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<\/p>\nDios,<\/p>\n
It\u2019s been a while.<\/p>\n
It\u2019s been much longer than I care to admit or that I want to admit. I remember the relationship we used to have. I remember how I trusted you and trusted you to guide me every step of the road I took.<\/p>\n
Siempre tuve fe en ti y esa fe siempre me hizo seguir adelante.<\/p>\n
My mom made us friends and she put in a lot of effort for us to feel close. She told me there isn\u2019t a thing in this world I can\u2019t tell her, but she convinced me that there isn\u2019t a thing I can hide for you.<\/p>\n
As\u00ed que debes saber cu\u00e1nto lamento haberme distanciado de ti.<\/p>\n
As you know, I was always the happiest kid in this world. If something didn\u2019t go in the direction I wanted it, I\u2019d just let it go.<\/p>\n
I didn\u2019t cry and I never got mad because I knew you have something better for me. And it turns out you did. Each and every time after a rain, I got to see the rainbow.<\/p>\n
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And that rainbow was a sign you\u2019re there and that you\u2019re watching my back.<\/p>\n
Suddenly, as I grew up, I stopped being your friend. I stopped confiding in you because it just wasn\u2019t cool anymore.<\/p>\n
Perd\u00ed la esperanza y empec\u00e9 a estar de mal humor y a odiar todo lo que me rodeaba.<\/p>\n
Empec\u00e9 a sentir p\u00e1nico y a aferrarme demasiado a las cosas, temiendo constantemente quedarme sin ellas.<\/p>\n
I forgot that mantra from my young age: If you don\u2019t get what you wanted, it\u2019s because there is something better awaiting you.<\/p>\n
La verdad es que, I\u2019m tired of being scared all the time<\/a>. I\u2019m tired of breaking myself down only because I\u2019m scared of everything, literally everything. I need you to be friends with me again.<\/p>\n Querido Dios, s\u00e9 que fui el m\u00e1s valiente cuando cre\u00ed que te ten\u00eda a mi lado.<\/p>\n I believed there isn\u2019t a thing I can\u2019t live through because I\u2019ve been thrown into many burning fires and I walked out of them unburnt.<\/p>\n I know there is always somebody who\u2019s worse off than me. But in the times of my fear, I tend to forget this.<\/p>\n Sigo temblando cada vez que me veo en una situaci\u00f3n en la que nunca antes hab\u00eda estado. Me asusto por girar accidentalmente en una calle equivocada o por decir algo incorrecto.<\/p>\n Me asusta cometer errores, pero sobre todo me asusta vivir.<\/p>\n I was a challenger, an explorer, a wanderer, and it all got lost when I lost my hope in you. Actually, I didn\u2019t lose hope in you. I remember giving up on you. And I remember exactly when that happened.<\/p>\n I was at an all-time low. I prayed my hardest and I believed you\u2019d get me out of there until I eventually stopped. I stopped praying and I stopped believing in you.<\/p>\n E hice todo lo que le dijiste a la gente que no hiciera. Quer\u00eda que te sintieras como yo me sent\u00ed. Sola. Segu\u00ed viviendo as\u00ed durante a\u00f1os.<\/p>\n I lived thinking I don\u2019t have you by my side anymore. But I was wrong, wasn\u2019t I?<\/p>\n![\"mujer](\"https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/08\/young-woman-sitting-by-the-river.jpg\")
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Lo \u00fanico que tengo son unas cuantas canas en la cabeza de tanto preocuparme.<\/p>\n![\"Una](\"https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/08\/An-Open-Letter-To-God_-Im-Tired-Of-Being-Scared-All-The-Time-pinterest.jpg\")
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