{"id":52641,"date":"2020-02-11T12:37:45","date_gmt":"2020-02-11T12:37:45","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/herway.net\/?p=52641"},"modified":"2022-02-26T22:18:52","modified_gmt":"2022-02-26T22:18:52","slug":"me-quiero-mas","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/me-quiero-mas\/","title":{"rendered":"Perd\u00f3name, pero yo me quiero m\u00e1s"},"content":{"rendered":"

Sol\u00eda creer en los cuentos de hadas mientras crec\u00eda y ve\u00eda todas esas comedias rom\u00e1nticas.<\/p>\n

So\u00f1ar con mi caballero de brillante armadura y que un d\u00eda vendr\u00e1 a salvarme de mi horrible adolescencia. Hoy esto parece ser una r\u00e1faga del pasado.<\/p>\n

Yo sol\u00eda ser una chica tan lista, aunque insegura, que buscaba un chico que colmara mis inseguridades y me hiciera feliz.<\/p>\n

\"chica<\/p>\n

Growing up without a father, it took me years to become aware that I was looking for him in all my men and relationships. I always had a pattern, finding the ones that were not available, just like my daddy wasn’t available for me and my mom.<\/strong><\/p>\n

I met you and that was so typical of me. I broke every textbook rule for you. I saw from the start that you couldn’t show feelings; you couldn’t express yourself verbally, in that way or be a part of an adult conversation.<\/p>\n

Quer\u00eda salvarte para m\u00ed, as\u00ed que te presion\u00e9 durante a\u00f1os para que te convirtieras en lo que yo quer\u00eda de ti. Estaba tan enamorada y tem\u00eda perderte. Fuiste de ese tipo inaccesible desde el primer d\u00eda.<\/p>\n

But my ego and my pattern didn’t allow me to let you go. I should have, but instead I struggled in the battle that was already lost from the start.<\/p>\n

 \"la<\/p>\n

A menudo me pregunto de d\u00f3nde ven\u00eda mi destructividad, por qu\u00e9 no me permit\u00eda ocuparme primero de m\u00ed. En vez de eso, me preocupaba por tus preocupaciones. Arreglaba primero tus problemas. Y en el fondo, sufr\u00eda como nunca en mi vida.<\/p>\n

Today I realize that I was blaming myself for my parents\u2019 broken marriage and for the fact that I take the blame for everything that happened between them.<\/p>\n

S\u00f3lo una ni\u00f1a peque\u00f1a que ten\u00eda que cuidar de su padre, en lugar de que \u00e9l cuidara de su hija.<\/p>\n

Boy, was I in denial, even though deep inside, I knew I was making a mistake with you. But it didn\u2019t seem like one at the beginning. Beginnings are usually the best form of denial.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\"hombre<\/p>\n

At the beginning, you are mad about each other \u2013 well, mostly, you are head over heels for him. Now, let\u2019s go back to the story of romantic comedies from the 90s.<\/p>\n

Years passed and I got so tired of making all the right choices for us. Asking you if you loved me, putting my needs aside because you have to come first in my life. And the funniest part is, you didn\u2019t even ask me to do all that.<\/p>\n

Por suerte, fui lo bastante inteligente como para tomarme mi educaci\u00f3n muy en serio, para impulsar mi carrera y mis conocimientos, para ampliar mis horizontes.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Y esto me trajo aqu\u00ed, donde estoy hoy.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\"mujer<\/p>\n

Con los pies en el suelo y las manos en el aire, intentando alcanzar mi propio pedazo de cielo. Tard\u00e9 a\u00f1os en dejarte, pero a trav\u00e9s de ese proceso he llegado por fin a m\u00ed mismo.<\/p>\n

I have started a new chapter of my life, loving myself more than anything or anyone else. And guess what? I\u2019ve let go of the past too.<\/p>\n

Loving my mom and dad, that was one thing, but holding on to their lives and the past didn\u2019t allow me to grab for my future.<\/p>\n

S\u00f3lo tengo una vida y si Puedo amarme a m\u00ed mismo<\/a> por m\u00ed, entonces no soy capaz de amar a un hombre por s\u00ed mismo.<\/p>\n

I do hope that this will be the next step of my lifelong journey. But I will not hurry to get to him. Like I did with you. I\u2019ve let you go and it was the best decision of my life.<\/p>\n

\"mujer<\/p>\n

I can tell you one more beautiful thing \u2013 I didn\u2019t even suffer. I just gave myself the time to walk on the beach alone, eat chocolate, and read a good book.<\/p>\n

I put my phone away and didn\u2019t wait for your message. I decided that the only person I should wait for is me. And for the first time in my life, being alone felt good.<\/p>\n

En ese momento me di cuenta de que \u00e9l vendr\u00eda a m\u00ed y yo no sentir\u00eda la necesidad de cambiar nada. Ser\u00e1 el \u00fanico para m\u00ed y, por fin, podr\u00e9 ser la \u00fanica para \u00e9l.<\/p>\n

Pero antes, por mucho que tardara en llegar, ten\u00eda que ser la \u00fanica y la adecuada para m\u00ed.<\/p>\n

\"Perd\u00f3name,<\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I used to believe in fairy tales while growing up and watching all those romantic comedies. Dreaming about my knight in shining armor and that one day he will come and save me from my horrible teenage years. Today this seems to be a blast from the past. I used to be such a clever,…<\/p>","protected":false},"author":22,"featured_media":52642,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29644],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-52641","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-self-love"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29644,"label":"self-love"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/02\/forgive-me-but-i-love-me-more.jpg",800,534,false],"author_info":{"display_name":"Tina Navarro","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/author\/tatiana\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29644,"name":"self-love","slug":"self-love","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29644,"taxonomy":"category","description":"Self-love is not an option but a necessity. Boost your self-confidence, learn to love yourself and ditch toxicity because you deserve to be happy.","parent":29643,"count":290,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29644,"category_count":290,"category_description":"Self-love is not an option but a necessity. Boost your self-confidence, learn to love yourself and ditch toxicity because you deserve to be happy.","cat_name":"self-love","category_nicename":"self-love","category_parent":29643}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/52641","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/22"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=52641"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/52641\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/52642"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=52641"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=52641"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=52641"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}