p>\n

Y \u00e9l lo sab\u00eda todo desde el principio, pero nunca lo admiti\u00f3 porque le conven\u00eda. Mantenerme cerca y obligarme a hacer todo lo que quer\u00eda era su objetivo final. <\/span><\/p>\n

S\u00f3lo necesitaba una marioneta que bailara mientras \u00e9l tocaba, y encontr\u00f3 la <\/span>v\u00edctima perfecta<\/span><\/a> en m\u00ed. Hice todo lo que \u00e9l quer\u00eda, pensando que deb\u00eda comportarme as\u00ed porque le quiero. <\/span><\/p>\n

Yo pensaba que estaba haciendo algo bueno por nuestra relaci\u00f3n, pero \u00e9l nunca hizo nada bueno por m\u00ed. Y cada vez que se lo dec\u00eda, cada vez que le dec\u00eda que \u00e9l tambi\u00e9n deber\u00eda intentar mantenerme en la relaci\u00f3n, se limitaba a decirme que yo le necesito m\u00e1s que \u00e9l a m\u00ed y que puedo irme si quiero. <\/span><\/p>\n

Y cr\u00e9eme, sus palabras me dolieron como la espada m\u00e1s afilada, apu\u00f1alando mi coraz\u00f3n una y otra vez. En ese momento, me di cuenta de que en realidad nunca me am\u00f3. S\u00f3lo amaba la idea de que yo estuviera cerca para cumplir todos sus deseos. Siempre me obligaba a quedarme porque me necesitaba. <\/span><\/p>\n

Sin embargo, me necesitaba para malos prop\u00f3sitos. Yo s\u00f3lo era alguien a quien se hab\u00eda acostumbrado. Sab\u00eda qu\u00e9 tipo de caf\u00e9 le gustaba, c\u00f3mo deb\u00eda ser su desayuno y c\u00f3mo quer\u00eda que le lavaran la ropa. <\/span><\/p>\n

Me quer\u00eda cerca porque le era familiar, porque conocer a otra mujer y ense\u00f1arle todas las cosas que yo sab\u00eda ser\u00eda un gran problema. <\/span><\/p>\n

That\u2019s why<\/span> se esforz\u00f3 tanto <\/span><\/a>para mantenerme cerca. Lo hizo manipul\u00e1ndome, minti\u00e9ndome y haci\u00e9ndome luz de gas. \u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

He used all means necessary to keep me close and he managed to do that. It wasn\u2019t so hard since I was madly in love with him. He used my heart and my feelings to get what he wanted, and he succeeded in his plan. <\/span><\/p>\n

He got what he wanted, and I ended up with my heart bleeding. \u00a0He broke my heart so many times. I don\u2019t remember the number of times I forgave him for hurting me, thinking that he will change. <\/span><\/p>\n

Pero sabes, un d\u00eda me cans\u00e9 de todo eso. Me cans\u00e9 de que me menospreciara, de que me mintiera, <\/span>manipul\u00e1ndome<\/span><\/a> y no queri\u00e9ndome en absoluto. As\u00ed que decid\u00ed que ya era hora de renunciar a \u00e9l. <\/span><\/p>\n

You know, giving up on him was the hardest thing I\u2019ve ever had to do but it was the only way to get my old life back. I suffered when I let him go, but I had lived in pain for such a long time, and I simply had to make some change. I needed to feel alive again. <\/span><\/p>\n

I needed to feel worthy and lovable again. And he couldn\u2019t provide me with that. He didn\u2019t know how to love me, so I fell in love with myself instead. I was his prisoner for a long time and I needed to break free from him. <\/span><\/p>\n

And the day I did it, I was born again. I started enjoying things that I enjoyed before I met him, and it was such an amazing feeling. I started going out with my friends, meeting new people and making my dreams come true. I started doing all those things he forbade me while I was in a relationship with him\u2014things that I had missed so much.<\/span><\/p>\n

And most of all, I got the old me back, the person I craved so much but couldn\u2019t get because he had trapped her in his web of lies. But now, all is over! He doesn\u2019t possess me anymore. <\/span><\/p>\n

He doesn\u2019t have the right to come into my life again. And even if he wants it, I would never let him come back. One toxic man was enough for my whole life. The last thing I need is to put up with his shit again and ruin my life. <\/span><\/p>\n

En lugar de eso, eleg\u00ed volver a ser feliz. Eleg\u00ed<\/i><\/b> \u00a1empezar un nuevo cap\u00edtulo de mi vida!<\/i><\/b><\/a> Y, sobre todo, eleg\u00ed enamorarme de m\u00ed misma.<\/i><\/b><\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Once upon a time, I fell in love with him. Once upon a time, I gave all of myself to the man who couldn\u2019t care less for me. Once upon a time, I got my heart broken. I was beaten to an emotional death. I was like a living corpse, breathing, eating, drinking, but being…<\/p>","protected":false},"author":22,"featured_media":21527,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29644],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-21523","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-self-love"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29644,"label":"self-love"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/08\/jordan-whitfield-525164-unsplash.jpg",800,533,false],"author_info":{"display_name":"Tina Navarro","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/author\/tatiana\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29644,"name":"self-love","slug":"self-love","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29644,"taxonomy":"category","description":"Self-love is not an option but a necessity. Boost your self-confidence, learn to love yourself and ditch toxicity because you deserve to be happy.","parent":29643,"count":290,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29644,"category_count":290,"category_description":"Self-love is not an option but a necessity. Boost your self-confidence, learn to love yourself and ditch toxicity because you deserve to be happy.","cat_name":"self-love","category_nicename":"self-love","category_parent":29643}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21523","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/22"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=21523"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21523\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/21527"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=21523"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=21523"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=21523"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}