{"id":18156,"date":"2018-04-27T18:59:25","date_gmt":"2018-04-27T18:59:25","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/herway.net\/?p=18156"},"modified":"2021-08-12T10:03:51","modified_gmt":"2021-08-12T10:03:51","slug":"non-importa-quello-che-fai-ora-non-potrai-mai-cancellare-tutto-quello-che-mi-hai-fatto-in-passato","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/non-importa-quello-che-fai-ora-non-potrai-mai-cancellare-tutto-quello-che-mi-hai-fatto-in-passato\/","title":{"rendered":"Non importa quello che fai ora, non potrai mai cancellare tutto quello che mi hai fatto in passato"},"content":{"rendered":"

Mi hai causato molto dolore e ho sofferto molto a causa tua. <\/span>Mi hai spezzato il cuore<\/span><\/a> e mi hai spezzato. Hai distrutto tutto ci\u00f2 che potevi distruggere di me e mi hai cambiato per sempre come persona. Mi hai sempre trattato come un pezzo di merda, come se non fossi mai stato importante per te.<\/span><\/p>\n

When I come to think of it now, I don\u2019t know if there is anything left that you didn\u2019t do to me. Because you lied to me, you cheated on me, you neglected me, you manipulated me and you controlled me. Above all, you abused me in more than one way. And that is something I am aware of now.<\/span><\/p>\n

Sai, per molto tempo ho continuato a mentire a me stessa. Mi sono semplicemente rifiutata di ammettere che eri una persona cattiva e che non mi hai mai amata davvero. Mi sono rifiutata di accettare tutte le cose che mi stavi facendo, cos\u00ec ho continuato a giustificarti e mi sono data la colpa di tutto. Continuavo a trovare scuse per le tue bugie, dicendomi che dovevo aver interpretato male le cose. Ogni volta che ti sorprendevo a tradirmi, mi dicevo che mi stavo immaginando tutto. E in quelle situazioni, ero pi\u00f9 che felice di accettare le tue false scuse che ovviamente non avevano senso. Anche se sapevo che stavi abusando di me, dicevo a me stessa che ero <\/span>troppo sensibile<\/span><\/a> o che era colpa mia per averti provocato. In realt\u00e0, erano queste le cose che continuavi a dirmi e io volevo crederci cos\u00ec tanto. Credo che a quei tempi avrei creduto a ogni possibile bugia che mi mettevi davanti. L'unica cosa a cui non volevo credere era la verit\u00e0. Non ho mai voluto accettare che eri un abusatore tossico e che dovevo stare lontana da te se volevo salvare la mia sanit\u00e0 mentale.<\/span><\/p>\n

I don\u2019t know what happened but with time, I knew I had to accept it. I guess it was when my bruises were too evident and too big for me to hide. I guess I became ashamed of the people around me seeing them and that was what made me wake up from this nightmare you were putting me through. And that was when I left you for good.<\/span><\/p>\n

When I first left, you didn\u2019t take me seriously. You were certain I\u2019d come crawling back to you. But that was something I had no intention of doing.<\/span><\/p>\n

With time, you saw I wasn\u2019t changing my mind. And you couldn\u2019t believe it. You couldn\u2019t believe I had the nerve to walk away from you. And that was when your efforts to win me back started. That was when you allegedly figured it all out and when you realized how badly you had treated me. That was when you started begging me to come back to you, promising me that this time was different and trying to assure me that you were a changed man. That was when you started acting like you would do anything just for me to go back to you.<\/span><\/p>\n

Ma lasciatemi dire una cosa<\/span>\u2014<\/span>I am not buying any of it. I don\u2019t believe you and I never will.<\/b> I know you don\u2019t want me back because you love me; you want me back because you can\u2019t believe you lost the person who you could always treat the way you wanted to. You want me back to help you boost your sick ego. And that is something I am not ready to do anymore.<\/span><\/p>\n

You keep finding ways to get to me and you keep telling me you feel sorry for everything you did to me. But I know that is not true. I know you are not even aware of all the suffering I\u2019ve been through because of you. I know that deep down, you still think all of it was my fault. <\/span>Mi stai dicendo tutto quello che voglio sentire perch\u00e9 pensi che ti aiuter\u00e0 a riconquistarmi.<\/b><\/p>\n

Well, it won\u2019t. <\/span>Non torner\u00f2 mai da te e non c'\u00e8 nulla che tu possa fare per cambiare le cose.<\/b> I am not telling you this because I\u2019m heartless or because I want revenge for everything you did to me. I am telling you this because I really mean it. <\/span><\/p>\n

Devi accettare il fatto che non c'\u00e8 nulla che tu possa fare ora per farmi dimenticare le cose che mi hai fatto in passato. <\/span>You don\u2019t have a magical eraser that can remove all the wounds and scars on my soul and body that you caused.<\/b><\/p>\n

Even if you have changed (and I know you haven\u2019t), you need to understand that just seeing your face reminds me of all the pain I\u2019ve been through. It reminds me of every tear I cried for you and of every humiliation you put me through. It reminds me of every time you hit me, of every time you crushed my heart, of every lie you told me straight to my face and of every woman you <\/span>mi ha tradito<\/span><\/a> con. E non c'\u00e8 nulla che tu possa fare per farmelo dimenticare.<\/span><\/p>\n

The only thing you can do is leave me alone. If you really regret all the things you did to me, please let me go and don\u2019t come back into my life ever again.<\/b> <\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

You caused me a lot of pain and I suffered a lot because of you. You broke my heart and you broke me. You destroyed everything that you could destroy about me and you changed me as a person for good. You always treated me like a piece of shit, like I never mattered to…<\/p>","protected":false},"author":40,"featured_media":18158,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29619],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-18156","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-stories-love"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29619,"label":"stories"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/04\/tyler-nix-601519-unsplash-1.jpg",800,533,false],"author_info":{"display_name":"Tara Brown","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/author\/tara-brown\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29619,"name":"stories","slug":"stories-love","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29619,"taxonomy":"category","description":"To all the souls struggling with complicated love experiences: These heartfelt stories about love, heartbreak, and moving on will be your voice of wisdom.","parent":38,"count":424,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29619,"category_count":424,"category_description":"To all the souls struggling with complicated love experiences: These heartfelt stories about love, heartbreak, and moving on will be your voice of wisdom.","cat_name":"stories","category_nicename":"stories-love","category_parent":38}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18156","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/40"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=18156"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18156\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/18158"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=18156"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=18156"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=18156"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}