{"id":21073,"date":"2018-07-23T07:30:57","date_gmt":"2018-07-23T07:30:57","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/herway.net\/?p=21073"},"modified":"2021-08-12T07:12:49","modified_gmt":"2021-08-12T07:12:49","slug":"ecco-come-mi-sono-perso-nellamarti","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/ecco-come-mi-sono-perso-nellamarti\/","title":{"rendered":"Ecco come ho perso me stesso nell'amarti"},"content":{"rendered":"

A un certo punto del percorso, ho iniziato ad amarti pi\u00f9 di quanto amassi me stessa. A un certo punto, lungo la stessa strada, tu hai smesso di amarmi del tutto.<\/p>\n

I was living on cloud nine when I was with you. I really felt like we connected on every possible level. That\u2019s probably why I didn\u2019t mind us moving so fast in our relationship. We were taking major steps so early on that it scared and thrilled me at the same time.<\/p>\n

Everything felt so right that I couldn\u2019t or wouldn\u2019t stop myself.  I wasn’t even aware that our life was in an express lane and we were unknowingly falling behind.<\/p>\n

I guess I wanted a happily ever after so badly that I ignored the fact that I still hadn\u2019t had the chance to get to know you very well. That we hadn\u2019t had the chance to costruire una relazione<\/a>. Ci siamo buttati a capofitto e abbiamo sperato nel meglio.<\/strong><\/p>\n

But there are no shortcuts in love. There are no express lanes and skipping the steps. If you don\u2019t build your foundations right, everything will fall apart like a deck of cards\u2014especially when one side gives and feels more, like I did for you.<\/p>\n

Prima di incontrarti, avevo una vita che mi appassionava. Ma da quando ho posato gli occhi su di te, sei diventata la mia unica passione. You became the only thing I thought about and I lived to make you happy. And that\u2019s where everything started going downhill.<\/strong><\/p>\n

I made it my life’s mission to make you happy. I followed your plans and postponed all of mine, so you would be pleased. On the other hand, whenever I wanted us to go somewhere or do something, you would discard it as stupid. I stopped doing so many things and seeing people who were important to me just so you wouldn\u2019t blame me for being lonely.<\/p>\n

I was exaggerating. Every time you even said you like something you saw in a store or online, I would buy it for you. When you wouldn\u2019t shut up about how much you craved pancakes or pizza, I would get up and make it for you. You did some sweet things for me, too, at the beginning, but as soon as it got old, you stopped.<\/p>\n

Non mi sono mai fermato. Ho sempre fatto un passo in pi\u00f9 per accontentarvi.<\/strong> Mi sono sempre assicurata che tutti i tuoi bisogni fossero soddisfatti e ho trascurato i miei. Anche tu hai trascurato i miei. Desideravo la tua vicinanza. Volevo che mi dimostrassi che tenevi a me quanto io tenevo a te.<\/p>\n

Volevo che mi chiedessi com'era andata la giornata. Volevo sapere che potevo rivolgermi a te ogni volta che avevo bisogno di te. Volevo che mi ascoltassi come io avrei ascoltato te ogni volta che avevi bisogno di parlare. Volevo che fossi tu a mettere da parte il suo orgoglio, come ho fatto io tante volte, e a venirmi incontro quando litigavamo. Ma non l'hai mai fatto.<\/p>\n

Tu hai continuato a prendere e io ho continuato a dare finch\u00e9 non ho avuto pi\u00f9 nulla da dare.<\/strong> A quel punto mi si sono aperti gli occhi. Ti ho detto quanto fossi infelice, quanto questa relazione fosse unilaterale, che anche tu avresti dovuto impegnarti. Ma tu hai detto che chiedevo troppo, che ti stavo annoiando con il mio continuo assillo.<\/p>\n

Avevi ragione, ero noiosa. Volevo un uomo che mi notasse. Che mi facesse sentire speciale e amata come hai fatto tu quando abbiamo iniziato. Ma quell'uomo non c'era pi\u00f9. Ho avuto solo un uomo che mi ha dato per scontato<\/a>. Who ignored my existence in his life unless he needed something. The one who didn\u2019t know how to love anybody but himself.<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n

Ho amato troppo, a quanto pare. Ho amato per entrambi e mi \u00e8 costato molto.<\/strong> Ho perso me stessa senza nemmeno saperlo. Ho perso la fiducia in me stessa e ho dimenticato il mio valore. In ogni aspetto della mia vita ho iniziato a dare priorit\u00e0 a te. Ho dimenticato chi ero e cosa volevo. Tutti i miei sogni e le mie aspirazioni sono diventati un ricordo lontano.<\/p>\n

I don\u2019t blame you. This was my mistake and I am going to make it right. I am going to rebuild my life. The life I am proud of. I am going to find that smile that I lost while I was with you. I am going to make myself happy and and I have already started that journey by leaving you.<\/strong><\/em><\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Somewhere along the way, I started loving you more than I loved myself. Somewhere along that same way, you stopped loving me altogether. I was living on cloud nine when I was with you. I really felt like we connected on every possible level. That\u2019s probably why I didn\u2019t mind us moving so fast in…<\/p>","protected":false},"author":40,"featured_media":21078,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29619],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-21073","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-stories-love"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29619,"label":"stories"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/07\/jorge.jpg",800,533,false],"author_info":{"display_name":"Tara Brown","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/author\/tara-brown\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29619,"name":"stories","slug":"stories-love","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29619,"taxonomy":"category","description":"To all the souls struggling with complicated love experiences: These heartfelt stories about love, heartbreak, and moving on will be your voice of wisdom.","parent":38,"count":424,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29619,"category_count":424,"category_description":"To all the souls struggling with complicated love experiences: These heartfelt stories about love, heartbreak, and moving on will be your voice of wisdom.","cat_name":"stories","category_nicename":"stories-love","category_parent":38}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21073","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/40"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=21073"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21073\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/21078"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=21073"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=21073"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=21073"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}