{"id":21731,"date":"2020-08-08T11:19:45","date_gmt":"2020-08-08T11:19:45","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/herway.net\/?p=21731"},"modified":"2022-01-06T15:54:47","modified_gmt":"2022-01-06T15:54:47","slug":"te-sigo-queriendo-pero-no-puedo-aguantar-mas-este-lio","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/te-sigo-queriendo-pero-no-puedo-aguantar-mas-este-lio\/","title":{"rendered":"Todav\u00eda te quiero, pero no puedo aguantar m\u00e1s este l\u00edo"},"content":{"rendered":"

Nunca pens\u00e9 que estar\u00eda pensando en<\/span> dej\u00e1ndote<\/span><\/a>. <\/span><\/p>\n

But here I am, thinking about leaving you one day and being madly in love with you the next. And in all that mess called our love, I don\u2019t know what the right decision is. <\/span><\/p>\n

I don\u2019t know if I will do the right thing by leaving or by staying. But sometimes, I wish you were far away from me. <\/span><\/p>\n

Sometimes, you bring so much turbulence into my life that I walk on eggshells just to not hurt you. I think twice about the things I tell you, and no matter how much I would love to, I can\u2019t tell you everything about my life. <\/span><\/p>\n

I can\u2019t tell you about other people that make me feel safe and happy. I can\u2019t do that because you would feel neglected. I always put you first, and if I do this now for myself, <\/span>todo se vendr\u00e1 abajo. <\/span><\/a><\/p>\n

It has already started, and I can only imagine what would happen if I don\u2019t make some effort. <\/span><\/p>\n

Sabes, fuiste mi mejor amigo hace tiempo. Podr\u00eda haberte contado todo sobre m\u00ed, y nunca me habr\u00edas juzgado. Pero en alg\u00fan punto del camino, todo cambi\u00f3. <\/span><\/p>\n

Ya no eres la misma persona, y yo tambi\u00e9n he cambiado contigo. <\/span><\/p>\n

\u00bfPero sabes qu\u00e9 es lo peor? Ambos cambiamos para peor. <\/span><\/p>\n

Vamos en una direcci\u00f3n que no es buena para los dos, pero seguimos neg\u00e1ndonos a darnos por vencidos. <\/span><\/p>\n

I hurt you and you hurt me, but we are still together. But I really don\u2019t know if that is the kind of love I want for the rest of my life. <\/span><\/p>\n

I don\u2019t know if I can <\/span>vivir en este l\u00edo nunca m\u00e1s.<\/span>Because no matter how much I am trying, I simply can\u2019t give up on you. <\/span><\/p>\n

And no matter how much I show you my love, you don\u2019t want to accept it for some reason. It is like you don\u2019t trust me when I say that Te quiero<\/a>. <\/span><\/p>\n

Es como si pensaras que miento en todo y que quiero enga\u00f1arte. Pero cari\u00f1o, eso nunca se me pas\u00f3 por la cabeza. Te respeto lo suficiente como para dejar nuestra vida privada como est\u00e1. <\/span><\/p>\n

Lo que tenemos, no importa si es bueno o malo, quiero dejarlo como algo que s\u00f3lo nos pertenece a nosotros. <\/span><\/p>\n

That\u2019s why I never reveal any secrets that we have. That\u2019s why I never tell my friends about all the problems that we go through. I keep it all in my heart, far away from others. <\/span><\/p>\n

I don\u2019t tell people that you offended me and that I suffer because of you. I don\u2019t tell them that my whole world is falling apart because I am losing the love of my life.<\/span><\/p>\n

Me callo y sufro en silencio porque si les cuento que nos estamos desmoronando, nada cambiar\u00eda realmente. <\/span><\/p>\n

Todo ser\u00eda igual. S\u00f3lo que me odiar\u00edas a\u00fan m\u00e1s. S\u00f3lo que el final llegar\u00eda m\u00e1s r\u00e1pido.<\/span><\/p>\n

I want you to know that I live for the days when we don\u2019t fight. I live for the time we spend like we used to, <\/span>acurrucados en nuestra cama<\/span><\/a> y ver pel\u00edculas antiguas. <\/span><\/p>\n

Y entonces siento que todo es como sol\u00eda ser. Todo parece completamente igual. <\/span><\/p>\n

Tu mano en la m\u00eda, mi cabeza en tu pecho y tu olor que me cautiva por completo. <\/span><\/p>\n

Est\u00e1s aqu\u00ed, dici\u00e9ndome que me quieres y que no hay lugar en el que prefieras estar m\u00e1s que en mis brazos. Dices que te encanta tenerme entera y que est\u00e1s celosa de todas esas personas que quieren robarme de ti. <\/span><\/p>\n

Because I am the air in your lungs (as you like to say). I am the only bright spot, and you can\u2019t live without me. <\/span><\/p>\n

Y durante un par de d\u00edas, siento que <\/span>tom\u00f3 la decisi\u00f3n correcta<\/span> en quedarme contigo. <\/span><\/p>\n

Entonces, en un abrir y cerrar de ojos, cambias. Te transformas en una persona con la que pens\u00e9 que nunca vivir\u00eda. <\/span><\/p>\n

You start judging me for the smallest things, and you don\u2019t let me breathe. And again, at those moments, I feel like I should just walk away from you. At those moments, I don\u2019t see an exit. <\/span><\/p>\n

Y que nadie me diga que es una pelea como cualquier otra que ocurre en una relaci\u00f3n. Es mucho m\u00e1s que una simple pelea. Es un lavado de cerebro. Es abuso emocional. Es joder la mente. <\/span><\/p>\n

And at those moments, I hate you for who you have become. I hate that you don\u2019t let out the man I fell in love with. I hate that you became the person you told me you would never become. <\/span><\/p>\n

El que est\u00e1 celoso de mi felicidad, el que quiere que sea su marioneta a la que manipular\u00e1, el que me quiere s\u00f3lo para \u00e9l y el que decide si ser\u00e9 feliz o no. <\/span><\/p>\n

I don\u2019t want that because that is not love, and we are here because of it in the first place. If I have to pretend that I am someone I am not just so you would like me, then I don\u2019t want you because it is obvious that <\/span>no estamos destinados a estar juntos. <\/span><\/a><\/p>\n

Maybe we just idealized love too much. Maybe we had enormous expectations, and now when things are not like we imagined, we don\u2019t feel fulfilled. <\/span><\/p>\n

Pero lo peor es que, aunque las cosas no vayan bien, no est\u00e1s haciendo nada para cambiar esta situaci\u00f3n. <\/span><\/p>\n

Te rendiste demasiado pronto y esperas que las cosas mejoren. Bueno, siento reventar tu burbuja, pero as\u00ed no funcionan las cosas en el amor. <\/span><\/p>\n

El amor es una calle de doble sentido, y si t\u00fa renunciaste a lo que tenemos, es en vano que yo siga intent\u00e1ndolo. <\/span><\/p>\n

La verdad es que me cans\u00e9 de todo y que quiero sentir la paz interior. Quiero volver a ser libre. Quiero amar y ser amada. Y lo que es m\u00e1s importante, quiero volver a ser la de antes. <\/span><\/p>\n

And I don\u2019t even care that you don\u2019t like it.  After giving up on me and on what we have, you have no right to say anything. <\/span><\/p>\n

Deber\u00edas haberte esforzado<\/span>, but unfortunately, you didn\u2019t. <\/span><\/p>\n

Ahora asume las consecuencias y d\u00e9jame vivir mi vida como siempre quise. <\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

D\u00e9jame vivirlo al m\u00e1ximo.<\/i><\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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