{"id":23220,"date":"2019-11-13T11:47:11","date_gmt":"2019-11-13T11:47:11","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/herway.net\/?p=23220"},"modified":"2021-08-11T08:54:15","modified_gmt":"2021-08-11T08:54:15","slug":"a-mi-padre-toxico-que-deberia-haber-estado-alli","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/a-mi-padre-toxico-que-deberia-haber-estado-alli\/","title":{"rendered":"A mi padre t\u00f3xico que deber\u00eda haber estado all\u00ed"},"content":{"rendered":"

Estoy mirando este t\u00edtulo y no puedo relacionar la palabra \"t\u00f3xico\" con la palabra \"pap\u00e1\".<\/span><\/p>\n

No matter how much I try, I can\u2019t believe that a father can be toxic to his child. But the longer I think about it, the more I start having flashbacks of my childhood. <\/span><\/p>\n

Y en un abrir y cerrar de ojos, puedo sentir c\u00f3mo la ira cautiva todo mi cuerpo. Puedo sentir que empiezo a temblar y que las l\u00e1grimas empiezan a correr por mis cheques. <\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

The reality hits me with an unbelievable truth\u2014I have a<\/i><\/b> \u00a1Padre t\u00f3xico! <\/i><\/b><\/a><\/p>\n

And while I think about it, I see myself trying to run away from that thought. But you can\u2019t run away from reality, right? <\/span><\/p>\n

You can\u2019t run away from something that hurt you so much that even if you are an adult, you still feel the consequences.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00bfVes lo que me has hecho pap\u00e1?<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

Don\u2019t you feel sorry for neglecting me?<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

Don\u2019t you feel sorry for not giving me the love I craved when I was a little girl?<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

Dad, don\u2019t you see that because of you, I am emotionally unavailable for everyone who tries to love me?<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

Don’t you see that you ruined me for every man who comes into my life?<\/span><\/p>\n

Por tu culpa, nunca me sent\u00ed lo suficientemente guapa.<\/i><\/b> Siempre me dec\u00edas que los otros ni\u00f1os eran dulces y monos mientras yo estaba a tu lado con mi vestido rosa de tut\u00fa que me puse s\u00f3lo para gustarte. <\/span><\/p>\n

Y esperaba que me miraras y me dijeras que yo tambi\u00e9n era guapa y que estabas orgulloso de tener una hija as\u00ed.<\/span><\/p>\n

Gracias a ti, nunca sent\u00ed <\/i><\/b>Yo era digno<\/i><\/b><\/a>. <\/i><\/b>Siempre me dec\u00edas que otros ni\u00f1os eran mejores estudiantes que yo y que deb\u00eda esforzarme m\u00e1s para alcanzarlos. <\/span><\/p>\n

You never said you were proud of me for a good grade, but you surely knew how to punish me when I got a bad one, though\u2014like I wasn\u2019t punished enough for not getting your love.<\/span><\/p>\n

Because of you, I couldn\u2019t come home and know I could count on my dad when I got my heart broken for the first time.<\/i><\/b> Nunca quisiste saber nada de lo que pasaba en mi vida. Nunca me preguntaste c\u00f3mo estaba y si ten\u00eda problemas. <\/span><\/p>\n

Nunca fuiste un hombro en el que pudiera llorar, pap\u00e1. Y por eso, nunca te perdonar\u00e9.<\/span><\/p>\n

Because of you, I will never walk down the aisle with my dad. I will probably walk alone or with my husband if I ever find one\u2014since after you showed me what men are like, I simply can\u2019t trust any man anymore. <\/p>\n

Siento que nunca encontrar\u00e9 un hombre que me aprecie y me ame. Simplemente siento que todos ellos me traicionar\u00e1n como t\u00fa lo hiciste.<\/span><\/p>\n

Because of you, my children won\u2019t have nice memories with their grandpa. <\/i><\/b>Maybe they will never meet you since you probably won\u2019t make any effort to get to know them better. <\/span><\/p>\n

And I won\u2019t even try to tell them about you since you are not so important to me anymore.<\/span><\/p>\n

You were never there when I needed you, and now that I am an adult, I don\u2019t want you in my life anymore. So, don\u2019t try to seek me when you realize what you have done.<\/span><\/p>\n

\"A<\/p>\n

That little girl who was crazy about you doesn\u2019t exist anymore. She died the day you didn\u2019t choose her. <\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

Muri\u00f3 el d\u00eda que elegiste el alcohol y otras mujeres antes que a ella. Y no importa lo que hagas, nunca la traer\u00e1s de vuelta.<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

En lugar de ella, hay <\/span>otra mujer <\/span><\/a>who knows what she wants in her life. And one of her wishes surely isn\u2019t a lousy father. <\/span><\/p>\n

\u00bfSabes por qu\u00e9? <\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

Because she deserves a lot more than that. Because she suffered, and now she wants a calm life without worrying about why her father doesn\u2019t love her enough. <\/span><\/p>\n

She doesn\u2019t want to think that she made some mistake and that because of that her father couldn\u2019t love her. <\/span><\/p>\n

She can\u2019t question herself every day about why she wasn\u2019t enough for a man who was supposed to love and protect her. She simply can\u2019t do that anymore. She is tired, tired to the bone. <\/span><\/p>\n

Y ya es hora de que siga adelante. Es hora de que deje ir a un padre t\u00f3xico que nunca estuvo ah\u00ed para ella. <\/span><\/p>\n

Because she can\u2019t continue like this anymore.<\/span><\/p>\n

I know that you will maybe feel sorry for not being with me when I needed you. Maybe, one day, you will be proud of the woman I became, but you will never get an opportunity to tell me that face in face. I don\u2019t want to see you. <\/p>\n

I don\u2019t want to have any contact with you. One toxic man was enough for my entire life, and I just want to get rid of the toxicity you brought into my life.<\/span><\/p>\n

As\u00ed que, pap\u00e1, si est\u00e1s leyendo esta carta, que sepas que te perdono.<\/i><\/b> Probablemente ten\u00edas algunas razones por las que nunca estabas ah\u00ed para m\u00ed. <\/span><\/p>\n

I couldn\u2019t understand them then, and I can\u2019t understand them now. But to be honest, I don\u2019t give a damn about it anymore.<\/span><\/p>\n

This time, I am finally moving on with a clean heart, knowing that your behavior wasn\u2019t my fault. I am moving on surrounded by people who would give their lives for me. <\/span><\/p>\n

Sigo adelante porque la vida sigue, y tengo que vivirla como me merezco. Pero, que sepas que, \u00e9rase una vez, una ni\u00f1a que contaba contigo. <\/span><\/p>\n

\u00c9rase una vez, la traicionaste al no estar ah\u00ed para ella. <\/span><\/p>\n

\u00c9rase una vez, le rompiste el coraz\u00f3n. Y s\u00f3lo espero que seas capaz de vivir con eso.<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

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