{"id":28329,"date":"2018-11-23T13:41:57","date_gmt":"2018-11-23T13:41:57","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/herway.net\/?p=28329"},"modified":"2021-08-11T10:59:13","modified_gmt":"2021-08-11T10:59:13","slug":"me-dejaste-solo-solo-para-recordarme-que-nunca-estuviste-realmente-ahi-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/me-dejaste-solo-solo-para-recordarme-que-nunca-estuviste-realmente-ahi-2\/","title":{"rendered":"Me Dejaste Sola S\u00f3lo Para Recordarme Que Nunca Estuviste Realmente Ah\u00ed"},"content":{"rendered":"

Me dejaste solo, solo con recuerdos de tiempos felices, con l\u00e1grimas en la cara y con este dolor que no quiere irse.<\/p>\n

Cuando cierro los ojos, a\u00fan puedo oler tu colonia, puedo sentir tus labios apretados contra los m\u00edos, puedo retroceder a momentos en los que me embargaba la alegr\u00eda.<\/p>\n

It\u2019s like I am an masoquista emocional<\/span><\/a> y sigo haci\u00e9ndome da\u00f1o intencionadamente. Sigo recordando lo bueno, todos los momentos divertidos, tiernos y reconfortantes y sigo olvidando que lo malo alguna vez sucedi\u00f3.<\/p>\n

Sigo olvidando que me dejaste sola antes de alejarte f\u00edsicamente de m\u00ed. La verdad es que incluso cuando estabas a mi lado, me sent\u00eda tan sola.<\/p>\n

Nunca me diste lo que necesitaba, nunca me diste a ti mismo, nunca me diste tu coraz\u00f3n. <\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

\u00bfEstaba pidiendo demasiado? \u00bfTen\u00eda expectativas poco razonables?<\/em><\/p>\n

Todo lo que quer\u00eda eras t\u00fa, tu presencia. Pero s\u00f3lo me diste onzas de atenci\u00f3n. Quer\u00eda que me abrazaras fuerte sin tener que pedirte un abrazo.<\/p>\n

Quer\u00eda que planearas con antelaci\u00f3n y me pidieras que fuera contigo a alg\u00fan sitio y no que te pasaras por mi apartamento y qued\u00e1ramos cuando te viniera bien.<\/p>\n

S\u00f3lo cuando era conveniente. S\u00f3lo cuando estaba de buen humor. S\u00f3lo cuando la situaci\u00f3n le conven\u00eda.<\/p>\n

You never cared for my tears. You never cared about why I was upset or stressed out. You never wanted to know the \u2018difficult\u2019 stuff, you were only there while the sunshiney days lasted. <\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

Incluso entonces, incluso cuando yo era alguien que significaba mucho para ti, me dejaste solo.<\/p>\n

Y me qued\u00e9, a pesar de ello. A pesar de que siempre me falt\u00f3 apoyo y tuve que ser yo quien sostuviera sobre mis hombros toda nuestra relaci\u00f3n.<\/p>\n

I tried. I kept on giving as much as I could and even more than that. I invested everything I had, put my heart and my soul into our relationship and it wasn\u2019t enough.<\/p>\n

I wasn\u2019t enough, or at least you never made me feel that way. You never said aloud that I should change but you did everything in your power to make me feel that way.<\/p>\n

Llenaste mi mente de miedos e inseguridades mientras yo te manten\u00eda en un pedestal. <\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

There was nothing I wouldn\u2019t do for you.<\/p>\n

Respond\u00ed a tu frialdad con calidez y dulzura. Acort\u00e9 la distancia que nos separaba y segu\u00ed acerc\u00e1ndote.<\/p>\n

Quer\u00eda que sintieras mi amor. Quer\u00eda demostrarte que no estabas sola. Que ten\u00edas a alguien que se preocupaba por ti profundamente.<\/p>\n

And you\u2026 as always\u2026 did nothing\u2026<\/p>\n

You didn\u2019t even lift your little finger. I guess you felt entitled to all that I was giving you and you took it for granted. You knew I wouldn\u2019t stop making an effort, no matter how lousy you treated me.<\/p>\n

Maybe you were right, I don\u2019t know, I never did get the chance to find out. All I know is that I thank God every single day because you walked away. <\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

Me dejaste solo y me encontr\u00e9 a m\u00ed mismo.<\/p>\n

Because with you, I was lost. I was a shadow of the person that I used to be. I became somebody who didn\u2019t have her voice anymore, I became someone under your control.<\/p>\n

Descuid\u00e9 a mis amigos, mi familia, mis metas e intereses y me convert\u00ed en codependiente<\/span><\/a>. En lugar de vivir mi vida, viv\u00ed la tuya.<\/p>\n

Hice todo lo que pude para complacerte y hacerte sentir feliz y, en todo eso, olvid\u00e9 que yo tambi\u00e9n merec\u00eda ser feliz.<\/p>\n

Amarte me hizo olvidar que tambi\u00e9n necesito amarme a m\u00ed misma. <\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

Necesitaba que me lo recordaran y supongo que no hab\u00eda otro camino que tocar fondo. Ten\u00eda que romperme para poder volver a levantarme.<\/p>\n

Tuve que reconstruir mi vida desde cero. As\u00ed que empec\u00e9 por las personas que son importantes para m\u00ed y les ped\u00ed perd\u00f3n. Fue culpa m\u00eda por permitir que nos distanci\u00e1ramos. Estaba tan centrada en ti que perd\u00ed de vista la realidad.<\/p>\n

I almost lost the ones who love me unconditionally. I know you don\u2019t know what that means, you never knew how to love that way.<\/p>\n

I\u2019ve changed. But not the way you wanted me to. I still wouldn\u2019t fit your ideals even if I tried. I did it because I felt that inner desire for change. It was time I made myself happy. <\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

You wouldn\u2019t recognize me now. I am fearless now. I finally left that comfort zone that was suffocating me. I travel now. There are a lot of places to see and they are all on my list.<\/p>\n

Ahora corro, todas las ma\u00f1anas antes de ir a trabajar; \u00bfpuedes creerlo? La perezosa de la que siempre te burlabas. Te estoy haciendo sudar a ti y a todo el estr\u00e9s acumulado fuera de mi sistema.<\/p>\n

I even dyed my hair and it\u2019s a bit shorter. I want to look in the mirror and love the woman staring back at me. I know that new hair isn\u2019t everything but it\u2019s a start and I already feel a whole lot better.<\/p>\n

Me concentr\u00e9 en enriquecer mi vida, tom\u00e9 clases de fotograf\u00eda, nado, estoy remodelando mi apartamento y aprend\u00ed a arreglar algunas cosas yo misma. Leo. Veo pel\u00edculas. Hago tiempo para m\u00ed y todos los s\u00e1bados por la noche tambi\u00e9n hago tiempo para mis amigos y los c\u00f3cteles.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m more ambitious now, I am not burdened by you anymore, by your desires or your self-doubts telling me I can\u2019t make it.<\/p>\n

Puedo lograrlo, no importa cu\u00e1ntas veces me caiga; siempre vuelvo a levantarme y eso me hace crecer, me hace m\u00e1s fuerte, me convierte en una mujer de la que me siento orgullosa.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m more independent and more satisfied with life in general. I am finally breathing easy.<\/p>\n

Lo ir\u00f3nico de todo esto es que a veces te echo de menos. No tanto a ti como a esos momentos perfectos que compartimos.<\/p>\n

But I snap out of those fantasies really quickly because they come with a price I\u2019m not willing to pay. They come with the price of my happiness, my inner peace, and my self-love.<\/p>\n

Y no hay nada en este mundo, ni siquiera t\u00fa, por lo que cambiar\u00eda eso.<\/p>\n

\"Me<\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

You left me alone, all alone with just memories of happy times, with tears on my face and with this pain that doesn\u2019t want to leave. When I close my eyes, I can still smell your cologne, I can feel your lips pressed against mine, I can go back to moments when I was overwhelmed…<\/p>","protected":false},"author":40,"featured_media":28332,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29619],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-28329","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-stories-love"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29619,"label":"stories"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/11\/finn-hackshaw-400201-unsplash.jpg",800,533,false],"author_info":{"display_name":"Tara Brown","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/author\/tara-brown\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29619,"name":"stories","slug":"stories-love","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29619,"taxonomy":"category","description":"To all the souls struggling with complicated love experiences: These heartfelt stories about love, heartbreak, and moving on will be your voice of wisdom.","parent":38,"count":424,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29619,"category_count":424,"category_description":"To all the souls struggling with complicated love experiences: These heartfelt stories about love, heartbreak, and moving on will be your voice of wisdom.","cat_name":"stories","category_nicename":"stories-love","category_parent":38}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/28329","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/40"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=28329"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/28329\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/28332"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=28329"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=28329"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=28329"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}