It\u2019s been quite a ride. I\u2019ve been through so much you can\u2019t even start to imagine. I think if you had to live in my mind for even a day, you wouldn\u2019t make it. You wouldn\u2019t be able to endure all the pain I\u2019ve felt.<\/p>\n
But, you know what? That passes. First it consumes you. You don’t have the will to live. You don\u2019t have any strength to get up in the morning.<\/p>\n
Tutto il vostro mondo svanisce. Tutto ci\u00f2 che conoscevate e di cui vi fidavate \u00e8 improvvisamente scomparso.<\/strong><\/p>\n Then you\u2019re faced with survival. Then you have to learn to lasciare andare le cose<\/a> e andare avanti. Per il vostro bene. Per il bene della vostra sanit\u00e0 mentale e del vostro benessere emotivo e fisico.<\/p>\n It\u2019s been quite a ride as I\u2019ve already said. It took me so long to get to the point where I am now. And I want you to know that my heart moved on. I want you to know that we are okay.<\/p>\n Ti ho perdonato, ma non voglio vederti mai pi\u00f9.<\/em><\/p>\n It still hurts, and it will for much longer. But I\u2019m at peace now, and there is nothing in this world that can bring me down, that can disturb the serenity I\u2019ve created for myself.<\/p>\n I\u2019m finally ready to take all the anger and bitterness I\u2019ve felt for you and put it behind me.<\/strong><\/p>\n I didn\u2019t like myself when I was sad and angry. It changed me, and it made me do and feel things I would never do and feel. The anger I felt for you pulled out the worst in me.<\/p>\n I\u2019m glad that I shook it off because my life is at stake. With that much bitterness inside me, I actually chased away people that cared for me, people that wanted me to get better.<\/p>\n I didn’t see that then. I was blinded by the pain, by the sadness and loneliness.<\/em><\/p>\n Back then, I blamed myself for the downfall we went through. But, today I realize that it was never all my fault. Of course, it takes two to tango, and it\u2019s never just one person’s fault.<\/p>\n Forse avrei dovuto essere pi\u00f9 ragionevole. Forse avrei dovuto darti pi\u00f9 compassione. Ma per cosa? Non hai mai mostrato che ti importava. Non hai mai fatto sforzi o cercato di convincermi che le cose sarebbero andate meglio.<\/p>\n I mean, you did try, but that was only when I had had enough. That was only when I was about to leave, so you lied, saying you were going to change, but you knew that you wouldn\u2019t. You did it just to make me stay.<\/p>\n I know now that I deserve better. Huh, isn\u2019t this a total cliche? But you know what, it\u2019s true. There is no better way to put how I feel than to say, \u201cI deserve better!\u201d<\/strong><\/p>\n I didn\u2019t deserve how you treated me, but I blame myself for not putting a stop to it. I could have sobered up a long time ago. But, what\u2019s done is done. I\u2019m looking forward now.<\/p>\n I don\u2019t hate you because I don\u2019t have to. Hating you won\u2019t erase all the bad memories. It won\u2019t change you or make anything better. It will only make me feel worse than I already do. It can only change me and turn me into a person I don\u2019t want to be.<\/p>\n So, no, I don\u2019t hate you.<\/em><\/p>\n I don\u2019t resent you for anything. I realized that by turning you into the center of my attention by being angry and bitter, I\u2019m giving you the attention and power you don\u2019t deserve.<\/p>\n Quindi la cosa migliore che potessi fare era semplicemente lasciarti andare e perdonarti ogni piccola cosa dolorosa che mi hai fatto.<\/strong><\/p>\n If I kept thinking about you, I would have never found closure. This way, I sleep peaceful at night. This way I don\u2019t have to feel guilty about anything.<\/p>\n Il mio cuore \u00e8 in pace perch\u00e9 I\u2019ve moved on<\/a> without anyone\u2019s help. I gave myself the closure I needed.<\/strong><\/p>\n L'unica cosa che voglio ancora nella mia vita \u00e8 non vederti mai pi\u00f9. I don\u2019t want you to be any part of my life<\/a>. I don\u2019t want to see you. I don\u2019t want to hear from you. In my mind, you\u2019ve never existed, and I\u2019d like to keep it that way.<\/p>\n I\u2019m not doing this because I\u2019m scared that I\u2019ll get back together with you. I\u2019m doing this because I\u2019m scared I might hate you, and I don\u2019t want that. We\u2019re perfectly fine\u2014just go away.<\/p>\n Let me build the life I want to live. Leave me alone, and don\u2019t mess up everything I\u2019ve worked so hard for\u2014my peace, my self-respect and my love for myself.<\/p>\n