{"id":32584,"date":"2019-02-12T08:53:10","date_gmt":"2019-02-12T08:53:10","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/herway.net\/?p=32584"},"modified":"2021-08-12T10:04:54","modified_gmt":"2021-08-12T10:04:54","slug":"amarte-fue-una-montana-rusa-emocional-de-la-que-necesitaba-salir","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/amarte-fue-una-montana-rusa-emocional-de-la-que-necesitaba-salir\/","title":{"rendered":"Amarte Fue Una Monta\u00f1a Rusa Emocional De La Que Necesitaba Bajar"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>In all the years I loved you, I can\u2019t recall a single day where I had a peace of mind. A single day where my heart didn\u2019t feel like it was about to jump out of my body and my mind going berserk from the emotional instability that had plagued us.<\/p>\n<p>En todos los a\u00f1os que nos amamos, la estabilidad y la seguridad eran lo m\u00e1s alejado de lo que se sent\u00eda al estar atado a ti y a tu amor.<\/p>\n<p>I often asked myself if that was it for me. If that was what love was supposed to be like, because at the time I really didn\u2019t know any better. All I had were the ideas in my head of a romance that would sweep me off my feet and make me feel like I could fly if I wanted to\u2026<\/p>\n<p><b>But reality was nothing like that. It was hard. Real life was something completely different and now I can\u2019t help but wonder\u2026 was it my youth and inexperience that fooled me into thinking we could actually keep going that way or was I just a sucker for love?<\/b><\/p>\n<p>Fuiste mi primer <a href=\"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/love\/2018-taught-me-what-real-love-is-not\/\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\"><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">amor verdadero<\/span><\/a> and you will forever be engraved in my memory. You will forever be one of the crucial pieces of the puzzle I needed to feel whole\u2026 and as volatile as we were, it was real. We were the real deal.<\/p>\n<p>I remember the beginnings of our love story\u2026 I was just a girl with a head full of ideals&#8230; who was so adamant she would find her Mr. Right and live her happily ever after, like it was the simplest thing in the world.<\/p>\n<p>You were a rebel who wasn\u2019t exactly in touch with his emotions but you fell for me, faster than you will ever admit, and our lives became intertwined so quickly and so strongly that it took us both by storm.<\/p>\n<p><b>Ninguno de los dos estaba preparado para lo que vino despu\u00e9s.<\/b><\/p>\n<p>It didn\u2019t take us long to become completely, utterly addicted to each other. You were like the air I had been missing my whole life and meeting you made me finally breathe.<\/p>\n<p>Yo era como una droga para ti. Una droga que deseabas desesperadamente dejar, pero que cuanto m\u00e1s probabas, m\u00e1s te atra\u00eda y m\u00e1s adicto te volv\u00edas.<\/p>\n<p>I don\u2019t know if we were aware of it at the time but we spent an upsetting amount of time with each other. I remember waking up and the first thing on my mind was you. If I went a day without you, it physically hurt\u2026 and I wasn\u2019t strong enough to take it.<\/p>\n<p><b>Necesitaba estar contigo. Necesitaba sentir tu presencia a mi lado para sentirme yo mismo. Eras mi adicci\u00f3n, tanto como yo era la tuya. No exist\u00eda yo sin ti y viceversa.<\/b><\/p>\n<p>I finally realized how seriously disturbing this thing we had was becoming\u2026 and I finally tried to break away, just for a little bit, to feel if the air without you felt the same.<\/p>\n<p>I needed to know if I was able to be myself without feeling your breath next to mine. I knew that the mad love I felt for you was ruining me on the inside. I didn\u2019t want to escape it\u2026 but I knew I needed to.<\/p>\n<p>I know you loved me. I know how much you cared. But what you never realized was how possessive you became. You couldn\u2019t deal with me having a life outside of us. You couldn\u2019t help but accuse me of being unfaithful if I decided to have a few hours to myself.<\/p>\n<p>You loved me\u2026 but it was too much. I tried to show you how unstable we were becoming but you wouldn\u2019t listen. You wanted me all to yourself and the thought of me not being there made you act like the man I didn\u2019t realize you were.<\/p>\n<p>Cuanto m\u00e1s tiempo pasaba, m\u00e1s me daba cuenta de lo equivocados que est\u00e1bamos el uno para el otro.<\/p>\n<p><em>\u00bfSe supon\u00eda que el amor deb\u00eda ser tan inestable y turbulento? \u00bfEra normal ser tan adicto a tu pareja que te olvidas del mundo exterior?<\/em><\/p>\n<p>I didn\u2019t know that loving someone could hurt so profoundly. At times, it was the easiest thing in the world\u2026 and other times, I felt like my soul was on fire and I was about to explode.<\/p>\n<p>I don\u2019t know why you couldn\u2019t let me find myself before being able to see if we were salvageable. I still don\u2019t know if I was the one to blame, with my foolish hopes and dreams, rushing into it like it was about to disappear into thin air&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Sometimes, I catch myself reminiscing about us. I can\u2019t help but wonder, if we had just been a few years older and a little bit wiser, could we have figured it out?<\/p>\n<p><b>Would you still be the man who couldn\u2019t bear letting me out of his sight, always firmly holding onto me, making me feel like nothing existed but us\u2026 or would you be mature enough to realize that we both needed time to breathe individually, before giving it a real shot?<\/b><\/p>\n<p><b>Y \u00bfser\u00eda lo suficientemente inteligente como para no lanzarme a una relaci\u00f3n que estaba condenada desde el principio, simplemente porque esperaba sin pensar que el primer hombre por el que sent\u00ed esa cantidad insana de amor resultar\u00eda ser mi <\/b><a href=\"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/love\/a-la-chica-que-se-enamoro-de-mr-maybe-pensando-que-era-mr-right\/\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\"><b>Sr. Correcto<\/b><\/a><b>?<\/b><\/p>\n<p>Realmente te quise m\u00e1s de lo que cre\u00eda posible. Ojal\u00e1 nos hubi\u00e9ramos conocido en una \u00e9poca en la que ambos fu\u00e9ramos m\u00e1s maduros y estuvi\u00e9ramos m\u00e1s preparados para afrontar un amor tan profundo.<\/p>\n<p>I managed to get off this emotional roller coaster but I will never forget about the ride it took me on. It may have been all kinds of wrong\u2026 but it was as real as it gets.<\/p>\n<p><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"aligncenter wp-image-32591 size-large\" src=\"https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/02\/Ditching-Toxic-People-Out-Of-My-Life-Is-My-Favorite-Self-Care-Method-3-683x1024.jpg\" alt=\"Amarte Fue Una Monta\u00f1a Rusa Emocional De La Que Necesitaba Bajar\" width=\"683\" height=\"1024\" srcset=\"https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/02\/Ditching-Toxic-People-Out-Of-My-Life-Is-My-Favorite-Self-Care-Method-3-683x1024.jpg 683w, https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/02\/Ditching-Toxic-People-Out-Of-My-Life-Is-My-Favorite-Self-Care-Method-3-200x300.jpg 200w, https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/02\/Ditching-Toxic-People-Out-Of-My-Life-Is-My-Favorite-Self-Care-Method-3.jpg 467w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 683px) 100vw, 683px\" \/><\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>In all the years I loved you, I can\u2019t recall a single day where I had a peace of mind. A single day where my heart didn\u2019t feel like it was about to jump out of my body and my mind going berserk from the emotional instability that had plagued us. In all the years&#8230;<\/p>","protected":false},"author":40,"featured_media":32585,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29618],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-32584","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-moving-on"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29618,"label":"moving on"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/02\/alla-biriuchkova-771786-unsplash.jpg",800,535,false],"author_info":{"display_name":"Tara Brown","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/author\/tara-brown\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29618,"name":"moving on","slug":"moving-on","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29618,"taxonomy":"category","description":"When nothing else works - inspiring stories about moving on are bound to help you let go of people and situations you never thought you could live without.\r\n","parent":38,"count":200,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29618,"category_count":200,"category_description":"When nothing else works - inspiring stories about moving on are bound to help you let go of people and situations you never thought you could live without.\r\n","cat_name":"moving on","category_nicename":"moving-on","category_parent":38}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/32584","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/40"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=32584"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/32584\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/32585"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=32584"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=32584"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=32584"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}