{"id":16387,"date":"2018-03-14T14:39:43","date_gmt":"2018-03-14T14:39:43","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/herway.net\/?p=16387"},"modified":"2022-02-10T01:52:24","modified_gmt":"2022-02-10T01:52:24","slug":"ho-smesso-di-darmi-fuoco-solo-per-tenerti-al-caldo-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/ho-smesso-di-darmi-fuoco-solo-per-tenerti-al-caldo-2\/","title":{"rendered":"Ho smesso di darmi fuoco solo per tenerti al caldo"},"content":{"rendered":"

Dal momento in cui ti ho conosciuto, ho capito come emotivamente rotto<\/a> eri. Sapevo che eri stato ferito in passato e che questo ti aveva cambiato per sempre.<\/p>\n

You never liked talking about it that much. All I knew was that you didn\u2019t have a happy childhood and that your family was malfunctioning. You never had someone who was truly yours, someone who would understand you no matter what and someone who would always be there for you. All I knew is that nobody was there to teach you what love was and that made you the person you are today.<\/p>\n

Sapevo che avevi i tuoi problemi che ti preoccupavano e i tuoi demoni con cui combattevi costantemente.<\/p>\n

Ma ho sempre pensato che dentro di te si nascondesse questo piccolo ragazzo perso e vulnerabile. Che tutta la tua insensibilit\u00e0 e il tuo comportamento nei miei confronti fossero solo una maschera, un meccanismo di difesa. Ho cercato di giustificarti pensando che probabilmente presumevi che stessi per farti del male, come facevano tutti gli altri. Nella mia testa, questo era il motivo per cui non ti sei mai aperto completamente con me. Questo era il motivo per cui non mi hai mai lasciato entrare fino in fondo.<\/p>\n

Nella mia testa, la fede mi aveva messo sul tuo cammino perch\u00e9 potessi aiutarti. Ero stata mandata da voi per aiutarvi ad aprire il vostro cuore all'amore, per insegnarvi come doveva essere l'amore. Per mostrarvi come si fa a essere amati e come si ama.<\/p>\n

Ma hai continuato a respingermi<\/a>. Ogni volta che mi avvicinavo a te, aggiungevi un altro mattone a questo muro alto e spesso che teneva fuori tutti, compreso me. Ti chiudevi ancora di pi\u00f9 e mi escludevi completamente. Se ci penso bene, tutta la nostra relazione si basava sul fatto che tu cercavi di tagliarmi fuori completamente e io cercavo di arrivare a te.<\/p>\n

Sai che ho fatto tutto ci\u00f2 che era in mio potere per aiutarti. Sai che il mio unico scopo nella vita era quello di renderti un uomo migliore. Sai che Ti ho dato il mio tutto, ma non ho avuto nulla in cambio<\/a>. I never asked for anything from you\u2014I just wanted for you to cooperate. I just wanted you to appreciate all of my efforts and to appreciate me.<\/p>\n

\"Sai<\/p>\n

Volevo solo che iniziassi ad amare te stesso come io ti ho amato. E volevo che tu mi amassi.
\nMa anche questo era troppo per te.<\/p>\n

Quindi, Eccomi qui, ad ammettere la mia sconfitta.<\/strong> Sono qui ad accettare che non c'era pi\u00f9 nulla che potessi fare per te. Sono qui rinunciare a te<\/a>. Qui mi stanno facendo fuori.<\/p>\n

I am done taking the blame for someone else\u2019s actions.<\/strong> I know you\u2019ve had a rough life. I know you were never loved and taken care of. But none of this is my fault. I was different and you know that. And I don\u2019t have to be the only one dealing with all the consequences of all the pain you\u2019ve been through. I don\u2019t have to be the only one handling the man you\u2019ve become.<\/p>\n

Ho smesso di essere la persona che chiami ogni volta che qualcosa va storto.<\/strong> I am done being the one you remember only when you are in trouble. Whenever life had been treating you kindly, you were nowhere to be found. But as soon as everyone around you turned their backs on you, I was the first person you\u2019d call. Because you always knew I was the only one who would never leave you hanging. But whenever I needed you, my troubles were foolish and irrelevant. You were never interested in my issues and concerns and I could never rely on your support.<\/p>\n

Ho smesso di essere quella che capisce sempre.<\/strong> I tried really hard to justify you. I tried finding excuses for the way you were treating me\u2014for all the fights, all the insults and all the times you hurt me. I assumed this was the only behavior pattern you were taught, so I put a lot of effort into trying to show you different ways of communication. I put up with everything you ever told me or did to me, because I tried to find the reasons behind it all. But even then, you refused to open up to me. You never apologized for anything you did to me and you never took responsibility for any of your words or actions. Instead, I was always the one to blame for everything bad in our relationship.<\/p>\n

Sono stanco di aspettare che tu rinsavisca.<\/strong> I\u2019ve waited for you to change for more than enough time. I\u2019ve given you more than enough chances. But now it\u2019s time for me to accept that none of the things I wish for will ever happen. It\u2019s time for me to accept that you\u2019ll never realize how much I did for you and how much I loved you.<\/p>\n

Ho finito di condurre le vostre battaglie.<\/strong> You are a big boy and it\u2019s time you stop relying on me. It\u2019s time for you to start fighting your own battles, without me holding your hand all the time. You always wanted to present yourself as this tough guy who didn\u2019t need anyone\u2019s help through life, didn\u2019t you? Well, this is your chance to do so.<\/p>\n

Ho smesso di distruggermi per poterti salvare.<\/strong> I\u2019ve realized that you don\u2019t want to be saved. You enjoy being the victim of life circumstances and you don\u2019t want to be happy. And you can\u2019t save someone who doesn\u2019t want to be saved. All you could do was get yourself pulled down into your darkness and that is exactly what happened to me.<\/p>\n

Ho smesso di scegliere te al posto mio.<\/strong> Ti ho amato per molto tempo. E ti amo ancora. Ma devo imparare ad amare di pi\u00f9 me stesso.<\/p>\n

Sono stanca di aspettare che tu mi ami.<\/strong> Perch\u00e9 ora so che ci sono alcune persone che non sono capaci di amare<\/a>. E per quanto mi faccia male ammetterlo, lei \u00e8 una di quelle persone.<\/p>\n

Ho smesso di darmi fuoco solo per tenerti al caldo. Perch\u00e9 non ho ottenuto nulla facendo cos\u00ec. Nulla, se non bruciare insieme a te.<\/p>\n

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