{"id":28219,"date":"2018-11-22T12:37:43","date_gmt":"2018-11-22T12:37:43","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/herway.net\/?p=28219"},"modified":"2021-08-11T11:00:46","modified_gmt":"2021-08-11T11:00:46","slug":"no-merecias-morir","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/no-merecias-morir\/","title":{"rendered":"No merec\u00edas morir"},"content":{"rendered":"

Sabes, aunque pienso en ti la mayor parte del tiempo, de alguna manera puedo afrontar la verdad y aceptar que <\/span>te has ido<\/span><\/a>. Me digo que debo ser fuerte porque t\u00fa ya no est\u00e1s aqu\u00ed para ser fuerte por los dos. <\/span><\/p>\n

I even try to understand those people who tell me that God always takes away the best people and that you were just like that. I believe them when they say that you take care of me from heaven and that you would be so proud of me for everything I\u2019ve gone through. <\/span><\/p>\n

But there are days when I can\u2019t accept that you are not here because you have every right to be. So, I get mad. I get frustrated. I get angry. And there are so many bad emotions inside of me that I sometimes think I will explode. <\/span><\/p>\n

Because no matter how much I would love to bring you back, I can\u2019t. <\/i><\/b>And that feeling is eating me alive. It makes my body shiver. It makes a fuss in my mind, so I can\u2019t think straight. It makes different questions keep rising in my head, and I don\u2019t have an answer to any of them. <\/span><\/p>\n

And on those days, I feel so bad that I can\u2019t be strong like you always wanted me to be. I am sorry that I am negative and that I can\u2019t see the light at the end of the tunnel. I am sorry that I am bad company. I am sorry for not being as strong as you were.<\/span><\/p>\n

You know, I am mad because you left all those people who loved you. You just left even if we weren\u2019t ready for that. <\/span><\/p>\n

Don\u2019t you know that there are still faces that need your kisses? Don\u2019t you know that there are still small hands that are waiting to reach around your neck? Don\u2019t you know that I miss you? We all do.<\/i><\/b>Y lo que m\u00e1s me jode es estar en compa\u00f1\u00eda de gente mala que vive su vida perfecta mientras t\u00fa est\u00e1s a dos metros bajo tierra. Y tu hermoso y puro coraz\u00f3n merec\u00eda m\u00e1s que un poco de fr\u00eda suciedad. Merec\u00eda m\u00e1s d\u00edas y a\u00f1os con tus seres queridos. <\/span><\/p>\n

Te merec\u00edas<\/span><\/a> vivir una vida feliz rodeado de tu familia, de tus nietos que saltar\u00e1n alegremente a tu alrededor mientras intentas darles de comer. Merec\u00edas morir mientras dorm\u00edas sabiendo que estaremos bien sin ti. Que sabremos cuidar de nosotros mismos porque t\u00fa nos ense\u00f1aste muy bien a hacerlo. <\/span><\/p>\n

But no. You didn\u2019t wait. You left without even saying goodbye.<\/i><\/b> You left so unexpectedly. And I still can\u2019t believe you are not here. And you have every right to be.<\/span><\/p>\n

I am so mad because life isn\u2019t fair. I am mad because you didn\u2019t deserve to die. I am mad because nothing about your life was fair\u2014and about your death either. <\/span><\/p>\n

It hurts so much that I can\u2019t call you and ask you about your day. I hate that I miss you all the time. I hate that every memory of you makes me cry. And most of all, I hate that you are not here. <\/span><\/p>\n

You are supposed to sit here with me, telling me that I shouldn\u2019t cry but laugh instead. You should be here to tell me that I have to be strong because you always taught me to be like that. <\/span><\/p>\n

Deber\u00edas estar aqu\u00ed, para poder apoyar mi cabeza en tu hombro como sol\u00eda hacer despu\u00e9s de un estresante d\u00eda de trabajo. \u00a1Maldita sea, deber\u00edas estar aqu\u00ed!<\/span><\/p>\n

Y no importa si creo a la gente por un momento cuando dicen que ahora est\u00e1s en un lugar mejor, seguir\u00e9 pensando que todo fue un gran error.<\/p>\n

I will still believe that you shouldn\u2019t have gone. <\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

I will still believe that you didn\u2019t deserve to die.<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

\"No<\/p>\n

Christine es autora de \u2018<\/span><\/span>Mirar fijamente a los ojos de la ansiedad y la depresi\u00f3n<\/span><\/a><\/span>\u2019<\/span>Un libro que cambiar\u00e1 tu forma de combatir la ansiedad y la depresi\u00f3n.<\/span><\/em><\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

You know, even though I think about you most of the time, I can somehow face the truth and accept that you are gone. I tell myself that I should be strong because you are not here anymore to be strong for both of us. I even try to understand those people who tell me…<\/p>","protected":false},"author":40,"featured_media":28237,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29619],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-28219","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-stories-love"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29619,"label":"stories"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/11\/rawpixel-1092930-unsplash.jpg",800,534,false],"author_info":{"display_name":"Tara Brown","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/author\/tara-brown\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29619,"name":"stories","slug":"stories-love","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29619,"taxonomy":"category","description":"To all the souls struggling with complicated love experiences: These heartfelt stories about love, heartbreak, and moving on will be your voice of wisdom.","parent":38,"count":424,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29619,"category_count":424,"category_description":"To all the souls struggling with complicated love experiences: These heartfelt stories about love, heartbreak, and moving on will be your voice of wisdom.","cat_name":"stories","category_nicename":"stories-love","category_parent":38}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/28219","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/40"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=28219"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/28219\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/28237"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=28219"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=28219"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=28219"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}