{"id":15532,"date":"2019-03-02T08:13:46","date_gmt":"2019-03-02T08:13:46","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/herway.net\/?p=15532"},"modified":"2022-06-29T15:14:47","modified_gmt":"2022-06-29T15:14:47","slug":"se-ne-andra-e-non-si-guardera-mai-indietro","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/se-ne-andra-e-non-si-guardera-mai-indietro\/","title":{"rendered":"Ti lascer\u00f2 (e non mi guarder\u00f2 mai indietro)"},"content":{"rendered":"

This time I won\u2019t just stop at my words. <\/span>Questa volta ti lascer\u00f2 per sempre. <\/i><\/b>Senza che le lacrime mi scendano sul viso, senza rimorsi e senza la sensazione di perdere qualcosa di importante.  <\/span>Vi lascio<\/span><\/a> perch\u00e9 ne ho abbastanza di te. <\/span><\/p>\n

I don\u2019t want to be treated like this because this kind of treatment is not something that I deserve. I don\u2019t deserve to be gaslighted, belittled and called names. <\/span><\/p>\n

I don\u2019t deserve seeing another woman\u2019s arms around your neck while I am sitting next to you. <\/span><\/p>\n

But of course, you don\u2019t know that. <\/span>You can\u2019t see that you are hurting me with your actions and your words.<\/i><\/b> And to be honest, I don\u2019t know why I am still with you. <\/span><\/p>\n

I don\u2019t know why I am putting up with your crap. Deep down I know that you will never change but I still stay with you. For some reason, I don\u2019t know how to walk away from you. <\/span><\/p>\n

Maybe it is because I got used to you because I don\u2019t know anything better than your<\/span> amore tossico<\/span><\/a> o forse perch\u00e9 mi hai convinto che sono distrutta e che nessuno mi amer\u00e0 come te. Ebbene, se ho la possibilit\u00e0 di scegliere, preferisco restare sola piuttosto che passare la mia vita con te. <\/span><\/p>\n

Because truth to be told, you really don\u2019t deserve me.<\/i><\/b> You don\u2019t deserve my kisses and hugs, my worrying if you are okay when you are late nor my respect and support. <\/span><\/p>\n

I won\u2019t let you make me stay every time you feel like I am slipping away. I won\u2019t listen to your compliments and your sweet words anymore. <\/span><\/p>\n

Non sono qualcosa che intendi veramente, ma qualcosa che usi come arma per farmi restare. So di essere stata una sciocca a rimanere con te per cos\u00ec tanto tempo, ma alla fine ho deciso che ti lascer\u00f2 e prender\u00f2 la mia strada. <\/span><\/p>\n

I know that life prepared so many nice surprises for me and I won\u2019t just sit here and watch my life passing by. <\/span><\/p>\n

Mi difender\u00f2 da sola. Inizier\u00f2 a fare le cose che mi rendono felice e mi dimenticher\u00f2 di quelle che rendono felice te. <\/span><\/p>\n

Finalmente mi liberer\u00f2 delle tue mani tossiche che mi circondano la vita ogni volta che cerchi di riconquistarmi.<\/i><\/b>. <\/span><\/p>\n

I won\u2019t tolerate belittling, <\/span>gaslighting<\/span><\/a>, chiamata per nome<\/a> and abusing. I don\u2019t want to pretend that I am happy with you when we are in public but going through living hell behind closed doors. <\/span><\/p>\n

That is not life; this is agony and I don\u2019t want to do it anymore. You are not worthy of me and you are definitely not worthy of my love as well.<\/span><\/p>\n

\"Ti<\/p>\n

Ora, dopo tanti anni di abusi emotivi e fisici, sono pronta a voltare pagina.<\/span> Sono pronto a trovare la mia strada, lontano da te<\/i><\/b>. Il mio cuore \u00e8 puro e so di aver fatto tutto ci\u00f2 che era in mio potere per salvare ci\u00f2 che avevamo. <\/span><\/p>\n

But I can\u2019t be the only one trying. If you want to be with me, you also need to make some effort, too. Because it takes two to tango and it looks like I am the only one trying to make this work. <\/span><\/p>\n

Quindi, ti lascio. Me ne vado perch\u00e9 la mia voce non \u00e8 mai stata ascoltata in questa relazione. Ogni volta che ho voluto parlare con te, mi hai trattato con il silenzio. <\/span><\/p>\n

Every time I wanted to spend time with you, you chose your friends over me, telling me that I wasn\u2019t interesting to you at all. <\/span><\/p>\n

Every time I reached out my hands to hug you, you escaped like you don\u2019t feel anything for me anymore.<\/i><\/b> E questo fa male. Davvero. <\/span><\/p>\n

So, when I get enough courage and leave you, don\u2019t try to seek me anymore. Even if you find me and tell me that you will change, admitting that you were a fool for letting me go, I will just smile to your face and leave you in wonder. <\/span><\/p>\n

And in that moment, you will get to know the real me. Because truth to be told, you didn\u2019t actually know me all these years that I spent with you. <\/span><\/p>\n

You didn\u2019t know what I am capable of doing. Too bad that you will find out about that in the worst possible way.<\/span> <\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

Quando ti lascer\u00f2, tutto il tuo mondo andr\u00e0 in frantumi.<\/i><\/b> You won\u2019t be able to listen to my voice in the early morning asking you if you want some coffee. <\/span><\/p>\n

You won\u2019t be able to sleep next to me and hug me in your dreams. You won\u2019t be able to make love with me, crying on my shoulder when everyone leaves you nor enjoying my company. <\/span><\/p>\n

Quando me ne andr\u00f2, capirai finalmente che hai perso la ragazza che voleva davvero essere tua. Mi sono resa conto di aver fatto parte di una storia sbagliata per tutto il tempo e ho deciso di andarmene. <\/span><\/p>\n

E l'unico momento in cui mi guarder\u00f2 indietro sar\u00e0 per vedere quanta strada ho fatto.<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

\"Ti<\/p>\n

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This time I won\u2019t just stop at my words. This time I will leave you for good. Without tears running down on my face, without remorse and without feeling that I am losing something important.  I will leave you because I have had enough of you. I don\u2019t want to be treated like this because…<\/p>","protected":false},"author":40,"featured_media":15540,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29618],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-15532","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-moving-on"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29618,"label":"moving on"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/03\/kleiton-silva-580267-unsplash.jpg",800,533,false],"author_info":{"display_name":"Tara Brown","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/author\/tara-brown\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29618,"name":"moving on","slug":"moving-on","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29618,"taxonomy":"category","description":"When nothing else works - inspiring stories about moving on are bound to help you let go of people and situations you never thought you could live without.\r\n","parent":38,"count":200,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29618,"category_count":200,"category_description":"When nothing else works - inspiring stories about moving on are bound to help you let go of people and situations you never thought you could live without.\r\n","cat_name":"moving on","category_nicename":"moving-on","category_parent":38}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15532","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/40"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=15532"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15532\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/15540"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=15532"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=15532"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=15532"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}