{"id":21885,"date":"2020-02-15T09:06:32","date_gmt":"2020-02-15T09:06:32","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/herway.net\/?p=21885"},"modified":"2021-08-12T11:43:02","modified_gmt":"2021-08-12T11:43:02","slug":"el-dia-que-me-enamore-de-mi-misma","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/el-dia-que-me-enamore-de-mi-misma\/","title":{"rendered":"El d\u00eda que me enamor\u00e9 de m\u00ed mismo"},"content":{"rendered":"

Siempre fuiste mi prioridad, pero esta vez me eleg\u00ed a m\u00ed misma.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Te lo he dado todo.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Eras el centro de mi mundo. Te di todo lo que pude y mucho m\u00e1s.<\/p>\n

I gave you second chances, I believed in your lies. I wanted us to last, so I trusted you, although I knew I shouldn\u2019t.<\/p>\n

I stood by your side even when things couldn\u2019t get any worse. When any sane person would scream in horror and pain and beg to leave, I stayed.<\/p>\n

Quer\u00eda estar ah\u00ed para ti. Quer\u00eda facilitarte las cosas. Pero nunca fui consciente de que me estaba destruyendo.<\/p>\n

I couldn\u2019t just let you go. There was so much love and time spent to be with you and I couldn\u2019t throw all of that away. I really wanted to fight to make something of us.<\/p>\n

Decid\u00ed soportar el dolor todo el tiempo que pude porque secretamente esperaba que cambiaras.<\/p>\n

I was hoping that you\u2019d see what I was doing and how much I was sacrificing just to be with you.<\/p>\n

I knew that you were a nice guy deep down. But that niceness of yours was so deeply buried that I didn\u2019t see it anymore.<\/p>\n

Maybe you\u2019d chosen to change. Maybe you did it on purpose. Maybe it was easier for you that way.<\/p>\n

Ese d\u00eda, tristemente me di cuenta de que nunca ibas a recuperar tu antiguo yo. Ese d\u00eda me di cuenta de que estaba luchando por nada.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Sab\u00eda que si te dejaba ir y me alejaba, ser\u00eda yo la que se quedar\u00eda con el coraz\u00f3n roto.<\/p>\n

That\u2019s why I tried so badly\u2014because despite the fact that I loved you, I was so scared of getting hurt once again.<\/p>\n

Deep inside, I knew what I was doing for you. I knew I shouldn\u2019t do any of those things but I kept trying to fix what was broken beyond repair.<\/p>\n

Vi c\u00f3mo te comportabas y lo que hac\u00edas y lo justifiqu\u00e9.<\/p>\n

La gente se me acercaba para preguntarme qu\u00e9 te pasaba y por qu\u00e9 te comportabas como un imb\u00e9cil y yo me inventaba excusas, aunque sab\u00eda que ten\u00edan raz\u00f3n. Estabas siendo un idiota.<\/p>\n

I knew that you\u2019d changed completely and that you didn\u2019t treat anyone with any respect, including me, and I stayed despite it all.<\/p>\n

I had so much understanding and no one could figure out why. My friends tried to talk me into leaving you, they were asking me why I put up with all of that and all I had to say every time was: \u201cI love him.\u201d<\/p>\n

I ignored everything around me. I ignored all the warnings because I didn\u2019t want to believe it. I didn\u2019t want to believe that this was happening to me.<\/p>\n

Y cada vez que tuve que elegir, eleg\u00ed amarte a ti antes que a m\u00ed mismo.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Al elegirte, me perd\u00ed a m\u00ed misma. Cambi\u00e9 por ti, actu\u00e9 como t\u00fa quer\u00edas que lo hiciera porque lo \u00fanico que quer\u00eda era tu aprobaci\u00f3n. Todo lo que quer\u00eda era que fueras feliz conmigo y a mi alrededor.<\/p>\n

Pero hiciera lo que hiciera nunca era suficiente. Siempre quer\u00edas que diera un paso m\u00e1s.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Te eleg\u00ed a ti antes que a mis amigos, te eleg\u00ed a ti antes que a mi carrera, cada vez, te eleg\u00ed a ti.<\/p>\n

Despu\u00e9s de alg\u00fan tiempo, eras lo \u00fanico que me quedaba. Por eso, ahora que lo pienso, me qued\u00e9 a tu lado porque tambi\u00e9n ten\u00eda miedo de perderte.<\/p>\n

Perd\u00ed todo lo dem\u00e1s. T\u00fa eras el \u00fanico lugar seguro que conoc\u00eda. Infeliz, pero seguro.<\/p>\n

Me qued\u00e9 contigo en ese capullo seguro que cre\u00e9 y t\u00fa sab\u00edas que me sent\u00eda as\u00ed, as\u00ed que te aprovechaste de ello. Me usaste de la forma m\u00e1s degradante, manipulaste mi mente.<\/p>\n

You could manipulate me because I became frightened and lost, so naturally I listened to the only thing I had left in my life\u2014you.<\/p>\n

Ese d\u00eda me enamor\u00e9 de m\u00ed misma.<\/strong><\/p>\n

I\u2019d given up. I\u2019d left and deleted every memory of you in my life and it was the hardest thing that I ever had to do. I\u2019m not over you and God knows when I will be.<\/p>\n

But there are so many mixed memories in my mind right now. I don\u2019t know whether to love or hate you.<\/p>\n

Me deprimo y me siento sola y pienso en nosotros. Pienso en todos los bellos momentos que pasamos juntos.<\/p>\n

Pienso en nuestros viajes al r\u00edo, en nosotros corriendo bajo la lluvia. Pienso en la vez que me empujaste a la hierba empapada mientras llov\u00eda a c\u00e1ntaros.<\/p>\n

Los dos est\u00e1bamos empapados. Los dos re\u00edamos. Los dos est\u00e1bamos contentos.<\/p>\n

That\u2019s when I fall apart\u2014when I think of the good things. But, then comes the horror. Then my mind takes me on a hell journey through my memories.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Luego pienso en la vez que me arrastraste al suelo porque nos est\u00e1bamos peleando. Pienso en la vez que me pusiste las dos manos alrededor del cuello, con una mirada salvaje y loca en los ojos.<\/p>\n

Entonces recuerdo todas las cosas horribles que hiciste y dijiste. Entonces me enfado.<\/p>\n

I know it\u2019s stupid but even now that I\u2019ve left, I still hope that we will be together.<\/p>\n

I still hope that we will laugh and be happy. I hope that you\u2019ll once again become the man you were.<\/p>\n

I don\u2019t know how long this is going to last. All I know is that it has to stop.<\/p>\n

It\u2019s for the best, I understand that. I chose my destiny the day I left you. I chose to love myself instead of you.<\/strong><\/p>\n

S\u00f3lo necesito encontrar esa raz\u00f3n para volver a quererme.<\/p>\n

Necesito aprender a vivir por mi cuenta y escribir y cantar y pintar y hacer todas las cosas que me gustan. Necesito encarrilar mi vida. Tengo que hacerlo poco a poco.<\/p>\n

I will love myself more each day that I\u2019m not close to you. I just have to be strong enough not to go back to that something I ran away from.<\/p>\n

One day you\u2019re just going to be a memory but now, me leaving is still the day I wish had never happened.<\/p>\n

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You were always my priority but this time I chose myself. I gave you everything. You were the center of my world. I gave you everything I could and way beyond. I gave you second chances, I believed in your lies. I wanted us to last, so I trusted you, although I knew I shouldn\u2019t….<\/p>","protected":false},"author":22,"featured_media":21886,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29644],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-21885","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-self-love"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29644,"label":"self-love"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/08\/artem-bali-776386-unsplash.jpg",800,533,false],"author_info":{"display_name":"Tina Navarro","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/author\/tatiana\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29644,"name":"self-love","slug":"self-love","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29644,"taxonomy":"category","description":"Self-love is not an option but a necessity. Boost your self-confidence, learn to love yourself and ditch toxicity because you deserve to be happy.","parent":29643,"count":290,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29644,"category_count":290,"category_description":"Self-love is not an option but a necessity. Boost your self-confidence, learn to love yourself and ditch toxicity because you deserve to be happy.","cat_name":"self-love","category_nicename":"self-love","category_parent":29643}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21885","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/22"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=21885"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21885\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/21886"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=21885"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=21885"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=21885"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}