{"id":11695,"date":"2020-01-10T09:14:44","date_gmt":"2020-01-10T09:14:44","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/herway.net\/?p=11695"},"modified":"2022-03-01T23:01:29","modified_gmt":"2022-03-01T23:01:29","slug":"non-ha-mai-avuto-bisogno-di-essere-riparato-ha-avuto-bisogno-di-essere-trattenuto","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/non-ha-mai-avuto-bisogno-di-essere-riparato-ha-avuto-bisogno-di-essere-trattenuto\/","title":{"rendered":"Non ho mai avuto bisogno che tu mi aggiustassi, ho avuto bisogno che tu mi tenessi mentre lo facevo da solo"},"content":{"rendered":"

Hey baby, it\u2019s been some time. I guess I don\u2019t have any right to ask you how you\u2019ve been? But still, I hope you\u2019re doing great. I hope that you\u2019re happy and that you found someone who needs your help more than I did. You always had the need to sistemare le persone<\/a>ma non ho mai avuto bisogno che tu lo facessi per me. Avevo solo bisogno del vostro sostegno mentre lo facevo da sola.<\/span><\/p>\n

Non ho mai avuto bisogno che tu mi mostrassi quanto sono speciale, avevo bisogno di vederlo da sola.<\/b> I needed to see who I am without your love. I needed to see what I can do without you holding my back. I needed to be alone in order to get to know myself. I hoped that you will be there. I hoped that you will accompany me along the way. But you never did\u2014you could never understand why I had to do this by myself.<\/span><\/p>\n

Non sei mai riuscito a capire perch\u00e9 avevo bisogno di vedere il mio valore da solo.<\/b> Because, you see, I was so manipulated and beaten to death that had I lost so much of myself and I never hoped to get those parts back. I lost my confidence, I lost my strength and I lost my worth. I let other people take them, because I couldn\u2019t see them myself. And that\u2019s why I needed to regain them back all by myself, because it wasn\u2019t you who took them. It\u2019s not you who should bring them back. I had to do it myself, because if I hadn\u2019t, I would lose them all over again the moment you walk out of my life.<\/span><\/p>\n

Non hai mai capito perch\u00e9 avevo bisogno di trovare la bellezza in me da sola.<\/b> S\u00ec, mi hai detto milioni di volte quanto sono straordinaria, quanto sono bella. Ma non ho mai visto nulla di tutto ci\u00f2. Non ho mai visto il modo in cui il mio viso si illumina. Non ho mai visto la carineria nelle mie rughe e non ho mai visto la bellezza nelle mie cicatrici. Ho odiato me stessa, il mio corpo, la mia anima ammaccata e la mia storia. <\/span>Come potrei mai trovare la bellezza in tutto questo se lo odiassi?<\/b>  No words you said could help me see it, because I couldn\u2019t see it myself. I couldn\u2019t see that woman you fell in love with, because I believed she was long gone. I believed that someday you will see me the way I used to see myself and that you will leave.<\/span><\/p>\n

Non avresti mai potuto capire perch\u00e9 avevo bisogno di imparare ad amare me stesso.<\/b> Mi hai amato<\/a>Mi hai amato pi\u00f9 di quanto potessi mai credere che qualcuno potesse amarmi. Mi hai amato con quello stupido tipo di amore che ti ha fatto camminare con me al centro commerciale per comprare i trucchi. Mi hai amata con quello stupido tipo di amore che ti ha fatto guardare <\/span>Il Flash<\/span><\/i> with me, even though you\u2019re diehard Marvel fan. But I needed to learn how to love myself. I needed to fall in love with myself, with my past and who I am. <\/span>Avevo bisogno di innamorarmi di questa donna distrutta che aveva imparato a stare in piedi.<\/b> Avevo bisogno di innamorarmi di me stesso, per potermi innamorare di te.<\/span><\/p>\n

Spero che tu capisca che ti ho amato.<\/b> Spero che tu capisca che non ho mai voluto allontanarti, Non ho mai voluto che tu mi curassi<\/a> because I had to do that myself. I needed to understand that I may be broken, but I\u2019m not less worthy because of it. I needed to understand that I can still love even though my heart is shattered to pieces. I needed to understand that I can\u2019t lose myself if I know my worth. And I needed for you to understand that I never loved you any less because I learned how to love myself more. But somehow, you couldn\u2019t see that. Somehow, you felt betrayed because I needed distance. You felt hurt because I decided that I don\u2019t need your help.<\/span><\/p>\n

I really hope that you\u2019re still the man I once loved because some girl will be the luckiest woman to have you.<\/b> Someone who\u2019s not broken as I was; someone who knows how to love herself and how to love you. And I hope that you understand that I never needed you to fix me. I just needed you to hold me, while I did it myself.<\/span><\/p>\n

Con tutto il mio amore, il tuo piccolo Flash.<\/span><\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Hey baby, it\u2019s been some time. I guess I don\u2019t have any right to ask you how you\u2019ve been? But still, I hope you\u2019re doing great. I hope that you\u2019re happy and that you found someone who needs your help more than I did. You always had the need to fix people, but I never…<\/p>","protected":false},"author":40,"featured_media":11697,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29617],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-11695","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-heartbreak"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29617,"label":"heartbreak"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/01\/pexels-photo-105882.jpeg",800,533,false],"author_info":{"display_name":"Tara Brown","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/author\/tara-brown\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29617,"name":"heartbreak","slug":"heartbreak","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29617,"taxonomy":"category","description":"Recovering after having your heart broken is tough. That's why I've decided to collect different stories of heartbreak - to help everyone going through the same.","parent":38,"count":146,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29617,"category_count":146,"category_description":"Recovering after having your heart broken is tough. That's why I've decided to collect different stories of heartbreak - to help everyone going through the same.","cat_name":"heartbreak","category_nicename":"heartbreak","category_parent":38}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11695","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/40"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=11695"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11695\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/11697"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=11695"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=11695"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=11695"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}