{"id":26041,"date":"2019-10-17T07:18:04","date_gmt":"2019-10-17T07:18:04","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/herway.net\/?p=26041"},"modified":"2021-08-11T10:50:49","modified_gmt":"2021-08-11T10:50:49","slug":"17-cose-che-ho-provato-dopo-che-un-narcisista-mi-ha-distrutto","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/17-cose-che-ho-provato-dopo-che-un-narcisista-mi-ha-distrutto\/","title":{"rendered":"17 cose che ho provato dopo che un narcisista mi ha spezzato"},"content":{"rendered":"

1. Paura.<\/b> Avevo paura per la mia vita. Ovunque andassi, avevo la paranoia che mi seguisse.<\/p>\n

Ho sbirciato dalle finestre e mi sono nascosta dietro gli alberi. Avevo una paura matta che tornasse di nuovo.<\/p>\n

2. Like I\u2019m never going to be the same again. Il mio dolore emotivo si \u00e8 trasformato in un dolore reale.<\/b> Il petto mi faceva male, il cuore saltava i battiti.<\/p>\n

It physically hurt me. I couldn\u2019t get up a flight of stairs. I ran out of breath. His abuse made me physically ill.<\/p>\n

3. La mia autostima era distrutta.<\/b> It didn\u2019t exist. I was so insecure, I was afraid of everything, and I listened to everyone except myself.<\/p>\n

I resented myself for letting him break me. I couldn\u2019t trust myself for a long time.<\/p>\n

4. Ho perso la mia dignit\u00e0 e Ho perso me stesso<\/b>.<\/span> Dovevo trovare la strada per tornare a vivere la vita che conoscevo un tempo, ma il percorso era confuso.<\/p>\n

I saw it in the distance, but no matter how hard I tried, I couldn\u2019t get to it.<\/p>\n

5. Ho avuto degli incubi<\/b> che sembrava una realt\u00e0 crudele e dura. Mi svegliavo nel cuore della notte urlando il suo nome e pregandolo di smettere.<\/p>\n

I was crying in my sleep because of the things he had done to me. My dreams became the projection of the fear that I lived with\u2014him coming back.<\/p>\n

6. I was vulnerable. Everything upset me. I couldn\u2019t hold in my tears for the slightest thing that happened. At that time, sembrava insopportabile<\/b>.<\/p>\n

It seemed like it would never go away because my heart and my soul couldn\u2019t bear more problems, more pain. I was like a delicate flower left to the mercy of a cold winter wind\u2014just one blow could tear me apart.<\/p>\n

7. Every person I met was a potential threat. Not only that I couldn\u2019t trust myself, I couldn\u2019t trust others either<\/b>. I scared away some good people from my life because I wasn\u2019t ready to let anyone into my life.<\/p>\n

Life seemed too hard and too shitty then, and every person I met was a part of it. That\u2019s how I looked at it.<\/p>\n

8. Ho cercato di nascondere il dolore e il disprezzo, la rabbia e la collera che crescevano ogni giorno di pi\u00f9. Ho cercato di comportarmi normalmente.<\/p>\n

Ho cercato di essere felice. Quindi, Faccio un sorriso finto<\/b>ma i miei occhi vi hanno raccontato la vera storia. I miei occhi hanno conservato la verit\u00e0.<\/p>\n

9. I didn\u2019t know what happiness felt like.<\/b> Era da molto tempo che non ridevo sinceramente. \u00c8 passato molto tempo da quando ero veramente me stesso.<\/p>\n

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10. Sono diventato guardingo.<\/b> I couldn\u2019t let anyone get close to me and beat me to the ground. He broke me and brought me to the rock bottom.<\/p>\n

He put me in complete darkness, and now that I\u2019d finally seen the light, just a hint of hope, I wouldn\u2019t let anyone compromise it. I built walls no one was able to tear down.<\/p>\n

11. I couldn\u2019t get out of bed. I didn\u2019t want to. I felt safe there, away from everyone. Ho bloccato le persone che mi amano<\/b>e l'ansia \u00e8 diventata la mia migliore amica.<\/p>\n

Eravamo sempre insieme. Era solo un passo avanti verso uno stato emotivamente travolgente. L'ansia mi ha tenuto prigioniero<\/span><\/a> per molto tempo.<\/p>\n

12. People who loved me stayed anyway. They didn\u2019t turn their backs on me. I\u2019ve discarded them because I wanted to be alone.<\/p>\n

Sapevano che avevo bisogno di tempo,<\/b> and they never left. They knew I couldn\u2019t just get over it that easily. They bore with me; they gave me time.<\/p>\n

13. Mi sono sentita giudicata.<\/b> Sentivo che le persone mi guardavano alle spalle e commentavano in silenzio la mia vita.<\/p>\n

I felt guilty for needing time to heal as if I was doing something wrong. I got sick of people who hadn\u2019t got the slightest idea of who I am meddling with my life.<\/p>\n

14. I needed someone to tell me that it\u2019s all over. Avevo bisogno di essere rassicurato<\/b>.<\/span><\/p>\n

Avevo bisogno di qualcuno che mi dicesse che non sarebbe successo nulla di male. Avevo bisogno di sapere che d'ora in poi sar\u00f2 al sicuro.<\/p>\n

15. Mi sono scusato per ogni piccola cosa.<\/b> I felt that everything that happened around me was my fault, so I immediately said \u2018sorry\u2019, even when I didn\u2019t have to.<\/p>\n

Mi sono abituata a prendermi la colpa per evitare l'abuso emotivo, per abbassare i toni e calmarlo. Era sempre colpa mia, perch\u00e9 se avessi detto qualcosa di diverso, alla fine avrei pagato.<\/p>\n

16. I felt like I needed someone who\u2019ll mantenere le promesse<\/b> per un cambiamento. Ero stufo di bugie e delusioni.<\/p>\n

If someone were to lie to me, then I\u2019d rather have them gone.<\/p>\n

17. I\u2019m going to need time to sentire di nuovo l'amore<\/b>.<\/span> I don\u2019t know when it\u2019s going to happen.<\/p>\n

Forse domani, forse tra un giorno, forse tra un anno.<\/p>\n

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1. Fear. I was scared for my life. Wherever I went, I was paranoid he was following me. I peeked through windows, and I hid behind the trees. I was dead scared of him coming back again. 2. Like I\u2019m never going to be the same again. My emotional pain turned into a real one….<\/p>","protected":false},"author":21,"featured_media":26042,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_blocks_custom_css":"","_kad_blocks_head_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_body_custom_js":"","_kad_blocks_footer_custom_js":"","_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29633],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-26041","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-narcissism"],"taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":29633,"label":"narcissism"}]},"featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/herway.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/10\/bryaan-films-497849-unsplash.jpg",800,541,false],"author_info":{"display_name":"Maria Parker","author_link":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/author\/maria\/"},"comment_info":0,"category_info":[{"term_id":29633,"name":"narcissism","slug":"narcissism","term_group":0,"term_taxonomy_id":29633,"taxonomy":"category","description":"Mind games and manipulations are narcissist's favorite controlling tactics. Learn how their mind operates so that you can protect yourself. ","parent":22911,"count":233,"filter":"raw","cat_ID":29633,"category_count":233,"category_description":"Mind games and manipulations are narcissist's favorite controlling tactics. Learn how their mind operates so that you can protect yourself. ","cat_name":"narcissism","category_nicename":"narcissism","category_parent":22911}],"tag_info":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/26041","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/21"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=26041"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/26041\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/26042"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=26041"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=26041"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/herway.net\/it\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=26041"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}