{"id":21523,"date":"2018-08-02T11:43:11","date_gmt":"2018-08-02T11:43:11","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/herway.net\/?p=21523"},"modified":"2021-08-12T06:54:16","modified_gmt":"2021-08-12T06:54:16","slug":"mi-sono-stancata-di-lui-che-mi-spezzava-il-cuore-e-mi-sono-innamorata-di-me-stessa","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/mi-sono-stancata-di-lui-che-mi-spezzava-il-cuore-e-mi-sono-innamorata-di-me-stessa\/","title":{"rendered":"Mi sono stancata di lui che mi spezzava il cuore, cos\u00ec mi sono innamorata di me stessa"},"content":{"rendered":"

Una volta mi sono innamorata di lui. Una volta, ho dato tutta me stessa a<\/i><\/b>o the man who couldn\u2019t care less for me<\/i><\/b><\/a>. Una volta mi hanno spezzato il cuore. <\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

Sono stata picchiata fino alla morte emotiva. Ero come un cadavere vivente, che respirava, mangiava, beveva, ma non riusciva a provare nulla. <\/span><\/p>\n

Ero completamente intorpidita nel mio mondo di caos, quello che lui ha fatto della mia vita, promettendomi una favola all'inizio. Ma tutto ci\u00f2 che ho ottenuto sono state lacrime, tristezza e agonia. Mi meritavo tutto questo, ma alla fine non ho ottenuto nulla di buono, e lui \u00e8 l'unico da biasimare per questo.<\/span><\/p>\n

He was such a nice guy at first. He took care of me. He protected me, and he was keeping me like I was the apple of his eye. But somewhere along the road, he changed. He transformed into a man I couldn\u2019t recognize anymore. He started picking fights out of nowhere. <\/span><\/p>\n

He always made me feel like I wasn\u2019t good enough for him, like I just got lucky for him choosing me. He made me believe<\/span> Ero io quello non amabile,<\/span><\/a> the one who doesn\u2019t deserve love and good treatment. <\/span><\/p>\n

He convinced me that the way he was treating me was the right way because I didn\u2019t deserve anything better than that. He made me completely lose myself over him. <\/span><\/p>\n

He always wanted me to make him my priority while he never made me his. And I, blindly in love accepted all of his terms. I accepted them all and didn\u2019t ask what I will get from it. <\/span><\/p>\n

I just obeyed him, thinking that he knows best. I didn\u2019t even use my head to think about that. I didn\u2019t think about the fact that he was using me all that time. <\/span><\/p>\n

E lui sapeva tutto fin dall'inizio, ma non l'ha mai ammesso perch\u00e9 gli faceva comodo. Tenermi vicino e farmi fare tutto quello che voleva era il suo obiettivo finale. <\/span><\/p>\n

Aveva solo bisogno di un pupazzo che danzasse come lui, e ha trovato il pupazzo che fa per lui. <\/span>vittima perfetta<\/span><\/a> in me. Ho fatto tutto quello che voleva, pensando di dovermi comportare cos\u00ec perch\u00e9 lo amo. <\/span><\/p>\n

Pensavo di fare qualcosa di bello per la nostra relazione, ma lui non ha mai fatto nulla di bello per me. E ogni volta che glielo dicevo, ogni volta che gli dicevo che avrebbe dovuto cercare di tenermi nella relazione, lui mi diceva solo che ho bisogno di lui pi\u00f9 di quanto lui abbia bisogno di me e che posso andarmene se voglio. <\/span><\/p>\n

E credetemi, le sue parole mi hanno ferito come una spada affilatissima, trafiggendo il mio cuore pi\u00f9 e pi\u00f9 volte. In quel momento ho capito che non mi ha mai amato veramente. Amava solo l'idea che io fossi vicina per soddisfare tutti i suoi desideri. Mi avrebbe sempre fatto restare perch\u00e9 aveva bisogno di me. <\/span><\/p>\n

Tuttavia, aveva bisogno di me per scopi negativi. Ero solo una persona a cui si era abituato. Sapevo che tipo di caff\u00e8 gli piaceva, come doveva essere la sua colazione e come voleva che fossero lavati i suoi vestiti. <\/span><\/p>\n

Mi voleva vicino perch\u00e9 gli ero familiare, perch\u00e9 incontrare un'altra donna e insegnarle tutte le cose che sapevo sarebbe stato un problema. <\/span><\/p>\n

That\u2019s why<\/span> ha fatto tanti sforzi <\/span><\/a>per tenermi vicino. L'ha fatto manipolandomi, mentendomi e mettendomi in cattiva luce. \u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

He used all means necessary to keep me close and he managed to do that. It wasn\u2019t so hard since I was madly in love with him. He used my heart and my feelings to get what he wanted, and he succeeded in his plan. <\/span><\/p>\n

He got what he wanted, and I ended up with my heart bleeding. \u00a0He broke my heart so many times. I don\u2019t remember the number of times I forgave him for hurting me, thinking that he will change. <\/span><\/p>\n

Ma un giorno mi sono stancata di tutto questo. Mi sono stancata di lui che mi sminuiva e mi mentiva, <\/span>manipolandomi<\/span><\/a> e non mi amava affatto. Cos\u00ec, ho deciso che era giunto il momento di rinunciare a lui. <\/span><\/p>\n

You know, giving up on him was the hardest thing I\u2019ve ever had to do but it was the only way to get my old life back. I suffered when I let him go, but I had lived in pain for such a long time, and I simply had to make some change. I needed to feel alive again. <\/span><\/p>\n

I needed to feel worthy and lovable again. And he couldn\u2019t provide me with that. He didn\u2019t know how to love me, so I fell in love with myself instead. I was his prisoner for a long time and I needed to break free from him. <\/span><\/p>\n

And the day I did it, I was born again. I started enjoying things that I enjoyed before I met him, and it was such an amazing feeling. I started going out with my friends, meeting new people and making my dreams come true. I started doing all those things he forbade me while I was in a relationship with him\u2014things that I had missed so much.<\/span><\/p>\n

And most of all, I got the old me back, the person I craved so much but couldn\u2019t get because he had trapped her in his web of lies. But now, all is over! He doesn\u2019t possess me anymore. <\/span><\/p>\n

He doesn\u2019t have the right to come into my life again. And even if he wants it, I would never let him come back. One toxic man was enough for my whole life. The last thing I need is to put up with his shit again and ruin my life. <\/span><\/p>\n

Invece, ho scelto di essere di nuovo felice. Ho scelto di<\/i><\/b> iniziare un nuovo capitolo della mia vita!<\/i><\/b><\/a> E soprattutto ho scelto di innamorarmi di me stessa!<\/i><\/b><\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Once upon a time, I fell in love with him. Once upon a time, I gave all of myself to the man who couldn\u2019t care less for me. Once upon a time, I got my heart broken. I was beaten to an emotional death. I was like a living corpse, breathing, eating, drinking, but being…<\/p>","protected":false},"author":22,"featured_media":21527,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29644],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-21523","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-self-love"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29644,"label":"self-love"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/08\/jordan-whitfield-525164-unsplash.jpg",800,533,false],"author_info":{"display_name":"Tina Navarro","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/author\/tatiana\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29644,"name":"self-love","slug":"self-love","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29644,"taxonomy":"category","description":"Self-love is not an option but a necessity. Boost your self-confidence, learn to love yourself and ditch toxicity because you deserve to be happy.","parent":29643,"count":290,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29644,"category_count":290,"category_description":"Self-love is not an option but a necessity. Boost your self-confidence, learn to love yourself and ditch toxicity because you deserve to be happy.","cat_name":"self-love","category_nicename":"self-love","category_parent":29643}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21523","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/22"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=21523"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21523\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/21527"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=21523"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=21523"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=21523"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}