{"id":10044,"date":"2017-12-11T12:30:59","date_gmt":"2017-12-11T12:30:59","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/herway.net\/?p=10044"},"modified":"2021-08-12T12:46:28","modified_gmt":"2021-08-12T12:46:28","slug":"amo-in-modo-diverso-grazie-a-te","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/amo-in-modo-diverso-grazie-a-te\/","title":{"rendered":"Amo in modo diverso grazie a te"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Amo in modo diverso grazie a te<\/p>\n<p>Amo con i miei muri completamente abbattuti perch\u00e9 con te non mi sono mai sentita abbastanza a mio agio da sentirmi vulnerabile. Mi sono sempre sentita timida con te. Mi sentivo come se dovessi sempre camminare su un guscio d'uovo. Mi sentivo come se dovessi nascondere la mia voce e conservare le mie emozioni perch\u00e9 tutto ci\u00f2 che sentivo, tutto ci\u00f2 di cui avevo bisogno e tutto ci\u00f2 che sentivo di meritare, tu me lo facevi sentire insignificante. <strong>Ora amo in modo diverso grazie a te.<\/strong> I shout what I want out of life. I don\u2019t quiver at the thought of raising my voice, or standing up for myself even if I have to risk the possibility that I\u2019ll be standing alone. I\u2019m with someone now who rejects that possibility. I share love with someone who never makes me question who is standing beside me, who is rooting for me, and who thinks that any dream I have is more than plausible. <strong>Amo in modo diverso grazie a te.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>I\u2019m no longer afraid that my opinions will shatter what little foundation you and I actually had together. My voice made your ears bleed because you were never in the mood for what I wanted to say. You convinced yourself that you had <a href=\"https:\/\/www.elitedaily.com\/dating\/saving-your-relationship\/1236583\" rel=\"noopener\">davvero provato nella nostra relazione<\/a>. You played the victim over and over and over again and somehow I became the bad guy for telling you I needed actual love. I needed love that made me feel safe. I needed love that made me feel like I was worth something to you. I needed love that didn\u2019t make me question who I was because you tried so hard to take over my identity. I felt so worthless because of you<strong> e perch\u00e9?<\/strong> Perch\u00e9 mi hai baciato, sei uscito con me e mi hai detto che ero carina solo per potermi strappare tutte queste comodit\u00e0? Ti senti bene con te stesso? <strong>Ti senti bene per il fatto che ho pianto per te per mesi? Trovi conforto nel mio dolore?<\/strong> Do you feel rewarded that you broke me down and beat me down to the point where I thought I\u2019d never find love again?<\/p>\n<p>Mi sono convinta di meritare quel tipo di amore che era pieno di abusi emotivi. <strong>Ho scelto ancora ragazzi che mi hanno propinato tutte le battute del libro. Non ero mai io il problema, erano sempre loro. Mi hanno fatto credere quella frase pi\u00f9 e pi\u00f9 volte.<\/strong> Erano cos\u00ec presi dal lavoro e feriti da tutte le altre donne della loro vita che erano troppo fragili per provare di nuovo ad amare. <strong>Ero io ad essere troppo fragile<\/strong> perch\u00e9 ero io che stavo ancora scappando da ogni vera possibilit\u00e0 di felicit\u00e0. Amo in modo diverso grazie a te, perch\u00e9 per molti anni dopo di te, <strong>Ho amato senza mai essere ricambiata.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>I had to push my way through to find a good one. I had to go against every natural instinct to fall for the guy who smiled at me because he was genuinely happy. I didn\u2019t trust when he told me I was beautiful. I didn\u2019t trust when he said he loved my imperfections. I didn\u2019t trust when he said he was attracted to my thick curves, or to my funny jokes. I didn\u2019t trust that he loved me for me because for all that time,<a href=\"https:\/\/www.theodysseyonline.com\/what-youve-taught-about-love\" rel=\"noopener\"> mi hai insegnato ad amare in modo diverso<\/a>. You taught me that love wasn\u2019t really love, <strong>era il controllo.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>I love differently because of you because now, all these years later, I\u2019ve finally learned what love is and what love isn\u2019t. Love isn\u2019t controlling or manipulative. Love doesn\u2019t leave you feeling ashamed. Love doesn\u2019t leave you feeling lonely. Love makes you feel taken care of. Love makes you feel secure, beautiful, and capable. Love secures you and, for any woman reading this who feels the same way I did, I hope you find a love that anchors you. I love differently because of you, because you taught me the difference between what we had, and what I truly deserved. I kind of thank you for that.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: right;\"><em>by\u00a0Courtney Dercqu<\/em><\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I Love Differently Because Of You I love with my walls completely broken down because with you, I never felt comfortable enough to feel vulnerable. I always felt timid around you. I felt like I had to always walk around on eggshells. 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