{"id":49590,"date":"2019-12-11T16:13:48","date_gmt":"2019-12-11T16:13:48","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/herway.net\/?p=49590"},"modified":"2022-03-01T23:35:34","modified_gmt":"2022-03-01T23:35:34","slug":"odio-que-siempre-quiera-mandarte-un-mensaje-en-diciembre","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/odio-que-siempre-quiera-mandarte-un-mensaje-en-diciembre\/","title":{"rendered":"Odio que siempre quiera mandarte un mensaje en diciembre"},"content":{"rendered":"

He ca\u00eddo en la depresi\u00f3n navide\u00f1a y no s\u00e9 c\u00f3mo salir de ella.<\/p>\n

Siento que deber\u00edas estar a mi lado, pero no est\u00e1s aqu\u00ed. <\/p>\n

You haven\u2019t been a part of my life for a long long time, and though I am generally fine with all of it, there are days in which I miss you.<\/p>\n

Echo de menos lo nuestro y lo que podr\u00edamos haber sido. <\/p>\n

Echo de menos tenerte cerca.<\/p>\n

Echo de menos que me envuelvas en tu abrazo.<\/p>\n

Echo de menos nuestras charlas y c\u00f3mo me recog\u00edas el pelo detr\u00e1s de la oreja. <\/p>\n

I\u2019m not always this nostalgic.<\/b><\/p>\n

Supongo que hay algo en esta \u00e9poca del a\u00f1o que hace las cosas tan dif\u00edciles. <\/b><\/p>\n

My life paused the moment you left me, but it didn\u2019t stop.<\/b><\/p>\n

In the beginning, I was broken so hard I thought I would never be fixed again. But as time went by, I decided I\u2019m not going to give up on myself. <\/p>\n

\"mujer<\/p>\n

Desde entonces, mi vida ha sido una peque\u00f1a batalla tras otra, pero estoy decidida a ganar la guerra. <\/p>\n

So, I got up every day, went to work, made plans, hung out with my family and friends, got dressed, and showed up where I was supposed to\u2014even when I didn\u2019t feel like it. <\/p>\n

Supongo no me dejaste otra opci\u00f3n<\/a>.<\/p>\n

Era eso o pasarme todo el d\u00eda en la cama, compadeci\u00e9ndome de m\u00ed mismo.<\/p>\n

En mi mente, eso no era una opci\u00f3n, as\u00ed que trabaj\u00e9 en m\u00ed misma y en mi nueva vida sin ti.   <\/p>\n

Estaba destrozada, pero segu\u00ed recogiendo los pedazos y peg\u00e1ndolos de nuevo.<\/p>\n

Ten\u00eda miedo, pero segu\u00eda adelante.<\/p>\n

Estaba muy insegura de m\u00ed misma, pero reconstru\u00ed mi confianza desde cero. <\/p>\n

I kept falling and getting up. I had (and still have) good days and bad days\u2014like estos d\u00edas de diciembre<\/a> cuando te echo de menos m\u00e1s de lo normal.<\/p>\n

Tuve d\u00edas en los que me dieron ganas de rendirme, pero nunca lo hice. <\/p>\n

\"mujer<\/p>\n

Eso fue lo que marc\u00f3 la diferencia: Nunca me di por vencida. <\/b><\/p>\n

A pesar de las luchas, el dolor y las heridas, segu\u00ed adelante y, con cada paso que daba, era m\u00e1s fuerte, independiente, me quer\u00eda a m\u00ed misma y ten\u00eda m\u00e1s confianza en m\u00ed misma. <\/p>\n

You broke my heart, you disarmed me, but you didn\u2019t break my spirit. <\/b><\/p>\n

And though on these days I feel like texting you, I feel like reaching out\u2014I won\u2019t.<\/p>\n

Ahora lo s\u00e9 mejor. Me respeto lo suficiente. <\/p>\n

Odio sentirme as\u00ed. <\/b><\/p>\n

Odio permitir que sigas estando en mis pensamientos, pero s\u00e9 que esto es s\u00f3lo la tristeza de las fiestas y que el sentimiento pasar\u00e1.<\/b><\/p>\n

Merezco a alguien mejor. Merezco ser amada y respetada, y t\u00fa nunca supiste hacerlo.<\/p>\n

Y aunque a veces te hago perfecto en mi mente, la realidad es que estabas lejos de serlo. <\/p>\n

\"mujer<\/p>\n

You see, all those beautiful moments we shared that keep running through my mind can\u2019t make up for the fact that you broke me.<\/p>\n

They can\u2019t undo the damage you have done. <\/p>\n

That\u2019s why I will keep fighting those small battles. <\/b><\/p>\n

Me levantar\u00e9, me vestir\u00e9 y me presentar\u00e9. <\/b><\/p>\n

Seguir\u00e9 trabajando en esta nueva vida de la que ya me siento orgullosa. <\/b><\/p>\n

I will keep going one day at the time because I learned by now that healing takes time; it won\u2019t happen overnight. <\/p>\n

I\u2019m not in a rush. I have time to learn to be fully happy without you.<\/p>\n

Aun as\u00ed, este a\u00f1o solo tengo un deseo de Navidad: Espero que<\/a> el pr\u00f3ximo diciembre.<\/p>\n

I won\u2019t feel the need to text you.<\/p>\n

I hope I won\u2019t miss you. <\/p>\n

\"Odio<\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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