Thanks to you, I am the woman I am today. I wouldn’t have become who I am without your unconditional love, your support and the patience you had for me.
And now that I am older, I can see all your sacrifice. I can see that you put your life on standby because you wanted me to know that you are there. Now, I appreciate you more than I did when I was just a child.
After becoming a mother myself, I can see what it actually means to raise a child, to be there for him and to make sure that he grows up thinking only about the things that make him happy.
And that is what you did for me. No matter how many problems you had, you never allowed me to see any of them. You carried all that burden on your shoulders, Mom. And there are no words I can use to thank you enough for everything you did for me.
Now, that I am older, I understand that you want me close all the time. That’s why you tag me on all those funny videos on Facebook. That’s why you always remember me when you go shopping and buy things for me—even if I already have them.
Even if I have a child myself, you still consider me your little one, your baby who needs help and understanding. You still want to take care of me mom, even if I can do that by myself.
Dear Mom, now that I am older I finally realize that you are the only friend without an ulterior motive or hidden agenda. And you will remain the only one like that. I don’t know if I will ever get to find a friend who will accept me the way I am, but I know you already did that.
You’ve accepted me with all my flaws because I am your child. And no matter how upset you are or how hard we fight, you will always take care of me. You will want me to be safe. You will again do anything in your power to protect me and to help me have a good life.
Now, that I am older, I don’t have time to see you that much. But you know what? All those moments we spend together are priceless for me. Because in every one of them, I learn so many things about life.
In every one of them, I admire you, and I am more than happy to have someone like you in my life. In all those moments, I realize that I want to be just like you—strong, independent and always fighting like a lioness for her kids.
Now, that I am older, I sometimes catch myself needing you to take care of me. I often forget to spoil myself because I am also a mom, and I need to take care of my kids as well.
That’s why in those moments, I wish you were there to make me tea and to drink it with me while we talk about some nice flowers we will buy for the garden.
I wish you to come over and make something delicious for dinner. I wish we could walk downtown and shop like we were best friends. I wish you were there more, Mom.
Now, that I am older, I realize that nobody would have done what you did for me. You were there throughout my whole life to comfort me, to be my best friend and someone I could rely on.
You were also someone who would yell at me because I did something stupid that you knew I would regret later. You were there to teach me all about life.
You were there to support me and to make me believe I am so worthy and enough.
You were there when my spirit was broken, when I was down and when I thought I would fall apart. You lifted me up, and you convinced me that giving up on myself is never a good option.
You transformed me into the woman I am today, and I can see you are proud of your accomplishment.
You were, you are and you will always be my best friend, my late night call and the person who understands me even if I don’t understand myself.
Mom, thank you for everything!
Christine is the author of “Staring Into The Eyes Of Anxiety And Depression”, a book that will change the way you fight anxiety and depression.