{"id":13981,"date":"2018-02-07T09:30:58","date_gmt":"2018-02-07T09:30:58","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/herway.net\/?p=13981"},"modified":"2021-08-12T11:44:16","modified_gmt":"2021-08-12T11:44:16","slug":"il-ragazzo-e-arrivato-in-ritardo","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/il-ragazzo-e-arrivato-in-ritardo\/","title":{"rendered":"Al ragazzo che l'ha capito troppo tardi"},"content":{"rendered":"

I was like, you\u2019re kidding right? No, you have got to be fucking kidding me. After all the time I spent and the tears I shed. Now you want to tell me that I\u2019m the one? Yeah, of course I am you idiot. That\u2019s what I was trying to tell you.<\/strong> All those times that I begged you to come home. All the times that I became a detective to track you down. All the times I forgave you when I did finally track you down. All because despite all of the other \u2018ones\u2019 you had, I somehow believed that I was \u2018the one\u2019. May I never be so young and dumb again.<\/p>\n

Ho combattuto per te. I tried to be everything you needed so that you wouldn\u2019t stray.<\/strong> I thought you cheating had something to do with me, because you made me feel that way. You once told me that being with her (one her in particular out of a sea of hers) was peaceful. I\u2019m sure it was, because she still thought she was the only one. I kindly let her know she wasn\u2019t. Anche stare con me era tranquillo, fino a quando non hai iniziato a corrermi addosso e io ho cominciato a inseguirti<\/a> come la pazza che mi hai fatto diventare.<\/strong> Anche stare con me era tranquillo, finch\u00e9 non hai iniziato a non rispondere alle mie chiamate per giorni e a trovare scuse banali. Ero fottutamente buono con te, finch\u00e9 non ho scoperto che mi tradivi. Sempre.<\/p>\n

I don\u2019t even know why I stayed after the first time. I think because I was just a kid and I needed to win. I needed to be the one you chose. My God I hate how desperate I was for you. I hate how sick it made me feel when I checked your voicemail and heard other girls\u2019 voices leaving you messages. I hated finding the evidence to prove what I always knew deep down. I was never the only one. Even when things were good, and I was calm and getting just enough attention from you that I started to believe you would change, I was never the only one. It came to a point where I don\u2019t even think it hurt anymore.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Poi un giorno ti ho guardato e sono rimasta disgustata. Mi hai toccato e ho rabbrividito. Il pensiero di te nel mio letto mi fa vomitare in bocca.<\/strong> It took seven years but one day my body had physically had enough of you and I became repulsed. It was the greatest day of my life. I didn\u2019t even let you know. You left and I told you afterwards that you were never coming back. Quietly, peacefully. You didn\u2019t believe me at first. You called me until you figured it out. It didn\u2019t take you very long to realize this was different than all the other times I was done.<\/p>\n

Because those other times I fought, I yelled, I screamed, I emoted to you all of the ways you were hurting me and I told you I was done, but what I really wanted was for you to fight back. To stay engaged with me, because bad attention was better than no attention. I wanted to fight until you would apologize and promise to change. Which you always would. But this time, there was nothing to fight for. I was done fighting and I didn\u2019t care if you changed.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Vedi anche:<\/strong>\u00a0Sar\u00e0 troppo tardi per amarla una volta che sar\u00e0 indifferente<\/a><\/p>\n

Then you wanted to cut off all the other girls, then you wanted to be the man that I needed but it was too late. I don\u2019t know whether you would have changed or not, somehow I doubt it. I see you around and hear about your antics from time to time. Sounds like I saved myself from a lifetime of misery.<\/p>\n

di Tia Grace<\/strong><\/p>\n

Read more of Tia\u2019s work on\u00a0http:\/\/yoursassyblackfriend.com\/<\/a><\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I was like, you\u2019re kidding right? No, you have got to be fucking kidding me. After all the time I spent and the tears I shed. Now you want to tell me that I\u2019m the one? Yeah, of course I am you idiot. That\u2019s what I was trying to tell you. All those times that…<\/p>","protected":false},"author":41,"featured_media":13995,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29653],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-13981","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-letters"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29653,"label":"letters"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/02\/steven-spassov-100276.jpg",800,533,false],"author_info":{"display_name":"Martha Sullivan","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/author\/martha-sullivan\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29653,"name":"letters","slug":"letters","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29653,"taxonomy":"category","description":"Regardless if you're looking for moving on, romantic, emotional, or open letters on various topics, you can be sure that you'll find it all here. ","parent":29651,"count":207,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29653,"category_count":207,"category_description":"Regardless if you're looking for moving on, romantic, emotional, or open letters on various topics, you can be sure that you'll find it all here. ","cat_name":"letters","category_nicename":"letters","category_parent":29651}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/13981","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/41"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=13981"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/13981\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/13995"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=13981"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=13981"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=13981"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}