{"id":6094,"date":"2020-07-04T12:03:13","date_gmt":"2020-07-04T12:03:13","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/herway.net\/?p=6094"},"modified":"2021-08-11T09:23:13","modified_gmt":"2021-08-11T09:23:13","slug":"nos-duele-una-muchas-veces","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/nos-duele-una-muchas-veces\/","title":{"rendered":"A todos los que hemos sido heridos demasiadas veces"},"content":{"rendered":"

Estimados todos,<\/p>\n

S\u00e9 que est\u00e1s cansada de ser fuerte y de sentir demasiado. Escribo esto para que sepas que no est\u00e1s solo. Yo sigo ah\u00ed.<\/p>\n

Todas las noches estoy despierta en la cama, intentando acallar mis pensamientos y dormir como una persona normal. Pero parece imposible.<\/p>\n

I can\u2019t stop wondering, \u201cWhy does the same scenario keep repeating in my life so many times?\u201d<\/i><\/b><\/a><\/p>\n

Estoy muy cansada. Cansada de emociones de cualquier tipo. Cansado de que el amor se me escape de las manos. Cansado de que el amor sea algo inalcanzable<\/a>.<\/p>\n

 Entonces, huyo de los sentimientos de cualquier tipo y llego al estado en el que no siento nada.<\/p>\n

There is no happiness, no sadness and no bitterness, just one big empty nothing \u2013 entumecimiento total. <\/i><\/p>\n

Ya he estado antes en esta monta\u00f1a rusa. En el momento en que creo que he encontrado a esa persona especial, veo que al instante siguiente se aleja, muy lejos de m\u00ed.<\/p>\n

Desaparece sin dejar rastro.<\/p>\n

I keep re-examining myself\u2014my past: \u2018 \u00bfSoy yo? \u00bfSoy la raz\u00f3n por la que nadie se queda? <\/i><\/p>\n

Am I the reason why all my relationships seem to lead nowhere?\u2019 <\/i> Actually, it’s not nowhere.<\/p>\n

Me llevan a este gran agujero lleno de dolor y decepci\u00f3n del que me cuesta salir.  <\/p>\n

Luego me enfado conmigo misma por pensar as\u00ed. Soy mejor que eso. No nac\u00ed con esta mentalidad.<\/p>\n

Estoy cansado de nuevo porque cada vez que me levanto, vuelvo a caer en el mismo maldito agujero.<\/p>\n

\"una<\/p>\n

That doesn\u2019t mean I will quit. I will pick myself up and push myself to the surface as many times as it takes cause there\u2019s no other option.<\/p>\n

I don\u2019t want to have other options but up.<\/p>\n

Entonces empiezo a ver las cosas desde la otra perspectiva. Vuelvo a sentirme fuerte. Entonces, hago todo lo que puedo.<\/p>\n

My mood goes back up and I\u2019m full of energy. I could do anything at moments like this.  <\/p>\n

Entonces, pierdo esos momentos. <\/b><\/p>\n

Again, I feel tired. Now I am tired of being tired. But, it\u2019s so tiring to be strong.<\/p>\n

It\u2019s easier to let the pain get the best of you. Again, I feel worthless and depressed.<\/p>\n

Pero me empujo una vez m\u00e1s porque no conozco otro camino. Recojo todos mis pedazos rotos del fondo de ese agujero en el que ca\u00ed y los devuelvo a la superficie.<\/p>\n

Aunque a veces siento que no tengo m\u00e1s fuerzas y me dan ganas de rendirme, encuentro esa fuerza en alg\u00fan lugar muy dentro de m\u00ed y dejo que ella tome las riendas, y lo consigo.<\/p>\n

Lo consigo y me siento orgullosa de m\u00ed misma por haberlo logrado. Soy m\u00e1s fuerte que todo esto aunque dude de m\u00ed misma, aunque est\u00e9 cansada de todo.<\/p>\n

\u2018Cause I know, I will have ups and downs as many times as it takes, and I will handle them the best that I can.<\/b><\/p>\n

Saldr\u00e9 ganando de todo este l\u00edo que es la vida.<\/b><\/p>\n

V\u00e9ase tambi\u00e9n:  <\/strong>\u00bfTe duele tanto como a m\u00ed?<\/a><\/p>\n

\"A<\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Dear All, I know you are tired of being strong and feeling too much. I am writing this to let you know that you are not alone. I am still there. I lie wide awake in bed every night trying to shut down my thoughts and sleep like a normal person. But it seems impossible….<\/p>","protected":false},"author":40,"featured_media":116918,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29617],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-6094","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-heartbreak"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29617,"label":"heartbreak"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/To-All-Of-Us-That-Have-Been-Hurt-One-Too-Many-Times1-1024x683.jpg",1024,683,true],"author_info":{"display_name":"Tara Brown","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/author\/tara-brown\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29617,"name":"heartbreak","slug":"heartbreak","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29617,"taxonomy":"category","description":"Recovering after having your heart broken is tough. That's why I've decided to collect different stories of heartbreak - to help everyone going through the same.","parent":38,"count":146,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29617,"category_count":146,"category_description":"Recovering after having your heart broken is tough. That's why I've decided to collect different stories of heartbreak - to help everyone going through the same.","cat_name":"heartbreak","category_nicename":"heartbreak","category_parent":38}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6094","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/40"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=6094"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6094\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/116918"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=6094"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=6094"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/es\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=6094"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}