{"id":22236,"date":"2018-08-24T11:16:38","date_gmt":"2018-08-24T11:16:38","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/herway.net\/?p=22236"},"modified":"2022-02-26T10:50:07","modified_gmt":"2022-02-26T10:50:07","slug":"mi-vida-esta-vacia-sin-tu-presencia","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/mi-vida-esta-vacia-sin-tu-presencia\/","title":{"rendered":"Mi Vida Est\u00e1 Vac\u00eda Sin Tu Presencia"},"content":{"rendered":"

\u00bfSabes lo que se siente al echar de menos a alguien hasta los huesos?<\/b> Sientes que quieres morir y que cada respiraci\u00f3n te causa un dolor enorme.<\/span><\/p>\n

Y cuando digo dolor, quiero decir dolor de verdad. <\/span><\/p>\n

You feel like there is this big knife stabbing the inside of your stomach and you can\u2019t do anything to make things easier for yourself. <\/span><\/p>\n

Sientes como si alguien te hiriera f\u00edsicamente cada vez que piensas en esa persona.<\/span><\/p>\n

Y piensas en ellos todo el tiempo. Piensas en ellos cada segundo de cada minuto de cada d\u00eda.<\/span><\/p>\n

Esta persona es lo primero que se te pasa por la cabeza nada m\u00e1s despertarte y la \u00faltima imagen que ves cuando est\u00e1s a punto de irte a dormir.<\/span><\/p>\n

And no, time doesn\u2019t make things better for you. Instead, you feel like you miss them more and more with every day that passes without them by your side.<\/span><\/p>\n

Y har\u00edas literalmente cualquier cosa en tu poder s\u00f3lo para <\/span>tenerlos de vuelta<\/span><\/a>. S\u00f3lo para besarlos una vez m\u00e1s o para ver c\u00f3mo te sonr\u00eden.<\/span><\/p>\n

But guess what? I am sure as hell that I miss you but I don\u2019t feel any of these things. Yes, I\u2019ve been through all of this but that period is behind me now.<\/b><\/p>\n

Now I know that the worst is over and I know I won\u2019t die without you in my life. Now I know that I\u2019ve survived you.<\/span><\/p>\n

But the state I am currently in is maybe even more dangerous than this what I\u2019m describing. And it is definitely more permanent.<\/b><\/p>\n

\u00bfRecuerdas lo que m\u00e1s te gustaba de m\u00ed? <\/span><\/p>\n

\u00bfSabes que siempre estaba lleno de emociones? \u00bfC\u00f3mo siempre me dec\u00edas que a veces actuaba como un ni\u00f1o peque\u00f1o?<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00bfRecuerdas c\u00f3mo pod\u00edas ver cada una de mis emociones en mis ojos? <\/span><\/p>\n

\u00bfRecuerdas c\u00f3mo llor\u00e9? \u00bfY tambi\u00e9n c\u00f3mo me re\u00eda? \u00bfC\u00f3mo me enfadaba? \u00bfO tem\u00eda acabar perdi\u00e9ndote?<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00bfRecuerdas que no me costaba expresar lo que sent\u00eda y que era una chica que sab\u00eda abrazar tanto su alegr\u00eda como su tristeza?<\/b><\/p>\n

\u00bfRecuerdas c\u00f3mo disfrutaba de cada bocanada de aire? \u00bfC\u00f3mo esperaba cada nuevo d\u00eda?<\/span><\/p>\n

Will, \u00bfadivina qu\u00e9? I didn\u2019t die when you left me<\/a> pero la chica que sol\u00eda ser s\u00ed. Simplemente dej\u00f3 de existir y t\u00fa la mataste.<\/b><\/p>\n

The truth is that I\u2019ve become completely indifferent ever since you left me and ever since my mourning phase ended.<\/b><\/p>\n

And that\u2019s what I\u2019m trying to tell you\u2014<\/span>I don\u2019t feel sadness for your departure anymore.<\/b><\/p>\n

I don\u2019t cry anymore and I don\u2019t feel like I\u2019m going to burst into tears every time someone mentions you.<\/span><\/p>\n

I don\u2019t feel like my heart is breaking all over again every time I think of you. <\/span><\/p>\n

Simplemente no siento nada.<\/b><\/p>\n

Y alguien podr\u00eda pensar que esto es algo estupendo. Que esto significa que <\/span>Por fin te he superado.<\/span><\/p>\n

But the fact is that I don\u2019t feel anything about anything in my life. All I feel is this huge void and emptiness.<\/b><\/p>\n

Siento que a mi vida le falta color y que se ha vuelto en blanco y negro sin ti en ella. <\/b><\/p>\n

Yes, looking from a brighter perspective, nothing can make me sad anymore. I don\u2019t get hurt as easily.<\/b><\/p>\n

I don\u2019t get surprised when someone disappoints me or abandons me. <\/span>Pero, por otro lado, tampoco nada me hace feliz como antes.<\/b><\/p>\n

I don\u2019t get excited about the little things anymore. I forgot how to enjoy the sunset or the smell of the ocean.<\/span><\/p>\n

Hab\u00eda olvidado lo que es emocionarse por algo que has conseguido. <\/span>Hab\u00eda olvidado lo que se siente al estar orgulloso de uno mismo.<\/b><\/p>\n

Olvid\u00e9 lo que se siente al tener esperanza.<\/b><\/p>\n

The truth is that this saved me from a lot of emotional pain but it has also made me feel like I am a mechanical creature, doing everyday activities and chores without the slightest sign of any emotion\u2014positive or negative.<\/span><\/p>\n

La verdad es que todo esto me ha hecho olvidar c\u00f3mo amar.<\/b><\/p>\n

S\u00ed, me ha ayudado <\/span>dejar de quererte<\/span><\/a>. But it has also made me forget how to love others. And most of all\u2014it has made me forget how to love myself. <\/span><\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

You know how it feels to miss someone to the bones? You feel like you want to die and like every breath you take causes you enormous pain. And when I say pain, I really mean pain. You feel like there is this big knife stabbing the inside of your stomach and you can\u2019t do…<\/p>","protected":false},"author":40,"featured_media":22237,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29619],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-22236","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-stories-love"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29619,"label":"stories"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/08\/anthony-tran-729792-unsplash.jpg",800,533,false],"author_info":{"display_name":"Tara Brown","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/author\/tara-brown\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29619,"name":"stories","slug":"stories-love","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29619,"taxonomy":"category","description":"To all the souls struggling with complicated love experiences: These heartfelt stories about love, heartbreak, and moving on will be your voice of wisdom.","parent":38,"count":424,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29619,"category_count":424,"category_description":"To all the souls struggling with complicated love experiences: These heartfelt stories about love, heartbreak, and moving on will be your voice of wisdom.","cat_name":"stories","category_nicename":"stories-love","category_parent":38}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/22236","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/40"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=22236"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/22236\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/22237"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=22236"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=22236"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=22236"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}