{"id":17546,"date":"2018-04-12T09:28:19","date_gmt":"2018-04-12T09:28:19","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/herway.net\/?p=17546"},"modified":"2021-08-12T10:13:26","modified_gmt":"2021-08-12T10:13:26","slug":"sono-geloso-perche-qualcuno-ti-rendera-piu-felice-di-me","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/sono-geloso-perche-qualcuno-ti-rendera-piu-felice-di-me\/","title":{"rendered":"Sono geloso perch\u00e9 qualcuno ti render\u00e0 pi\u00f9 felice di me"},"content":{"rendered":"

For a long time, I was convincing myself you loved me and even if you didn\u2019t, that you eventually would. And God knows how much I fought for your love. There was nothing I wouldn\u2019t do to make you love me. But nothing was enough. You don\u2019t love me<\/a>Non l'ha mai fatto e non lo far\u00e0 mai.<\/p>\n

Almeno, non nel modo in cui vorrei che tu mi amassi.<\/p>\n

Non dico che tu sia sempre stato completamente indifferente nei miei confronti e forse mi hai anche amato a modo tuo, ma il fatto \u00e8 che non mi hai mai amato davvero. So che hai provato con tutte le tue forze ad amarmi, ma non sei mai riuscito a farlo. E questo \u00e8 un fatto con cui devo fare i conti e con cui devo imparare a convivere, cos\u00ec come devo imparare a vivere senza di te.<\/p>\n

This is something I am slowly growing to accept. And something I don\u2019t blame you for anymore.<\/p>\n

At first, when I realized this, I have to say I was pissed. I was doing even the impossible to make you happy, but I saw that you were never truly satisfied. I considered you to be ungrateful and I thought you didn\u2019t appreciate all my efforts. But then it hit me-you couldn\u2019t be happy by my side no matter how much both of us tried to make it happen. It was impossible because you never loved me with the same intensity I loved you.<\/p>\n

Then, I became frustrated at you for not loving me back. Or at least, I thought I was. But later I\u2019ve figured out that I was actually sad and devastated because of this and I was only masking my sadness with anger. It was easier for me to keep finding your flaws and to accuse you of being heartless than to simply accept the fact that you didn\u2019t love me. And to accept that there is not much philosophy about it and most of all, that there was and that there will never be anything I can do about it. I\u2019ve finally come to terms with that.<\/p>\n

But there is something I will never be able to accept. And that is the fact that there will come a woman who you\u2019ll love.<\/strong> I hate to admit this, but it would be a lot easier for me to accept the fact that you don\u2019t know how to love. But that is far from the truth. I know that you are a great guy who is very capable of loving. You just couldn\u2019t love me. So che non sei mai stato veramente felice al mio fianco e per questo ti ho lasciato andare.<\/strong><\/p>\n

And I know there will come a woman you\u2019ll make happy.<\/strong> There will come a woman you\u2019ll love the way I loved you and the way you could never love me. I also know I have no right to be jealous. Even when we were together, non sei mai stato veramente mio<\/a> and I always knew that. But my jealousy is stronger than me. It haunts and consumes me. Maybe I am the only bad guy here, after all. I should want you to be happy even if that happiness doesn\u2019t include me, but honestly, I can\u2019t wish that for you. I might be selfish, but I truly envy the woman who will love you after me.<\/p>\n

I envy her because she\u2019ll have you in all the ways I never had you. I envy her because she will see all your weaknesses and vulnerabilities. She will get to know you in all the ways I didn\u2019t. And I know she will be special. But most of all\u2014she will make you happier than I ever did<\/strong>. And that is what I\u2019m mostly jealous of.<\/p>\n

Sono geloso<\/a> of all the nights she\u2019ll fall asleep in your arms and of all the mornings she\u2019ll wake up next to you. I am jealous of every time you\u2019ll kiss her with the love you never kissed me with. I am jealous of all of your conversations, of all the times she will tell you she loves you and all the times you will tell it back to her. I am jealous of the children she will give to you and of the fact that you two will grow old together.<\/p>\n

I will always wonder what it was that I didn\u2019t have that she will have. What is it that you\u2019ll love in her that you could never find in me? Perch\u00e9 non sono mai riuscito a renderti felice?<\/strong><\/p>\n

But I guess those are all questions I\u2019ll never get the answer to. <\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

For a long time, I was convincing myself you loved me and even if you didn\u2019t, that you eventually would. And God knows how much I fought for your love. There was nothing I wouldn\u2019t do to make you love me. But nothing was enough. You don\u2019t love me, never did and never will. At…<\/p>","protected":false},"author":40,"featured_media":17547,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29619],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-17546","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-stories-love"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29619,"label":"stories"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/04\/gustavo-bautista-reyes-615940-unsplash.jpg",800,565,false],"author_info":{"display_name":"Tara Brown","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/author\/tara-brown\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29619,"name":"stories","slug":"stories-love","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29619,"taxonomy":"category","description":"To all the souls struggling with complicated love experiences: These heartfelt stories about love, heartbreak, and moving on will be your voice of wisdom.","parent":38,"count":424,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29619,"category_count":424,"category_description":"To all the souls struggling with complicated love experiences: These heartfelt stories about love, heartbreak, and moving on will be your voice of wisdom.","cat_name":"stories","category_nicename":"stories-love","category_parent":38}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/17546","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/40"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=17546"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/17546\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/17547"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=17546"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=17546"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=17546"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}