{"id":20932,"date":"2020-07-18T10:10:52","date_gmt":"2020-07-18T10:10:52","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/herway.net\/?p=20932"},"modified":"2022-02-27T10:33:09","modified_gmt":"2022-02-27T10:33:09","slug":"la-verita-sullessere-solo-un-piano-di-riserva-per-qualcuno-che-si-amava","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/la-verita-sullessere-solo-un-piano-di-riserva-per-qualcuno-che-si-amava\/","title":{"rendered":"La verit\u00e0 sul fatto di essere nient'altro che un piano di riserva per qualcuno che si amava veramente"},"content":{"rendered":"

Se dovessi descrivere la mia vita in una parola, allora sarebbe \"attesa\". Aspettavo sempre qualcosa. Aspettavo i suoi messaggi e le sue chiamate.<\/p>\n

I waited for him to find time for me. I waited for him to say, \u201cI love you\u201d. I waited for him to be ready for a relationship. I waited for him to chose me, but he never did.<\/p>\n

The sad part is, and it\u2019s all but easy to admit, I would probably still be waiting if he hadn\u2019t left me. I would still be settling for his empty words and false promises.<\/p>\n

Mi andrebbe comunque bene essere il suo piano di riserva<\/a>. Io continuerei a sperare che qualcosa si muova dentro di lui e che si finisca insieme.<\/p>\n

I kept lying to myself. I lied that I was fine with the way things were. I lied that I didn\u2019t need labels. <\/strong><\/p>\n

I lied about being laid back and relaxed, a \u2018whatever happens – happens\u2019 kind of girl. I lied because I wanted him in my life so badly and that was the only way I could have him.<\/strong><\/p>\n

I chose to ignore all the red flags flying before my eyes, warning me to stay away. I couldn\u2019t help but see them. He said to me that non \u00e8 pronto per una relazione<\/a> just yet, and like a fool, I kept holding on to the \u201cjust yet\u201d part of the sentence, thinking that things will change in the future.<\/p>\n

Ho giustificato il suo comportamento pensando che avesse solo bisogno di pi\u00f9 tempo.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Aspettando che si innamorasse di me, ho continuato a innamorarmi di lui sempre pi\u00f9 intensamente. La mia infatuazione per lui si \u00e8 trasformata in amore e speravo che lo stesso accadesse a lui.<\/p>\n

\"donna<\/p>\n

Mentre mi affezionavo sempre di pi\u00f9, continuavo a interpretare tutti i segni nel modo in cui volevo vederli.<\/p>\n

Tutti i piccoli segni di affetto che mi mostrava erano cos\u00ec grandiosi nella mia testa. Vivevo di pezzetti e pezzetti di attenzioni che mi dava, anche se non erano mai abbastanza.<\/p>\n

Mi sono sempre sentita privata. Desideravo sempre di pi\u00f9, ma mi accontentavo di meno perch\u00e9 mi sembrava di non avere altra scelta.<\/p>\n

Ci teneva a me. Questo lo so. Ne sono certa anche adesso. Ma non mi ha mai amato. Non come lo amavo io.<\/strong> Mi amava solo a met\u00e0. Avevo solo un piccolo posto nel suo cuore.<\/p>\n

Mi amava come un piano di riserva, mentre tutto il mio cuore era suo. Mentre io sognavo la nostra vita con lui, lui sapeva sempre che non sarebbe rimasto.<\/p>\n

That\u2019s why my entire heart got shattered into millions of little pieces and I still haven\u2019t gathered them all. On the other hand, his remained whole, undamaged, untouched because he was never mine like I was his.<\/em><\/p>\n

\u00c8 stato il mio pi\u00f9 grande amore e la mia pi\u00f9 grande e difficile lezione.<\/strong> He taught me that if love doesn\u2019t go both ways, it\u2019s worthless. He taught me that hurt can be even greater when you are in something that doesn\u2019t have labels and doesn\u2019t promise commitment.<\/p>\n

Mi ha insegnato che devo rispettarmi abbastanza e aspettare quello che mi merito.<\/strong> That I shouldn\u2019t chase after anyone, telling them how great we could be together if they don\u2019t see it themselves.<\/p>\n

That my love alone wasn\u2019t enough. That I am stronger than I think and that I can make myself happy.<\/p>\n

La cosa pi\u00f9 importante \u00e8 che mi ha insegnato che dovrei never settle for being somebody\u2019s backup plan<\/a> when I deserve to be somebody’s first and only option.<\/p>\n

\"LA<\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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