{"id":21885,"date":"2020-02-15T09:06:32","date_gmt":"2020-02-15T09:06:32","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/herway.net\/?p=21885"},"modified":"2021-08-12T11:43:02","modified_gmt":"2021-08-12T11:43:02","slug":"il-giorno-in-cui-mi-sono-innamorato-di-me-stesso","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/il-giorno-in-cui-mi-sono-innamorato-di-me-stesso\/","title":{"rendered":"Il giorno in cui mi sono innamorato di me stesso"},"content":{"rendered":"

Sei sempre stata la mia priorit\u00e0, ma questa volta ho scelto me stessa.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Ti ho dato tutto.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Eri il centro del mio mondo. Ti ho dato tutto quello che potevo e molto di pi\u00f9.<\/p>\n

I gave you second chances, I believed in your lies. I wanted us to last, so I trusted you, although I knew I shouldn\u2019t.<\/p>\n

I stood by your side even when things couldn\u2019t get any worse. When any sane person would scream in horror and pain and beg to leave, I stayed.<\/p>\n

Volevo essere presente per te. Volevo renderti le cose pi\u00f9 facili. Ma non mi sono mai reso conto che stavo distruggendo me stesso.<\/p>\n

I couldn\u2019t just let you go. There was so much love and time spent to be with you and I couldn\u2019t throw all of that away. I really wanted to fight to make something of us.<\/p>\n

Ho scelto di sopportare il dolore il pi\u00f9 a lungo possibile perch\u00e9 speravo segretamente che tu cambiassi.<\/p>\n

I was hoping that you\u2019d see what I was doing and how much I was sacrificing just to be with you.<\/p>\n

I knew that you were a nice guy deep down. But that niceness of yours was so deeply buried that I didn\u2019t see it anymore.<\/p>\n

Maybe you\u2019d chosen to change. Maybe you did it on purpose. Maybe it was easier for you that way.<\/p>\n

Quel giorno ho tristemente capito che non avresti mai riportato in vita la tua vecchia persona. Quel giorno ho capito che stavo lottando per niente.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Sapevo che se ti avessi lasciato andare e fossi andato via, sarei rimasto io con il cuore spezzato.<\/p>\n

That\u2019s why I tried so badly\u2014because despite the fact that I loved you, I was so scared of getting hurt once again.<\/p>\n

Deep inside, I knew what I was doing for you. I knew I shouldn\u2019t do any of those things but I kept trying to fix what was broken beyond repair.<\/p>\n

Ho visto il modo in cui ti comportavi e quello che facevi e l'ho giustificato.<\/p>\n

La gente veniva da me e mi chiedeva che problema avessi e perch\u00e9 ti comportassi da idiota e io inventavo scuse per te, anche se sapevo che avevano ragione. Ti stavi comportando da idiota.<\/p>\n

I knew that you\u2019d changed completely and that you didn\u2019t treat anyone with any respect, including me, and I stayed despite it all.<\/p>\n

I had so much understanding and no one could figure out why. My friends tried to talk me into leaving you, they were asking me why I put up with all of that and all I had to say every time was: \u201cI love him.\u201d<\/p>\n

I ignored everything around me. I ignored all the warnings because I didn\u2019t want to believe it. I didn\u2019t want to believe that this was happening to me.<\/p>\n

E ogni volta che mi sono trovata di fronte a una scelta, ho scelto di amare te piuttosto che me stessa.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Scegliendo te, ho perso me stessa. Sono cambiata per te, mi sono comportata come volevi tu perch\u00e9 l'unica cosa che ho sempre voluto \u00e8 la tua approvazione. Tutto ci\u00f2 che ho sempre voluto \u00e8 che tu fossi felice con me e intorno a me.<\/p>\n

Ma qualsiasi cosa facessi non era mai abbastanza. Volevi sempre che facessi un passo in pi\u00f9.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Ho scelto te al posto dei miei amici, ho scelto te al posto della mia carriera, ogni singola volta, ho scelto te.<\/p>\n

Dopo qualche tempo, eri l'unica cosa che mi era rimasta. Se ci penso, sono rimasto al tuo fianco perch\u00e9 avevo paura di perdere anche te.<\/p>\n

Ho perso tutto il resto. Tu eri l'unico posto sicuro che conoscevo. Infelice, ma sicuro.<\/p>\n

Sono rimasta con te in quel bozzolo sicuro che ho creato e tu sapevi che mi sentivo cos\u00ec, cos\u00ec ne hai approfittato. Mi hai usato nel modo pi\u00f9 degradante, hai manomesso la mia mente.<\/p>\n

You could manipulate me because I became frightened and lost, so naturally I listened to the only thing I had left in my life\u2014you.<\/p>\n

Quel giorno mi sono innamorata di me stessa.<\/strong><\/p>\n

I\u2019d given up. I\u2019d left and deleted every memory of you in my life and it was the hardest thing that I ever had to do. I\u2019m not over you and God knows when I will be.<\/p>\n

But there are so many mixed memories in my mind right now. I don\u2019t know whether to love or hate you.<\/p>\n

Mi sento depresso e solo e penso a noi. Penso a tutti i bei momenti passati insieme.<\/p>\n

Penso alle nostre gite al fiume, alle nostre corse sotto la pioggia. Penso a quando mi hai spinto sull'erba bagnata mentre pioveva a dirotto.<\/p>\n

Eravamo entrambi bagnati fradici. Ridevamo entrambi. Eravamo entrambi felici.<\/p>\n

That\u2019s when I fall apart\u2014when I think of the good things. But, then comes the horror. Then my mind takes me on a hell journey through my memories.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Poi penso a quando mi hai trascinato sul pavimento perch\u00e9 stavamo litigando. Penso a quando mi hai messo entrambe le mani intorno al collo, con uno sguardo folle e selvaggio negli occhi.<\/p>\n

Poi ricordo tutte le cose orribili che hai fatto e detto. Allora mi arrabbio.<\/p>\n

I know it\u2019s stupid but even now that I\u2019ve left, I still hope that we will be together.<\/p>\n

I still hope that we will laugh and be happy. I hope that you\u2019ll once again become the man you were.<\/p>\n

I don\u2019t know how long this is going to last. All I know is that it has to stop.<\/p>\n

It\u2019s for the best, I understand that. I chose my destiny the day I left you. I chose to love myself instead of you.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Ho solo bisogno di trovare quel motivo per amare di nuovo me stessa.<\/p>\n

Devo imparare a vivere da sola, a scrivere, a cantare, a dipingere e a fare tutte le cose che amo. Devo rimettere la mia vita in carreggiata. Devo farlo a piccoli passi.<\/p>\n

I will love myself more each day that I\u2019m not close to you. I just have to be strong enough not to go back to that something I ran away from.<\/p>\n

One day you\u2019re just going to be a memory but now, me leaving is still the day I wish had never happened.<\/p>\n

\"IL<\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

You were always my priority but this time I chose myself. I gave you everything. You were the center of my world. I gave you everything I could and way beyond. I gave you second chances, I believed in your lies. I wanted us to last, so I trusted you, although I knew I shouldn\u2019t….<\/p>","protected":false},"author":22,"featured_media":21886,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29644],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-21885","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-self-love"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29644,"label":"self-love"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/08\/artem-bali-776386-unsplash.jpg",800,533,false],"author_info":{"display_name":"Tina Navarro","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/author\/tatiana\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29644,"name":"self-love","slug":"self-love","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29644,"taxonomy":"category","description":"Self-love is not an option but a necessity. Boost your self-confidence, learn to love yourself and ditch toxicity because you deserve to be happy.","parent":29643,"count":290,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29644,"category_count":290,"category_description":"Self-love is not an option but a necessity. Boost your self-confidence, learn to love yourself and ditch toxicity because you deserve to be happy.","cat_name":"self-love","category_nicename":"self-love","category_parent":29643}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21885","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/22"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=21885"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21885\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/21886"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=21885"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=21885"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=21885"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}