{"id":18270,"date":"2018-05-03T11:43:35","date_gmt":"2018-05-03T11:43:35","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/herway.net\/?p=18270"},"modified":"2022-01-06T15:53:47","modified_gmt":"2022-01-06T15:53:47","slug":"per-quanto-io-cerchi-di-oppormi-ti-amo-ancora","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/per-quanto-io-cerchi-di-oppormi-ti-amo-ancora\/","title":{"rendered":"Per quanto mi sforzi di combatterlo, ti amo ancora"},"content":{"rendered":"

If someone asked you how I feel about you, you would probably tell them that I\u2019d forgotten all about you a long time ago. You would probably tell them how I\u2019d moved on a while ago and that you are just a part of the past for me now. You would probably tell them that you are certain that you never cross my mind and that I don\u2019t have any feelings for you left.<\/span><\/p>\n

And I am certain that this is what you really think. I am certain of this because I made sure that you think this way. I tried very hard to prove to you that I don\u2019t care for you any longer and I think I succeeded in convincing you that is true. I\u2019ve never tried contacting you and I never gave you any signals that would make you think Ti amo ancora<\/a>. Quindi \u00e8 ovvio che probabilmente pensi che non ci sia pi\u00f9 amore per te dentro di me.<\/span><\/p>\n

Ma non avete idea di quanto vi sbagliate. E sono felice che sia cos\u00ec. <\/span>You have no idea how much I miss you and that is something I hope you\u2019ll never find out.<\/b><\/p>\n

This is something nobody around me knows. Yes, the people close to me knew how much I suffered for you and they knew that I was devastated when you walked away from me. They knew that you broke my heart and that it took me a long time to recover from all the things you did to me. But they all think I am way better now. They all think that you are just a distant memory for me and that you just represent a lesson from the past. They all think I am completely indifferent toward you and that I don\u2019t have any feelings left for you. But actually, nobody knows the real truth.<\/span><\/p>\n

E mi ci \u00e8 voluta anche molta forza per accettarlo. Ho mentito a me stessa per molto tempo. <\/span>I pretended I didn\u2019t care<\/b><\/a> for you because it was easier for me to handle our break-up and my heartbreak this way. It was more than enough that my heart and soul were shattered into pieces and I simply couldn\u2019t allow for my ego to be hurt as well. <\/b>So I didn\u2019t want to face the real truth. I was pretending to be tough and insensitive even in front of myself.<\/span><\/p>\n

This worked out just fine for some time. Whenever you crossed my mind, somehow I would manage to chase those thoughts away. And I\u2019ve tried dating other guys. But somehow, every one of these guys was missing something. Now I know that none of them was you and that this was the real reason I didn\u2019t like them. And that was something I refused to accept.<\/span><\/p>\n

But when I saw you for the first time after you left me, that was when I couldn\u2019t pretend I didn\u2019t love you anymore. All my feelings for you came back the moment I saw your face, the moment I heard your voice and the moment I saw you smiling at me. All the love and all the pain came back. Actually, I realized none of it was ever gone; I had just buried all those feelings deep inside of me, thinking they would disappear that way.<\/span><\/p>\n

Ma quando mi hai guardato dritto negli occhi, come hai fatto prima, <\/span>I had to face the fact that I still love you, despite all the efforts I\u2019ve put into <\/b>dimenticarti<\/b><\/a>.<\/b> \u00c8 stato allora che ho capito di essere innamorato di te come il primo giorno. E<\/span> In quel momento ho capito che non avevo alcun controllo sui miei sentimenti per te.<\/b><\/p>\n

But it doesn\u2019t mean I\u2019ve allowed for you to see it. On the contrary, I acted like everything was going great in my life and like I had just seen an old acquaintance. <\/span>Mi sono comportato in modo del tutto indifferente nei suoi confronti.<\/b><\/p>\n

E sono felice di averlo fatto.<\/span><\/p>\n

Because I don\u2019t want you to ever find out how I feel every time someone mentions your name, every time I see someone who looks like you or every time I smell the scent of your aftershave. I don\u2019t want you to know that I am still stuck in the same spot where you left me and that I haven\u2019t moved an inch.<\/span><\/p>\n

Ma soprattutto, <\/span>I don\u2019t want you to ever be aware of how hard I tried to kill this love I feel for you. And I don\u2019t want you to know that I\u2019ve obviously failed in doing so.<\/b> I don\u2019t want you to know that you still have full control over me, despite everything you did to me. <\/span>I don\u2019t want you to ever find out that I was obviously too weak to fight these emotions I feel for you. <\/b><\/p>\n

Because that is something you don\u2019t deserve to know.<\/b> <\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

If someone asked you how I feel about you, you would probably tell them that I\u2019d forgotten all about you a long time ago. You would probably tell them how I\u2019d moved on a while ago and that you are just a part of the past for me now. You would probably tell them that…<\/p>","protected":false},"author":40,"featured_media":34803,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29619],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-18270","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-stories-love"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29619,"label":"stories"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/05\/brooke-cagle-158012-unsplash-1024x683.jpg",1024,683,true],"author_info":{"display_name":"Tara Brown","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/author\/tara-brown\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29619,"name":"stories","slug":"stories-love","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29619,"taxonomy":"category","description":"To all the souls struggling with complicated love experiences: These heartfelt stories about love, heartbreak, and moving on will be your voice of wisdom.","parent":38,"count":424,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29619,"category_count":424,"category_description":"To all the souls struggling with complicated love experiences: These heartfelt stories about love, heartbreak, and moving on will be your voice of wisdom.","cat_name":"stories","category_nicename":"stories-love","category_parent":38}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18270","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/40"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=18270"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18270\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/34803"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=18270"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=18270"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=18270"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}