{"id":17557,"date":"2018-04-12T10:46:38","date_gmt":"2018-04-12T10:46:38","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/herway.net\/?p=17557"},"modified":"2021-08-12T10:13:02","modified_gmt":"2021-08-12T10:13:02","slug":"quando-te-ne-sei-andato-ero-distrutto-ma-ora-sono-davvero-sollevato","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/quando-te-ne-sei-andato-ero-distrutto-ma-ora-sono-davvero-sollevato\/","title":{"rendered":"Quando te ne sei andata ero sconvolto, ma ora sono davvero sollevato"},"content":{"rendered":"

When you left me, you brought to life one of my biggest fears. I didn\u2019t know what to do with my life, thinking it had come to its end. I had no purpose and no meaning left. I was completely consumed by this pain you caused me and <\/span>I couldn\u2019t move from the spot where you left me.<\/b><\/p>\n

Se all'epoca qualcuno mi avesse chiesto quale fosse una delle cose pi\u00f9 dolorose da sperimentare, il crepacuore sarebbe stato sicuramente in cima alla mia lista.<\/span><\/p>\n

I felt like I couldn\u2019t breathe without you by my side. <\/span>La sua partenza mi ha spezzato in tanti modi. <\/b><\/p>\n

E mi ha fatto male fino alle ossa.<\/b> Pensavo che non sarei mai stata la donna di una volta e che non mi sarei mai ripresa da tutto il dolore che mi hai causato.<\/span><\/p>\n

Ero sicuro che sarei morto.<\/b><\/p>\n

And then, with time, it got a lot easier. I don\u2019t know how it happened or when it happened but I just know <\/span>I woke up one morning without the feeling that my chest would burn out. I didn\u2019t have the feeling I would break into pieces every second and I could finally breathe properly.<\/b><\/p>\n

It didn\u2019t mean I was completely over you but it was definitely something. It was the beginning of my recovery. It was when I realized that time would heal my wounds and when I became determined that there would come a moment when I\u2019d be over you.<\/span><\/p>\n

E dopo tanto tempo, quel momento \u00e8 finalmente arrivato. Mi ci \u00e8 voluto molto tempo e pazienza per arrivare qui, ma ce l'ho fatta. Posso finalmente dire di essere <\/span>finalmente, veramente finita con te<\/span><\/a>. I don\u2019t love you nor do I hate you<\/span>\u2014<\/span>Sono completamente indifferente.<\/span><\/p>\n

But what is even more important is that I feel like I\u2019ve gotten rid of this huge burden. When you first left me, I felt like the entire world\u2019s weight had fallen on my shoulders, and now I feel like I\u2019ve gotten rid of it. I feel relaxed, liberated and free.<\/b><\/p>\n

Mi sento sollevato.<\/b><\/p>\n

And I am not only relieved because I surpassed the pain I was feeling all along. I never thought I\u2019d be the one to say it but I am relieved you are in not in my life anymore.<\/b><\/p>\n

Ho finalmente capito quanto mi hai trattato male quando stavamo insieme. Ho finalmente capito quanto mi hai influenzato negativamente.<\/span><\/p>\n

Mi sono reso conto che in realt\u00e0 ero vostro prigioniero. <\/span>Although you didn\u2019t keep me physically locked inside, you caged my mind and soul.<\/b> I tuoi giochi mentali erano cos\u00ec forti che mi sembrava davvero che tu fossi nella mia testa.<\/span><\/p>\n

I didn\u2019t know it back then but I see it now. <\/span>Mi rendo conto di quanto tu sia stato controllante e manipolatore. Finalmente vedo la tua tossicit\u00e0.<\/b><\/p>\n

I see how you ruined years of my life and how you could\u2019ve ruined the rest of it, if you\u2019d stayed by my side.<\/span><\/p>\n

I see that I was actually afraid of you. I didn\u2019t <\/span>sopravvivere all'abuso fisico<\/span><\/a> da te, ma in qualche modo sei riuscito a farmi vivere nella paura. Qualsiasi cosa facessi, la tua possibile reazione era l'unico pensiero che mi passava per la testa. Ora, so che non ero mai completamente rilassata mentre ero con te.<\/span><\/p>\n

And since you left, all of this stopped. Yes, you left me alone but that actually meant I didn\u2019t have anyone to judge every move I made, to constantly try to put me down and criticize me. I didn\u2019t have anyone to patronize me and to feed my insecurities. I didn\u2019t have anyone ruining my confidence and holding me back.<\/span><\/p>\n

Ora, senza di te al mio fianco,<\/span> Posso finalmente essere libero<\/b> and I don\u2019t have to be afraid of anything anymore.<\/span> Now that I\u2019ve finally gotten out of this mental cage you put me in<\/b>Posso prendere le mie decisioni da sola, senza preoccuparmi di ci\u00f2 che lei potrebbe pensare. <\/span><\/p>\n

Posso finalmente godermi ogni respiro che faccio e posso finalmente <\/b>vivere la mia vita al massimo<\/b><\/a>senza essere abusati emotivamente, manipolati e ricattati.<\/b><\/p>\n

And that is the most liberating and relieving feeling there is. Even though I thought I\u2019d never say this<\/b>\u2014<\/b>Sono felice che tu te ne sia andato.<\/b> <\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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