{"id":21752,"date":"2018-08-08T12:47:27","date_gmt":"2018-08-08T12:47:27","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/herway.net\/?p=21752"},"modified":"2021-08-12T06:50:47","modified_gmt":"2021-08-12T06:50:47","slug":"sigo-enfadada-conmigo-misma-por-haberte-amado-alguna-vez","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/sigo-enfadada-conmigo-misma-por-haberte-amado-alguna-vez\/","title":{"rendered":"Todav\u00eda Estoy Enfadado Conmigo Mismo Por Haberte Amado Alguna Vez"},"content":{"rendered":"

When I tell people about all the things you\u2019ve done to me, about all the harm you\u2019ve caused and about all the pain you\u2019ve put me through, everyone blames you for everything.<\/span><\/p>\n

Everyone assumes that I am mad at you and that I could never forgive you for the way you\u2019ve treated me.<\/b><\/p>\n

Y as\u00ed es como me sent\u00ed durante un tiempo, desde que finalmente desapareciste de mi vida para siempre.<\/span><\/p>\n

Me consum\u00eda la ira y el odio hacia ti, y pensaba que eras el \u00fanico culpable de todas mis desgracias.<\/span><\/p>\n

Pero despu\u00e9s de alg\u00fan tiempo, todos esos sentimientos desaparecieron. Y pens\u00e9 que por fin hab\u00eda llegado el fin de mi miseria.<\/span><\/p>\n

I was convinced that I had finally gotten rid of all these negative emotions that had haunted and caged me. I thought I\u2019d <\/span>decid\u00ed seguir adelante con mi vida<\/span><\/a>...de la misma manera que t\u00fa.<\/span><\/p>\n

Pero, en realidad, era s\u00f3lo el principio.<\/span><\/p>\n

Yes, the truth is that I\u2019d stopped hating you. I wasn\u2019t angry at you anymore, and I\u2019d even managed to forgive you for everything you did to me.<\/span><\/p>\n

But it didn\u2019t mean my anger and bitterness faded away. Instead, they still remained a huge part of me, and I just rechanneled them.<\/span><\/p>\n

But this time, it was worse than ever. Because this time, I\u2019d become angry at myself. And that is something I still feel and something I don\u2019t know how to overcome.<\/span><\/p>\n

S\u00e9 que todo el mundo te dir\u00e1 que nunca debes guardar rencor, especialmente contra ti mismo.<\/span><\/p>\n

S\u00e9 que debo ver nuestra relaci\u00f3n como una dura lecci\u00f3n y que no conseguir\u00e9 nada si sigo volviendo al pasado y aferr\u00e1ndome a \u00e9l.<\/span><\/p>\n

Pero esta ira, este resentimiento y <\/span>odio a s\u00ed mismo<\/span><\/a> are stronger than everything I\u2019ve ever felt, and it is something I can\u2019t control, as much as I\u2019m trying to.<\/span><\/p>\n

The truth is that I became angry at myself the moment I realized you didn\u2019t force me into doing anything I didn\u2019t want to do.<\/b><\/p>\n

You didn\u2019t force me to be with you, to put up with you, to stay with you or to humiliate myself.<\/b><\/p>\n

S\u00ed, me manipulaste. Jugaste con mi mente y mi coraz\u00f3n. Me chantajeaste emocionalmente.<\/span><\/p>\n

Pero fui yo quien permiti\u00f3 que me hicieras todas esas cosas.<\/span><\/p>\n

Fui yo quien siempre fue consciente del tipo de hombre que eres, y fui yo quien eligi\u00f3 permanecer a tu lado, a pesar de todo.<\/span><\/p>\n

I was the one who was too weak, who didn\u2019t have the strength and the power to confront you and to stand up for myself.<\/span><\/p>\n

I was the one who let you into my life and into my heart and the one who didn\u2019t have the courage to walk away from you and to cut you off for good.<\/b><\/p>\n

And that is the main reason of my anger. That is what I can\u2019t forgive myself.<\/b><\/p>\n

I can\u2019t forgive myself for being a fool for so long and for <\/span>believing that you\u2019d eventually change, <\/b>por mentir y convencerme de que me amabas, cuando claramente nunca lo hiciste.<\/span><\/p>\n

I can\u2019t forgive myself for hoping<\/b> that we\u2019d live a happy life, although there was clearly no room for me to hope, for giving you all those second chances, when you clearly didn\u2019t deserve any.<\/span><\/p>\n

I can\u2019t forgive myself for letting you treat me the way you wanted to<\/b> y por aguantar que abusaras emocionalmente de m\u00ed todos estos a\u00f1os.<\/span><\/p>\n

Por permitir que me disminuyas<\/b> and for letting you act like I\u2019m beneath you.<\/span><\/p>\n

I can\u2019t forgive myself for always putting you first<\/b>, aunque nunca me diste un lugar especial en tu vida, por ser la \u00fanica que se esforz\u00f3 en nuestra relaci\u00f3n.<\/span><\/p>\n

I can\u2019t forgive myself for putting aside all of my deal breakers and life principles<\/b> s\u00f3lo para poder estar contigo, para cambiar y que te gustara m\u00e1s.<\/span><\/p>\n

Pero sobre todo, <\/span>Yo soy<\/b> enfadado por quererte m\u00e1s de lo que me quer\u00eda a m\u00ed mismo<\/b><\/a>.<\/span><\/p>\n

De hecho, estoy enfadada conmigo misma por haberte cuidado y amado como lo hice.<\/b><\/p>\n

Porque nunca mereciste mi amor. Y t\u00fa nunca me mereciste a m\u00ed.<\/span> <\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

When I tell people about all the things you\u2019ve done to me, about all the harm you\u2019ve caused and about all the pain you\u2019ve put me through, everyone blames you for everything. Everyone assumes that I am mad at you and that I could never forgive you for the way you\u2019ve treated me. And this…<\/p>","protected":false},"author":40,"featured_media":21753,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29619],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-21752","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-stories-love"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29619,"label":"stories"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/08\/christian-fregnan-706748-unsplash.jpg",800,534,false],"author_info":{"display_name":"Tara Brown","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/author\/tara-brown\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29619,"name":"stories","slug":"stories-love","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29619,"taxonomy":"category","description":"To all the souls struggling with complicated love experiences: These heartfelt stories about love, heartbreak, and moving on will be your voice of wisdom.","parent":38,"count":424,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29619,"category_count":424,"category_description":"To all the souls struggling with complicated love experiences: These heartfelt stories about love, heartbreak, and moving on will be your voice of wisdom.","cat_name":"stories","category_nicename":"stories-love","category_parent":38}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21752","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/40"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=21752"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21752\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/21753"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=21752"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=21752"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=21752"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}